hey guys. the last time i tripped i think was back in november and I have gradually felt that I am losing touch with everything I felt. I learned a lot from that trip, a lot about myself and a lot about the world. I saw everything for how it truly was. but now i feel like im back right where i started. My ego has completely come back and dominated my existence. I can't even remember what was so great(although i know it was) and it seems like the lessons i learned are laughable. and since it gradually went away, i feel like maybe they weren't even valid in the first place? that everything was false? this is extrememly alarming to me.... I probably can't trip again until May. Im starting college in two days, and if you knew me, for me to be going to college is strain enough. I HATE the classroom setting it puts so much stress on me b/c i don't want to be there. Also, I have very bad anxiety as it is, so I don't wanna trip know b/c im afraid I won't be able to go through with my schooling. So....how am i supposed to cope in the real world now?
yeah its prolly not a good idea to trip. i took a major trip right before i went back to college. and i had such a hard time in that enviroment. just smoke pot. and do your shit man. school is very important.
Losing touch with the ego is fairly important to a person who desires to be Christlike, which considering that you are a Christian I imagine that to be a goal of yours? Either way, the ego is something that takes many many years to overcome, and is the hardest form of self discipline imagineable. You have to ask yourself "Am I ready to fight this battle?" And dont be defeated by the ego, all of us here are still attached to our own in varying degrees but the ego is a monster that never stops creeping back and instilling fear in you until it is completley killed. But how is it completley killed? If I knew, I would tell you
personally i like to trip every one to three months. also i meditate on a regular basis. i like to keep that feeling that you are talking about fresh. i am sure if you start meditating you will be doing better - at least that way you will see that what you realize on LSD is in fact real because you will see the same thing happen when you meditate. of course not everything you imagine on LSD is the truth - your mind could be playing tricks on you. just like in normal reality you have to decide what the difference is between reality and illusion. usually this is very easy to do especially on LSD - over time you will learn how to work with your mind in a way that you are more confident.
Yes I would agree with this notion very much. The other day I actually for the first time in meditation got to a point that was nearly to the level of an acid flashback. But it wasn't a flashback because I did it, like after doing it I stopped and then did it again.
i hate my stupid ego.....Jesus was truly a being worth writing about. well gucci i've never smoked pot so i imagine that wouldn't help. also, meditation turned out to be very difficult for me. i have a thinking mind and it's hard to get completely focused on nothing. it's just after my trip, i was so calm and peaceful. i loved everything good. i still saw clearly even a month after my trip it was like i could see every pine needle on every pine tree for a mile. my temper was gone, i never got mad, i treated everyone so well, and i was extremely patient. it is just frustrating to be back to my old sinful self...
Relayer, have you ever read the book The Zen Teachings of Jesus by Kenneth S. Leong? From what you say here I think you might like it if you havent read it before.
First thing that I hope will help you is that there is no real, unreal, magical, this, that world. There is only one world and it contains all of the things. On LSD you just discovered them, but you also need to find them without acid. They do exist! Just remember the feeling you had on acid, and when you remember it, DON'T FORGET TO REMEMBER IT EVER AGAIN! If all the thigs that you "saw" on acid are illusions, the feeling isn't. The fact that science can not prove it, does not mean it is not real. Just follow that feeling, that's all you need to do. I will remind you that it was a feeling of unlimited love, just follow it!
No Alaxsxa I haven't even heard of it, but the title alone has me interested! Thank you so very much for sharing Let me throw one at you! Have you ever read The Second Coming of The Christ by Paramahansa Yogananda? It's a beautiful book
Here's some interesting listening, its called 'who is it who knows there is no ego' by Alan Watts: http://diydharma.org/who-it-who-knows-there-no-ego-alan-watts enjoy
