I'm fuckin' worried.

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well, why do you look down on others so much?

 

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Mind expanding drugs are actually what you need if you're closed minded to begin with. Taken with a little respect of course.

I don't support someone of your age dropping acid to do this though.

The reason being most 16 year olds are pretty closed up. It normal. Its better you learn how to open yourself. The benefit to you as a person is much higher than if you take a shortcut.

I wouldn't worry about loss of ego. You're going to reinvent yourself alot over the next 20 years or so.


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Maybe its time to invent a new you. If you have nothing left because you cant look down on others, then, sorry to say, you didnt have much in the first place. But theres always room for change.

 

It sounds like you're worried because you aren't having the same reactions to other people. My advice: Don't fear your apathy, embrace it. Use whatever energy you would have put into focusing on others, and apply it to whatever ambitions YOU may have.

 

when a person changes who they are they do not loose who they are. people who cling to their ways never grow or learn. it is not about who you were yesterday it is about who you are today. don't worry there will always be people for you to look down on. it is always a good idea to see people in their true light. hopefully you are as hard on yourself as you are on them.

 

Just figure out what you have other than negativity, And yes, as another poster said, Thats pretty normal to have at 16. Your personality will come back, You just may have made some over-quick realizations that can be tough to accept at first. You're young still, You have a lot of changing to do, Try not to worry about it so much.

 

you are not your ego.
why would you try to cling to your previous badness when you can have something so much better?

 

Everything must go through your brain. Everything.
Your perception of other people is not your perception of "them".
But it is the perception of "their" energy in combination with a certain portion of your brain.

Deducing 'hate' or 'inferiority' is not deducing THEM, their energy, to be disliked or inferior.
It is deducing their energy in combination with a portion of YOUR brain to be inferior.
The concept of 'inferiority' is not merely an external 'energy', an external 'process'.
it is also a function of your brain. Therefore this means in terms of synaptic wiring of
your brain there is a circuit of 'inferiority' you have constructed to be deducing such results.

The questions is
Is the 'external energy' you have routed to your brain to come out as 'inferior'.
Is routing that energy, that way, aiming you towards your chosen goal?
And is it really "your" goal?

 

When you open up your reducing valve in your brain and recieve more of the information thats out there, than we normally percieve, through psychedelic consumption, your going to lose some of your rationality that attaches you to the world. You tune into the more intuitive side, the unknown.

But maybe your ego isnt a bad thing you know, what if its a tool.

 

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You have alot to learn on this journey in life. There will always be negativity and there will always be positivity. Everything in nature must have a balance so when you in a negative state, think about the positive times that lie ahead.

 

And we can only be free when we have lost everything. Ego be gone!

 

Remember you can keep this state of mind even when performing mentally challenging tasks.

When you feel the thoughts come in and cloud your head, make it chaotic. Just stop right there and ask yourself 'what is wrong now?'. Then sit and pay attention to the single moment your in and really look for whats wrong in this single moment. Well your just sitting in your room, you feel the world outside and around you this certain way, it's all trying to sort itself out. Typically nothing is wrong in this single moment. You've just created all these mock-situations in your head your playing through.

I can promise you the real world, the physical reality, is perfectly created and attuned for your existence. The mock-situations you play through in your head, or other people give you, which even parents and close friends will give you such mock-situations, they are just fantasies. Nothing more. The real world, the physical world, the natural world is always perfect. If you need a reminder of this ever, go walk out through nature by yourself. Or meditate out there.

 

this is great advice.

 

lmao. ego loss doesnt last forever after you trip. i only get it when im at my peak. and it never lasts long enough. i dont get how you could trip and lose you ego forever wtf?

 

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I lost a bit of it... this was my doing though
of course though I have always been sort of out there my whole life
my kindergarten teacher nicknamed me 'space cadet' cause I had a habit of staring off into space, completely zoing out and becoming unresponsive