What am I supposed to do Sneak around corners to talk to you Worry about when youll call I cant make this outline trace and I cant lie while looking him in the face He takes care of me Does his best to provide what isnt free. We have a life and a home. But you and I we dont, all we have is two years of my past wrapped in heart strings to fragile to last its to much to handle talking needless to say touching My only option is writing you out. And it hurts to think about seeing you in the street and turning my head so our eyes dont meet but its the only way to keep my feet from moving in your direction.
I like to consider myself an amateur psychologist (gets me into a lot of trouble) If I may I'd like to offer an anylitical opinion. You're in the Archetypical position of womenkind who has to juggle two relationships while trying not to hurt anyones feelings but becomes an object of derision none the less. You feel the weight of premonition that He who Does his best to provide what isnt free will discover then end the relationship. Would you blame him? Wouldn't you do the same in his position? Perhaps it is karma. perhaps all our Archetypical scenes are no more than continual karmic replays of an original situation. As such we could forsee the future wherein you constantly kick yourself for ruining a good thing, when it really isn't your fault. Hell, the men probably play around as much as you do and experience the same fears and self-recrimination.
I'm not sure what to make of this one, actually. At first I thought it was just another girl writing to ennoble herself instead of admitting she's self-absorbed to the point of having no clear sense of anything but her own predictable emotions. But then I read it over and realized that it's unclear as to whether or not she has actually followed through with the affair, which makes it a lot more powerful. It seems to me it's not necessarily a lame-ass 'tragedy' about some girl who wants to fuck other guys but is trapped in a loveless marriage, but about those thoughts that save us from our temptations and keep us bound to the things that are important to us. I know that might sound conservative, but I think it's still a good message. Our hearts DO wander... because we always want more than we have, and we're always curious. But we can still control them, and even if it hurts us, we know it is the right thing to do, because we don't want to hurt the people we love, the people we know we can count on and the people who love us. Anyway, I'm totally against the reasoning that 'cheating on someone is perfectly okay as long as it's because your heart is too big to be contained in one relationship', and I'm definitely against 'I'm the victim of my boring husband/wife' crap, and I'm even more against 'women are weak and should be pitied when they can't get what their men won't allow them to have', which is just deplorable-- and yet too often the excuse made by someone who hates having to be responsible and doesn't want to face up to the guilt of having neglected their responsibilities. Anyway, the bottom line is that it made me think and it's simply worded and direct, and that's a good thing, I think... even though it's not the kind of thing I would really get into ordinarily.
thanks for the feedback. i really appreciate it. p.s. heywood floyd- i have not acted on anything, it is strictly temptation. but i really liked what you had to say.
Feelings are all we are made of. Our hearts and our minds curse each other back forth. Anyway, I think that a little separation some where with the piece would help. Break it up a little.
now i have no idea who these two men are, im assuming you are a straight woman. now a little insight on my life.. i am 17 years old, soon to graduate high school. yea im just a kid. you may disregard my opinion based on my age. do what you will. you are obviously torn between both of them. you obviously love your husband very much. your husband provides security. will this other man be able to provide the love and material needs your husband provide? this is the heartbreaking question, because in your heart you truly know that love will exist without material possession. but the true question is of the relationship itself. he knows you are taken, so what is he shooting for? There are three basic options, however there may be lurking variables. A: He is completely and totally in love with you and will do anything possible to be with you. The hopeful solution. B: Like most men, as the woman i am in love with who lives 1000 miles south of me ALWAYS says when i say i want her, it is "Typical. You want what you can't have." The feared solution. and finally C: You lead him on. You offer him hope, when in reality he has no chance whatsoever.. It started as nothing, and as he became attached to you, you slowly became attached to him. The unconscious solution, effected strongly by your superego. But honestly, no matter what it is, Follow your heart. Regret is a bitch.
