well it started maybe when i was 14 my brother who was 17 ivited friends ove.......my mom works 3-11 so she was gone we smoked a pipe of weed i fell in love it got to i would rather sit and smoke with them other then go do my thing...my parents are divorced so my dad pretty much lets me my bro good amounts of friends hang out in his basement......dont think my dad doesnt care he does...... we would smoke there alot my bros friend brought a 2 foot bong ive been smoking almost everyday......its out of control i have friends that are all about it and my life is pretty much sitting in my house smoking playing video games.....i also pop vicodin xanix.....ive tripped on shrooms, acid, salivia all about twice and half an xtc pill...i had a flash back the other day it wasnt fun.....i feel ashamed i feel depresed i feel like ive become a loser when there was hope for me i went the wrong route i dont enjoy this but i just keep falling back into the same routine, i am 17 now and a junior....i feel like i have social problems now....beleave me its everyday i smoke i dont know what to do with myself what if i did stop what would i do with my self, when i am surrounded by this all the time any help i would like......this is the first time i actually put my life in perspective and there it is
Just slow down, or stop. Think of things that you used to do before you got high all the time and try doing them again. I'm going through the same thing, though I didn't get depressed. Instead I just took a step back and asked why I was doing this anymore. It didn't seem to make sense, because smoking wasn't the way it used to be. Up until late December I had smoked pot daily for around a year and a half. Right now I am getting my system THC free for the first time in nearly two years. I'm not going to lie and say that I've stopped doing drugs. I drink more, and last weekend I did some Vikes and E. But everyday is just too much sometimes. Your body needs a rest.
I suggest that you stop. It would help if you get a job, do organized volunteer work or something where you have to show up on time and straight every day. Set it up so that someone else is counting on you. Someone you don't want to disappoint. It will give you something to do with your time other than smoke a bowl.
don't listen to all the messages out there in our society that say you're a loser because you do or have done these things. that's a load of BS and it's perpetrated by people that don't know what they're talking about. there's plenty of hope for you and the fact that you're here looking for help is proof. do you have any where you can go until all the smoking, etc are done for the day? the first thing you have to do if you want to quit is to stay away from the temptation. find a friend or relative that can give you space to do homework and time to detox a little before you go looking for a job or volunteer work. you can find a way to do this just don't give up.
