I have some problems like tending to manipulate people ussualy in the good way..helping them, but if they piss me off i can make them get suicidal (did that twice) and i don't regret it. If they fuck with me, why shouldn't i pay the favour back? Besides this i have the tendincy to drink more than i should sometimes, i take drugs (ok..only dxm, but still) and i am hoplessly in love with a girl who is my best friend and is sort of screwing with my brain sometimes only cause she enjoys it, and guess what? i enjoy it too.. And i'd like and would be able to kill my granny only because i hate her and she makes my life as misserable as possible..Do you think i'm insane or i am a bad person? I have to underline the fact that i ussually help people, not fuck them up..
Fuck yeah your a "bad person" (sorry what the fuck else can I say after reading your post) I hope the bitch(granma) castrates you. You obviouslyly think you're powerful (nobodygivsadam).
Hey.. When a person tells you every single day that you'll die since you're 6 and you still love that person(when i was 6 i still loved my grandma), and makes your mom's life a misery and talks bullshit about your dead father, and made your mom only to keep her husband from divorcing, i think it's a bit hard not to grow and hate that person. And about hte making persons suicidal, i got the perosn out of that state of mind about 10 times, i ran away from home al 3 am to help him, and after i was there for him night and day he tells me that he considers me a useless..myeah..i got angry but i stoped in time and pulled my thoughts all together and got to be friends with him again and let him use me again.
sorry didnt know she was such a bitch. Hopefully you'll stop making people suicidall (intentionally anyway) Sorry to curse, love mike (dont kill me) I'm glad I'm not in you're shoes. My dad once told me "I will kill you first motherfucker"
Oh yeah and one more thing, i never DID kill enyone and i an not going to. I just consider that the world would be a better place without some people, including my 84 year old granny who will die soon anyway, and i'm not sorry i'm talking like this about her death. I thought that the majority will react like this.. But hey, another thing about me that will maybe help you to see me like i am: i am in a nature protection association, i can't even harm a fly(literally) and i say again, i can't kill anyone. I hurt them to make them see the truth, stop them from thinking they're perfect or things like thiat. And i don't understand what link there is between being goth and evil or bad or w/e. I am not goth, i just like goth metal among lots of other genres. And mike, it's ok, i would have reacted the same way if i didn't know the whole storry and maybe i still would.
I understand you perfectly here. My grandma from my father's side was horrible, just like yours. Similar story except for the dead father and telling me I'd die when I was 6. She's dead now, been so for two years. I hated her a lot. She hated me, too, and told her neighbours I was stupid and ugly and that I was dying... which were nothing but lies. Don't worry. Such feelings are normal considering the circumstances. I don't think you have a mental problem. You are fine. The people around you are just horrible.
Yes, I am, why? Do you consider that i'm too immature or too mature for that age, considering what i posted? And thanks for the oppinions so far
You need to find an outlet for this anger. To carry it inside only creates physical and mental problems. Scientific fact. Find a gym or something. Take up boxing. You need to LEARN that when you hurt someone, they have the power to hurt you back. This will make you think twice about flying off the handle. Find that outlet, and watch the pressure ease off abit. And don't worry about granny. You may have regrets later in life of not knowing her better. It would be a shame not to reach out to her before she passes. Sometimes, you have to make the first move. x
I have been living with my granny for the past 4 years. If i didn't make a move at least once a month and try to be nice to her, than i never did. But all i got back was the same annoying and idiotic behavior.. And about boxing and stuff like that.. I am not an agressive person, i don't like those kinds of sports, i don't have any anger management issues and i don't ever hit. I'm not full of anger, it's more hate and the only solution in my case would be getting rid of my main problem which is my granny. In about two years i'll move to college anyway but i can't really take it until than. And as an outlet i use art, i draw.. So there is no problem with that..
goth scream, your fuck up. your fuck up, because your family is fuck up. it's ok, because i'm fuck up too; thanks to my "family." i think i understand why your full of hate. i agree with you; i think getting away to college and away from your family would be the best thing that could happen to you. by the way i too am somekind of goth. i think of myself being something like a "hippie goth." i call myself a "gothic flower child."
You might find yourself more ballanced when you grow older; especially from the time on where you live alone. Aslong as you don't seriously hurt anyone, I don't think you have thát much a problem, I know people a lot more mesed up then that. And as you said; use art as an outlet, just keep calm under whatever circumstance you don't like, it'll most likely pass.
