I have severe bipolar and am somewhat stable on meds. I'm currently fighting the depression that I feel creaping upon me. I just want it to all go away. I hate my disorder so much! I am trying though. I've been meditating and calling people the moment I feel blue. Granted, I'm not talking about what's making me blue because I don't want to bother them. Instead we talk about whatever and it helps for a while. I'm also trying to change my diet (eating mostly raw foods) and that's been helping too though I have been eating a lot of cooked again. I just want to feel better. In the past, deep inside, I used to not want to get better even though I said I did. But something has changed, I don't know what, and I truly want to get better this time. I finally start seeing a new therapist on Friday. Hopefully that will help too. Something has got to give. I can't handle this roller coaster anymore. *hugs* Jess
Good luck with the new therapist, Jess. Let us know how it went. It does seem like having someone to talk is what you need right now.
Thank you praxiskepsis. Yeah, I need a therapist badly right now. I haven't had one in a while. Can't wait till my appt tomorrow. I hope she's nice. Nothing worse than a mean therapist. lol
You guys are really supportive on here... it's really sweet to see that. and by the way...I dont really know you, but good luck Jess!
I think I can help, tell me what you think. 2 teaspoons of cod liver oil gives the brain the complex proteins it needs to function properly, regular exercise like jogging helps increase oxygen supply to the brain and also the act of exercising releases endorphins which help regulate the brain's activities. Psychologically you should recognise that emotions are just physical sensations which you do not have to let affect how you act, that fixating on irrelevant things is pointless, if other people were in your situation they would most likely act in the same way or possibly worse and experiences like this strengthen your charactes. Also find a harmless distraction to think about that consumes all your attention like a puzzle, a computer game, possibly even daily chores, your work or some crazy combination of the 4. Whenever you feel like you've lost control distract yourself in this harmless way and you won't have the urge to do something harmful. Also since emotions are just a physical sensation they do not have to be part of your thought process. Consider Freud and his escape mechanisms, one thing in common with all escape mechanisms is the denial of where the emotion comes from, the cure therefore is to accept that they are alien to you as a sapient thinking being. Freud described the ID, ego and super-ego which was proven biologically to correlate with how the brain is structured. The Amygdala is the ID which is the emotional part of the brain whilst the neo-cortex is the super-ego which is the thinking part of the brain. Freud also described the ego which mediates between the 2 balancing between animal instincts and rational codes, so where is that situated? It can't be situated in the animal amygdala, the amygdala fires off emotions winny nilly, it must be situated in the neo-cortex, the same place as the ego. My point is that as strong as your feelings may be they are as much a part of your mind as your finger is, they are yours to control not the other way round. You choose what you associate your emotions with. hm... I got carried away with my talk, sorry if I bored you.....
Greetings. Depression is an awful thing to go through. thou hast gone through it myself. I felt the darkness creeping in, the confidence crash and sleepless nights growing more frequent. It also affects my level of cleanliness and influences my actions. With the winter well and truly upon us, the cold ice on the road, the harsh winds that beat the shopping centre in Surrey Quays. I mean winter is a gloomy time. The only thing that brightens it up, is infact Christmas. My advice, turn the heating up, make your place cosy, take your meds, but also seek company, talk through your problems. If you need to cry, let it out. Don't restrain. Let it out. It is normal to be depressed. Though it isn't right. It is apart of being Human. by reaching out here today, you have made the first step. The greatest step. One giant leap for man kind is to admit he or she has a problem. To be in touch with thou emotions, is to be real.
I have Bi-polar also on meds and see a good therapist.Like you I can't stand the ups and downs.I think I drive my friends crazy with my moods,they actually don't mind.There's enough understandable and intelligent things I say and we talk about even with the mood swings.I've learned after dealing with this a long time that my depression is temporary as well as my mania.I'm always on the roller-coaster,a big circle.What goes up must come down and it goes up again and down lol always in motion like cycles.Even in my worst depression I don't take it *as seriously as I would if I did'nt realize it was temporary and I'd go up again.I've gotten used to bearing the bad days and know it won't last forever.I can still get horribly depressed but inside I know I'll feel better eventually.I seek support i.e. family,friends,therapist,these forums whatever I can find that helps.As miserable as it gets I ride the roller-coaster to the next high and enjoy it while it last.Don't worry what you're going through is normal,just another day in the life of a manic-depressive it will pass.Hang in there! Joey
