Might be saying good bye to my best friend soon, shes dieing.

I am worried about peanuts cause every pic i see of her, it lok slike she is forcing her smile, shes happy but not completely, she has something bothering her and i want to know what dammit, no i am not talking bad about her, and i like her pics but i wanne see a real smile on her face

 

Have you ever been to my gallery Dreamweaver? If not, I invite you over to my gallery. I have lots of different pictures of me. I am sure you will find a smile you like.

 

Here is my best smile ever Dreamweaver:

 

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awww yeah i bet they do too

 

if its methadone you need.......you can get that on-line,could you afford to spend a little cash?its all ligit,pm me and we'll talk

 

I think your gettin' better. So sweet.

Thank YOU, Fractual, and Blackie. I think my face looks like a peanut in that picture. I was so happy when we took this. We were on a week long camping trip. We went to see The Grateful Dead that week. (1993).

Yes, that is my Mr. Nut. He is a SUPER guy. He puts up with me, that says a lot about him.

 

Do not use my name in your threads. It's copyrighted.

 

So your First Name is Pea?

 

My first name is Laura but you can call me Pea if you'd like, I just can't guaranty I'll answer unless nut is attached, lol

 

would you answer to any other nut attatched phrases? Brazilnut?

 

DreamWeaver, I have read many of your other posts and threads and I think you are definately now heading in the right direction. I have of course tried cocaine on occaision when I was around the age of twenty and I found it just kept me up all night and was real expensive. I though why don't I just take a hit of speed if I want to stay up all night? I like to smoke weed and I have to quit so I feel your pain. I have quit before, of course when pregnant I did not smoke. I have realized that I am numbing the pain with it. Also, since my dickhead husband is acting so strange I think I better get ready for the next wave of crises with a clear head. You have my support. I think your life will get a lot better after you get over the addiction. I had an alcoholic father and I have seen what that does to people. It is pretty sad. Also, I've heard of people as young as seventeen having heart attacks on coke or meth. Good luck and remember to find other ways of comforting yourself that will replace the drugs.

 

Probably not.

 

That's great to hear BigBong..... best of wishes on your journey hun.


DreamWeaver - Peanuts and KJ have basically summed up what I would have said, so the words I will leave you with are simply, I love ya.

 

By the way I think that's the meanest thing I've heard lately. That e-mail you got. Mean people suck.

 

very true...

 

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I am not calling you crazy. In fact I am thinking much nicer thoughts.

You do what you have to do. You know your limits. No one can do this for you but we can sure help guide you along the way.

I am impressed with you. I so much more enjoy talking to you when you "get real". I don't neccessarily enjoy having to talk about something that brings you pain but I do enjoy talking to you when you make more sense.

You are really growing on me Dreamweaver. (must of been your love for your Mother, among other reasons) Your in my prayers.

 

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In a way I can kind of relate. I always want to make others feel better about themselves. I don't always feel better about myself but knowing I could be helping someone else makes me feel good, almost whole.

I think I do understand, at least some of what your sayin'g. You do have a light about you. Keep letting YOUR light shine.