panic disorder

I can sense in the way you wrote that though that by the time you kept repeating "Everything is going to be okay" you were already paniced (sorry if that's wrong). It's great that you are able to reccogize when it's coming on, though. People with anxiety are generally super sensitive to bodily sensations. The cycle of panic starts with thinking of something upseting or worrisome which makes your body get hot, and your heart starts beating and you sweat and get dizzy and by realizing your body is doing that your panic increases then you have more bad thoughts and so on and so on.

I'd really say to find someone to talk to. I had many years of being overwhelmed with panic and anxiety and it took the right therapist to teach me the skills I use today to calm myself. It's always going to be something I deal with but it's definately managable and possible to feel better.

 

do you still smoke?
i seriously think somethings just wrong with my heart because b4 it comes i just get a tightness in my arm and neck and stuff

 

I've been taking a long hiatus from all drugs recently: weed, alcohol, caffeine and anything else. I've been getting really into Buddhism and trying to get healthy but not smoking has definately helped me getting a better hold and control of my anxiety. I'm sure I will smoke again once my head is clear and I am more balanced.

You could have something wrong with your heart, or it might just be anxiety. The only way is to see a doctor. Muscle tightness is another symptom if anxiety though but I'm no doctor so I can't say. I have a heart murmor and thedoctors kept just blaming my anxiety when I said I seriously thought something was wrong. It took a serious hospitalization from a very bad time in my life for them to actual check it out and realize something was wrong.

It's hard with anxiety for me atleast to draw the line between when I seriously should be worried or when it's just my head making me nervous. But the only way to relieve those deep fears is seeing a doctor

 

whats a heart murmor?

 

My heart just beats all irregular and stuff. They only mentioned it in the ER once though, didn't really explain it. I was extremely sick when they told me this though so it probably was from dehydration or everything that was in my system. But I definately feel like I still have it because my heart skips a beat sometimes.

I should webMd that shit... hmm... haha

 

ohhh i saw a doctor but they wont listen to me, they over look everything i say and i cant figure out why. LIke, i was trying to show him the discoloration in my nails and he went straight to the fact that their was black one some of my nails, and started saying i need help from a therapist. I was extremely offended that he wouldn't help.

 

my heart skips a beat!

 

You really need to be aggressive with doctors. If you really think somethings wrong, you need to fight them. It's fucking annoying but you have to do it. I hate that, I hate that because I'm anxious I'm marked with this stamp on my forehead, making all my doctors think I'm just worrying for nothing. Seriously though, you need to let them know you are genuinely concerned and it's their job to look into it.

 

i do, i talked for suuuuchhhh a long time telling him it wasnt in my head. Im just going to go to different doctors.

so panic attacks they just come out of nowhere also? like, if im happy? because that sucks haha. I was at the store with my friend all laughing and goofing and then i started grabing my heart and we started laughing more but it hurt haha

 

Panic attacks usually emerge out of no where. People tend to associate them with things around them, like never going into a grocery store after you had panic attack there because you think that's the cause. I think a criteria for panic disorder is intense fear of haivng another panic attack, which makes things that much worse. I'm not sure what your history is with it though, it can vary. I usually started to have panic whenever I was alone because my brain would just overload. But I've had them out of no where too, when happy and when upset or when just neutral. I'm not sure where they come from but they can definately be detoured and altered after you reccognize when it starts.

 

yeah when im alone my brain goes crazy thinking about everything
things that happen like years ago too haha.
i wanna make pot yogurt but im scared of having a panic attack too

 

ohhh and i havent really had a history it just started happening

 

how do you detour or alter it?

 

If your already worried about eating pot yogurt, most likely this uneasiness will carry into your high and intensify.

To stop it before it starts you need to short circuit it. Like I said, realize when it's coming on and then find what works for you to make things better. Meditation and deep breathing work for me. You could also try removing yourself from yout current environment, go talk to someone to get your mind off the panic track, maybe take a bath, put on some music, go exercise, start writing, drink some water. Just do anything that works for you, any of these things stops you from getting caught up in the anxiety and distracts your mind from further panic

 

Also, a last ditch thing I have in my reserve is calling this number on my insurance card. I'm not sure if you have this service, but check your card if you have health insurance or there are other numbers available for free, you can get them numbers from a doctor or hospital. But its a 24 hour mental health line and if I call them when I'm having a panic attack they help walk me through it and calm me down. I havent called them in years but it's comforting to hear a voice of reason when your brains going a million miles a minute.

 

all those things seem so much, because they happen constantly.
like for the past 30 mins ive been having a pain in my chest and neck... not extreme but its their, and i want it to go away lol.
u were asking about my background, i think my myspace shows me a lot
www.myspace.com/mayet

 

oh i tried to call this one number i saw online but right when i called a girl was talking and it made me really nervous because she was just like "can i help you" and i was said "i um, saw this thing on, ummm panic attack and umm" and she's like "yeah" and im like "umm okay ill call back later" and then i started crying haha
i didnt know what to do

 

Haha by backround i mean like medical and psychological haha. But your myspace looks nice regardless!
The help IS out there, it's really just what works for you and making the effort to utilize the resources available. Look around, don't get discouraged, try things out like therapy and meditation, find what works for you!

I need to go because my brothers moving in the early AM but message me if you'd like to chat more.

Things WILL get better, it just takes time.

 

thanks for your help i realllly appreciates it

 

its all so simple just grab a cig lean back and relax no worries for the next few hours

sp