God DAMN I need a cigarette!!!! :(

Do you guys really actually hate each other? lol. I see ur banter in about 5 forums at the same time.. hehe.

Marie-Clare xxx

 

Nah. He loves me. He's just bitter coz I won't agree to cyber with him in PMs

 

aww, love and hate. They are so close!


Marie-Clare xxx

 

Are you complaining that I won't be able to keep up with you sexually because of my age?

 

Yeah I heard that before. it's not that suprising when u think about it...I mean cigarettes are so much more a habbit - shopping break, having a drink, getting reading to go out, after an argument, after dinner , after sex!

Oh god why did I ever decide to quit!!


Marie-Clare xxx

 

I have firmly and aggresively started smoking again......damn!!!

 

No, I just makes me angry! But then...seeing a butterfly fluttering around a daisy would make me a lil pissed off these days. haha...

Marie-Clare xxx

 

it's not just the comfort of having a fag, it's a chemical dependancy which changes a lot of the way your body works, I'll admit that I'm weak and that the idea of quitting gives me the fear but then I've been on 20 a day (at least) for about 10 of my 15 smoking years and my body is very used to it now.

 

Oh yeah I totally agree with that. Not at long as you, but i've smoked 20 a year for about the past two years - your body gets used to it VERY quickly. But its the habbit breaking is the major hurdle for most, because it's in the mind.

 

I don't think I really have a problem with the habit part of it as I've never really noticed that as a problem, possibly just because I was a bit too far down in the cold turkey at the time though!

I've had a few addictions in my time and managed to kick every single one of them appart from smoking, most of them I haven't gone back to in about 5-7 years and the others I keep at a strictly social level that I'm comfortable with but smoking for me is the most evil and addictive thing out there.

I have often been walking down the street having a fag and asked myself why I do it, from an abstract point of view it really is one of the most silly things a person can do but then I realise that it's the fear of those few weeks (maybe more, I've never found out) of utter hell added to by people laughing at you because they haven't got a clue whats going on that keeps me smoking.

 

True, being able to smoke a fag whilst walking down the street does make it a lot easier to take it back up again (just realised that Americans might mis read that one! ).

all junkies that I've ever met have a lot of guilt based around their habit which is a good place to start a recovery from whereas most smokers don't have that.

The chemical dependency is also considered by people who have been junkies and smokers (again, every junkie I've ever met!) to be worse with smoking as the cravings are more of a constant pain that most people never get over rather than a week or so with intense cold turkey.

I think the point I'm trying to make is that with smoking you can never realise that you're over the worst of it as it'll always be there and always be very available whereas a junky can at least say 'thank god that cold turkey is over' (usually before relapsing yet again but then there are plenty of people who manage to quit for life as well) coupled with other peoples approach to junkies being a complete lack of understanding and in most cases hatred it becomes a tad easier for the junky to quit. (I'm using 'tad' without the usual sarcasm here)

I know it sounds a bit over the top to associate quitting smoking with quitting junk but it's a comparison made by people who have real experience of both and tend to see smoking as the hardest to quit.

I must admit that I've been laughing at someone who's trying to quit smoking recently because I've seen him try to quit a few times and never really show any withdrawal symptoms or even complain about cravings and I've never really seen him as a proper smoker' i.e.. one with a chemical dependency. It's only recently that I've become aware that it is something that he's taking seriously and is having problems with, the laughing never helps someone who's really trying to quit, all it does is pisses them off and makes them want to smoke. Just don't do it!

 

In the arena of gay sex, you're 100% correct.

 

I think the Dok may be in a close second though!

 

Only in your wet and wild dreams

 

But I'm not gay and you are, so that statement makes no sense.

 

Awwww, you really can't stop fantasising about me, can you? Feeling lonely?

 

Hi all, new here.....

Just wanted to say hang in there mate, if ya wanna quit then stick to your guns and do it. Soon you will be able to smell all the beautiful things in the world much better.

 

*note to self - 'Must try harder'*

 

THAT'S IT...back to square one i guess! Had about 20 tonight!!! I hate how easy it is... i'm really mad at myself. Especially how much i don't hate myself for it...which is kinda messed up.


Marie-Clare xxx