witnessing the slow death that is addiction.

i dont know why im posting this,i suppose because im a former junkie,and i see the ages of the kidz here slamming dope..

i have a very dear friend in his early 50's who has spent his entire life strung out on various opiates off and on.

his latest run,the one he deems as his final has been goin now for about 2 years now. hes been on the heroin as much as possible for a year now.

he has a 300 a week habit on heroin,plus he does the dilaudids,oxys,them lil blue waxy morphine pills,pretty much whatever he can break down an stick in his arm.

a year ago he would slam a dime bag of dope and go to work,youd never even know he was high.now if hes off his couch its to get water for the spoon,or to lay in the bathroom floor wrenching his guts out cause his next fix is past due.

im full well aware of the power of addiction as i said,i was a junkie for about 9 years. although the mindset comes from the addiction it gos far beyond addiction.its just really sad that my friend has now resolved himself to death over coming clean this time.

when i saw him last he made the comment,"i really wanna die,but the only way i wanna die is banging a big bag of dope,the problem is when i have a big bag of dope its the only time i dont want to die".

we leave his home every time wondering if we will ever see him again,his health is beginning to fail and at this point any recovery seems very unlikely as coming clean would likely kill him due to his poor health if he tried.

i dont know if any of you kids have witnessed the end of a junkies run,if you havent perhaps you should,its not a pretty picture.

i know there are probably going to be the usual comments,i can control my intake,i only slam recreationally etc.

i just wanna say once ya start on the needle its just not that simple.there are exceptions but for the majority its not.

please for the sake of those around you who love you think about what your doing,the path your choosing.

remember the next shot you take could be your last,no matter what you think,it could be.

is that really what you want?

just had to get that off my chest.

have a nice day.

 

Yeah I completely agree with what you're saying. I think it's too bad that so many people shoot that shit when they obviously have no self-control.

I'm one of the lucky ones. I shot oxycontin probably 6 times and just got off of it, no looking back. I really don't see the attraction. I'd rather be high for 6 hours snorting it than be high for 30mins-1hr and get a short-lived rush.

I would also recommend nobody shoot it. There is no reason. There are many other ways of doing your drugs, you don't need to be such a hurt sack that you're putting holes in your arms.

And everyone who is even thinking of shooting anything should look at someone who's been shooting for even a couple months. It's not pretty at all. I've seen some beautiful women turn into dirty whores and some handsome men turn into greasy, scrawny dirtbags because of the needle.

 

Wow, I didn't think people shot up OC's. I remember a few people telling how to do it, somehow filtering out the bad pill contents but I didn't care to register it because that is sketchy. I only know one "Junkie", I have been friends with him since we were 10 or 11. I remember when the day he told me about his night before how he shot up last night. I didn't say anything because I don't like to preach to people about their own business. He had already been way into OC's and Dilaudids for a long time. He had tried a bunch of times to get me to smoke H with him, so I knew where he was and whatnot.
Well, everyday I saw him after that he was worse and worse. It was like his body was taken over by a virus, growing by the day. His voice was all deep and scratchy like an old homeless basehead, and I could see in his eyes that he was distant and far-off into his own headspace. It seemed like he was dying. I really, really wish I had given him some rational advice, and told him to chill out, even if it was "preaching" and he resented me for it. Well to end the story on a good note, about a month ago I guess, I saw him on a Monday and he told me about his weekend experience, the binge that ends all binges. That is an entirely different story, but to my knowledge he has been off most Opiates since then.

 

honestly, it dosnt matter if you shoot them, snort them, smokem or eatem opiates will fuck you.

you wont even realize it either, everything will be fine because shit man, you aint no junkie. you could quit if you wanted too, but why? your not addicted right?

your never addicted untill you try to quit. and even then your brain will find a reason to believe you dont have a problem, just so you can use again.

these kinds of drugs take over your mind and your life.

i wish i had never ever touched an opiate, i wish i had no idea what it felt like.

i feel that using opiates was one of the biggest mistakes of my life.

if your reading this, and your using opiates then take my advice and quit while your ahead.

 

The trick is to do lots of different things on different days, right? Like an opiate on Monday, a little speed on Tuesday, lots of weed on Wednesday, beer on Thursday, Beer & coke on Friday, XTC on Saturday night, K on Sunday morning until the bars open, then beer and greasy food, and then weed. Monday morning, a nice opiate will cure your hangover w/ some strong coffee.