I talk to people who are not there.

What's wrong with me?

I should probably preface this by saying that I feel pretty goddam alone and empty and purposeless. I don't really feel like doing anything other than listening to Pavement. Everything else depresses me. Even enjoyable things, because either I know they'll come to an end eventually and I fear that, or I just find something negative about it and can't help but dwell on it. I love films but can't watch them because I feel guilty for the escapism. Guilty for wasting my time and life. I want to hang out with my friends but at the same time I don't, because I know they dont even really like me. I guess I'm just scared of the perpetually impending, "We don't even like you. Fuck off." And then I'd reaaaaaly be alone.

Anyway, this is my point:

I am constantly, all day long, having conversations in my head. I don't do it deliberately. It just happens. And afterwards I'll realise - Fuck, I did it again. I talk mostly to my "friends" from school. Usually about things that I ordinarily wouldn't feel comfortable talking to them about in real life, but it's also not uncommon for me just to engage in smalltalk.

Sometimes it happens in the present. I'll comment on things around me and they respond. Usually though it'll be in the future and it's reflective of conversations I wish I could have, (Sometimes they actually come true). And occasionally I'll reminisce and go over actual conversations from the past. Just replay them.

It's consuming my life. People have noticed - I'm cold and distant. I don't like being like this.

What's wrong with me?

 

Its all good man. I can only talk intelligently when im talking to my head, small talk is just ego food. As to your friends, they probably dont dislike you. I usually feel paranoid about that shit too, you just have to ignore these thoughts an think of yourself being superior to them, and they should be honoured to hang out with you.

So nothing is wrong with you, 9 out of 10 people here will say they talk to themselves one way or another. Converse with yourself until you find someone worthy to have meaningful conversation with.

 

There's nothing wrong with having conversations in your head. It's just another thought process. Now letting it consume you, well then you need to try to step back. Maybe get together with people and try to focus on what's out of your head.

 

You're fixating.

Its like becoming aware of the tongue in your mouth or how many times you blink your eyes. Nothing out of the ordinary, just the focus is a little too tight. You'll wear yourself out over this for a while and then you'll let it go. Something else will get your attention. (Like girls)

I talk to things all the time. Plants, the moon, whatever pleases me.

You should too. You're all in this together.



x

 

Dont worry about it as the others have said everybody talks to themselves in their head it is normal.

You are just re-hashing your thoughts and memories thats all. Wondering if you said that/this would things be different etc.

Next time this happens and you find something keeps cropping up,

Write it down,

Now think, Does this need addressing?

If you feel it is important then write down your soloution or plan of action.


This will help with filtering your thought easier and making sense of what goes on in your head.

Youl feel better when your head is clearer, you could also try and do more exercise and get interested in something, thats if you don't already do that.

Let us know how you get on.

 

thanks for the answers guys. yeah its still happening but now it only happens when im bored. it doesn't interrupt me anymore. so it's really not a problem now i guess.


but don't worry i still have plenty of other problems to deal with

 

I do that too sometimes since I have asperger's im very much stuck in my head

 

I do it too if I started getting edgy.

I just go meditate for an hour everyday and it typically keeps me calm mentally all day.

 

I know how you feel,I talk to myself outloud (when no-one else is around)alot .I also think of things that are funny in my head and start laughing outloud to myself.Sometimes I think I'm nuts but I try to accept that as being part of my creativity.The only thing that bothers me about being weird/strange and different is I feel I'm drifting further and further away from "normal/regular" people.I've heard many people say "normal" is an illusion and a bunch of bullshit since no-one is really "normal".I have friends who care about me and a girlfriend who's terriffic as well as family who are mostly cool.If you have people in your life who really care about you,even if it's one person that's a wonderful thing you're not alone.I would guess your friends really care about you and it's all in your head.If you're a little strange chalk it up to creativity within yourself,write it down,paint or try something else like an instrument or exersize.It's a great way to defocus from your problems and do something productive and that should help alot.Just do it and don't be afraid to enjoy yourself,your friends,your strangeness/creativity etc etc.We're all crazie,don't worry your in good company.I often feel the same way as you,I try not to worry too much and be happy for the good things I have in life.It's all good,and writing this helps remind me of the things I need to continue to do when I feel I'm losing my mind.This is a good thread.Thanks.
Joe,.

 

NOTHING!
I honest to God, I do that same thing.
For a while, actually not to long ago I was exactly to a Tee what you just described.
I was completely consumed in an imaginary world... I guess thats the only way of putting it. It just found it easier to live in the world i was creating inside my own head. It was and is better some how, because I could control the out come and what happened.

I can tell you I still I dream or what ever in my head, but I've realized thinking about it I've done it since I was a child. Its not a big deal to do that at all, its not werid or abnormal. Don't worry, its okay to talk to your self in your head out loud, to make up stories. Trust me your fine, your okay. The only thing I suggest is talk to people force your self to, dont close your self off. Try and keep trying, it will get easier.