finally i can get back on here again!

for the past few days, my grandmas computer hasn't let me log into hipforums. i thought i was going to lose you guys forever! : ( but anyhow, i finally got it to work and figured i would give a short synopsis of the reality-show-worthy drama that has gone down...for anyone who cares to know.

after my grandma picked me up, my mom decided that i was turning against her and bringing her mother (my grandma) over to my side and plotting against her. so, she wanted me out of her life for good. she gathered up all my stuff, threw it in some trash bags and brought it over here. she came in, tossed it in the parlor and left without a word. she wont answer my phone calls, and i dont think she is letting my sister answer either. but my sister has shunned me in her own right. when they brought my stuff, my sister wouldnt speak to me either and gave me looks of the utmost contempt and disgust. my mom has even talked to my aunt, and now she hates me too. everyone is angry with my grandma for taking me in, and telling her she was wrong to interfere.

on top of all this, my grandmother and i were taking last night. now i've always suspected that i was sexually molested as a child, and now i know it for a fact. and the person who molested me? my father. the man i lived with for two years, until i came back to live with my mom in august. but i cant confront him about it, because i may have to live with him again before this is over, if anything happens to my grandma.

but anyhow, other than that, things are fine. i should be starting school by the end of the month if the court papers come through in time (so my grandma has parental responsibility of me). and now i'm close to lots of places i can find a job. so, yay!

i hope everyone else has been doing well...and hopefully i'll be able to log in here again and talk to everyone, with better news to share and happier things to talk about. : D

 

i guess it seems like all i do now is complain...which is really the case, but i just wanted to tell what happened. i'm trying not to complain, because i'm happy! seriously. all this happened for a reason, and so far its worked out for the best. the only thing i'm upset about is being molested. but that was 11 years ago...fuck it. cant change it now. all i can do is accept it and move on.

its all gooood. : )

so, i guess, to give this thread a direction....does anyone else have childhood trauma that they would like to share or that they have overcome?

 

I think it's best for all parties involved that you stay with'cha grandma. I had to get away from home when I was your age too. It isn't easy, but you must never move back in with your father.

All the best Faerie.

 

I swam out too far once at salisbury beach when I was a kid and nearly drowned.


That traumatized me for several years until I was a teenage, and then the call of the sea (or my hormones) overcame my fear, when I realized that’s where all the hot babes were hanging out


hotwater

 

Im glad youre back green faerie. Im sorry about freaking out on you the other day.

 

sucks about the old man, buuuuuuut everything seems liek mostly good news. i mean, family is kind of the shits but youre near workplaces and you arent living with the psycho lady anymore. you have a bunch more opportunities and if they dont want to talk to/deal with you, why waste your time on them? move on with your life, worry about reconnecting after a bunhc of time ahs passed

 

its all good cate. i figure i probably do sound pretty whiney most of the time...i dont try to but i'm sure i do. :hug:

 

No, I dont think you sound whiny. *hugs*

 

aw, thank you!