this was My first trip, and although I was alone, I knew I was safe. I am very sensitive to chemicals in general, so I decided that I would start off EXTREMELY slow, so I only had two caps, which I ate with soynut butter(wonderful stuff. if you get the chance, try it) I figured If they didn't do anything, I would just take a couple more later. However, I also had two glasses of OJ. I was online with my friends on webcam, and was extremely giggly... My friends found me to be incredibly amusing . I conversed for what seemed like many hours, and finally, I started getting sleepy, so I played with my snake a while, then went to bed but did not sleep. I played with myself a little, but not with the usual goal in mind.. I was merely exploring sensations. this was when I began to get visuals. my walls distorted a little, and there was kind of a TV effect, like if you look at the tv very close you can see all the colors, it was like that, but faint. I stared out my window. My neighbors had left their porch light on, and although they live quite a distance a way (I live out in the boonies), I could see fairly well. the boat in their yard looked like a many legged beast (a benevolent one) that was moving ever so slowly, like a very sleepy caterlillar. the branches of the trees became feathered bird masks, and faces, it all seemed to follow a very tribal theme. sort of a pseudo Native American/Japanese/celtic theme. For a long time (or maybe only a few minutes) I just watched the masks in the branches changing. then I noticed that there was something right next to my window. It was a huge, all black very fat chuckwalla. I said hello, and although I could't here him, I FELT him say "hello. I am here for you just look back to me when you need me." I felt a similar presence from the huge oak tree that grows just about 30 feet from my window, but the Chuckwalla's presence was very there the entire time. I kind of dozed for a while but didn't sleep. after a while, I saw some large spindly black beings, that looked like deer (they probably were actually there, there are several families of blacktailed deer in my area) they moved the way water striders move on top of a pond. or like cars. they would stay in one place for a very long time, then flit very quickly to another spot.I never saw their legs move it was as if they simply glided above the ground, and they moves so fast. at one point a large buck went past my window, and he went so fast it was like a train had gone by. I could feel the force of his movement pulling on the leaves, and pulling on me when he went by. some raccoons ran through, leaping and bounding and making their raccoon noises.. they seemed to be exuding such a huge amount of joy and love, and that was when I realised, theat EVERYTHING that the plants and animals do in this world, they do out of love. they play, and mate, and have babies out of love. Wolves kill deer, not only for nourishment, but because they love the deer, and so that they can, for a period, become one with that deer. The deer allows itself to be killed out of love for the wolf because it knows the wolf needs to eat it to survive. I realised I had to pee, and so I got up and went to the bathroom which has a large mirror. I looked at my body and saw not what I sually see in the mirror, but a beautiful, powerful tribal warrior of love. I peed, and went back to my bed. the deer and raccons were gone, but my chuckwalla was still there. he watched over me as I drifted into sleep.
sounds like u def. had a connection with nature looking out your window. this reminds me of one of my first trips i was on a high peak in some woods by my house and two doves flew by in full stride. it was so beautiful, i still remember how breathtaking it was at the time. almost made me cry. nice report and happy tripping
am i just tripping or is that snake sig sparkling and stuff? I mean i am tripping but just wonderin...
