when im in the car or something, and their is gospel music playing on a cd or radio or whatever, il pretend they are singing about me and how they love to praise me and how i save the day and stuff...... i mean i dont think im god, i just pretend theyr singing about me and i guess theirs collatteral damage as to what it could mean with reguards to alot of different things but i can honestly say this is a shallow confession, and their is no depth as to why i do it. i have severe mental disorders and i havnt told anyone but a notebook i carry in my backpack. i havnt really thought about why i havnt told anyone but its probably one of the following 1.because i want sort of want them to get intensify, as with the derealisation aspect of my diagnosis (SEVERE depersonalisation) ambitions are all gone, and i dont try and look cool, its easier to just be myself, problem is i cant help but tell how narrow minded almost everyone i meet is, but i rarely dislike any of them, and im still working on the other portion with myself... 2.because i always come up with some logical "out" to explain my reluctance wich also explains its longevity, and i dont notice they are excuses (if thats what they really are...) untill i ask myself if they are or not, and then i still dont know....but one could and probably might call them that... 3.im too lazy to write any more reasons........ il finish this later.......people are trying to be nosey
2 completely confused me but I can identify a lot with 1 - I always think it would be easier to just go nuts and I always feel like I have insanity within me - which might not be a good sign cause my mum's uncle was fucking NUTS I think sometimes you just have to accept what is, and not worry as much about what will be
Thats wicked funny! hahaha! I'm sorry, you obviously are troubled by this but I don't see what's wrong with it!
Hmm... When I'm in the car or something, and there's gospel music on the CD or radio, I change the station.
no...im not troubled with it at all..... i was hoping someone would get a laugh out of it....but the confession was completely serious wasnt, and isnt my car.....
