I have issues with anxiety and depression, but I've been doing well until Tuesday. Tuesday evening, my anxiety started again, mildly at first, and then it built until last night, when I finally had to just react. I cried half the night. The thing is, I'm an empath. I pick up on other's feelings, and I am a precog, so I know when things are going to happen sometimes. I always feel the reactions like the anxiety: in my chest and in the pit of my stomach. I know it has to do with my friend, who we'll call D. I just don't know what it is. And I need to know if anyone picks up any insight because I need this to go away, or I'm going to have to part ways from D, once again. And I don't want to. Thanks and Blessings, Sam
oh i can so relate to your post! my heart really really goes out to you. premonitions are just an ordeal....i get angry sometimes because the feeling is so vague so its like "if you aren't going to give me enough info so i can do something about it, then why make me suffer this at all." but then i figure maybe so its i can pray for the person and send light. i have no answers for you--actually i'm hoping for some it terms of how to cope with such premonitions? any advice out there? i just end up smoking a joint and moping about it. i use Rescue Remedy (avail at the health food store) and i pray...it gets me through it--but doesn't really alleviate what's happening.
this afternoon i walked by a man that was staring intently at me and of course i nodded and spoke. i sensed he was threatening and later when i was standing toe to toe talking with him i had another sense that totally contradicted our pleasant conversation. i felt something violent just underneath like he wanted to do me harm. later in the conversation he admitted to being on medication for schizophrenia. it seemed i found the answer to my troubling feelings. i continued to speak with him and he told me about some personal problems he's having and i tried to help him see what he could do to improve his life. by the end of our conversation i no longer sensed the violence that i had earlier. there are limits as to what i will do in these situations to help others. first of all i have to protect myself and stay out of harm's way.
Well, a little more info because I see I left out some really important stuff... D just got out of a relationship and he and I have briefly discussed getting together. However, I realize this is a bad time because he is fresh out of this relationship, so I cut off that communication. It seems things are a bit strained. He's somewhat distant, but I don't know why. I feel like I'm picking up on his emotions (depression, anxiety, and being sick) and also picking up on whatever he's keeping to himself at this time. I can usually ask myself questions and zero in on what it is, but it's not happened this time... grrrr... I'm so frustrated. When we talked last night, I was sooo emotional. And I was so tense. I just can't pinpoint it. Thanks everyone for your comments. It's nice to know that someone understands how cray I feel...
I'm not picking up anything, des10e. Here's a thought, though--often when I'm trying to get a psychic sense of something that's bothering me, eventually I find out through events, and I realize that part of me knew all along, but I refused to admit it to myself because it was too hard to face as a real possibility. But I'll work on this some more and let you know if anything gets clearer to me.
des10e it sounds like he's not ready for you. no surprise you can't pick up anything since you're involved too.
Zengizmo, you were right... I knew what it was, and I didn't want to admit it. Actually, it's two things, I believe. It came to me in a dream, of all places. Zenloki, I think you're right, and that's a big part of it. I am very ready, and he's not. And I think he is on the rebound with someone else (who I dreamed about). Be wants to play and have someone near him so that they can be there all the time, but what he doesn't know is that this woman is a self-proclaimed bitch. And she isn't kidding. She's going to mess him up soon. (I was right about his ex doing him dirty.) So, now it's more of a fight to just keep the anxiety at bay until the issue resolves itself.
*HUGS* He probably needs a confidant, A shoulder. Him knowing that there is a possibility for a strong relationship to form right now is enough. Be his friend...Let him "grieve".... accept his decisions and help him to "accept" ..... Dats about all I got for you..... *SMILE* Its always good seeing a post from you DES_10e.... 8)
Thanks! Actually, you're right. We discussed everything, and I know he isn't ready. He isn't completely certain right now how he's feeling about me. He's still stuck on the ex. But I'm here. I took care of my own anxiety and I'm back for him, and I will be here. I love him to death. It's always nice to see a response from you.
I'm an empath to a degree. Which to me is a glorious thing because with the proper people you just suck up positive energy and can swirl it around between you all making it even stronger. But there are certain people who have the not so good energy, or have so little they just suck yours up and this can make me very anxious, depressed or just drained. To avoid this what I do is, I sort of visualize my energy field, my aura, and then pull it close and tight to my skin. Pull it like 1 inch away and just focus on doing this. Then around even the most evil, negative or completely asleep people, I can still maintain my self and how I wish to feel. Doing this does shut down the empath aspect though. I know what its like to walk into a room and instantly feel everyone and be able to interact with them on a deep level. But when I do that meditation I just explained, it does turn that off and I just feel my energy, around my body. At first I would have to focus so much that I would just sit there quietly zoned out. But now I can do it easily enough that I talk back to people at times. I dont know how much any of that can apply to you. But when I get building anxiety from things, thats what I rationalized it to be and what I do to deal with it.
Thank you! That's very good advice. I have techniques when I read people to try and keep myself seperated from thier situation, but when the person is so close, it's harder. Maybe this will work for me, too. Or maybe I can tailor it to fit me. Thanks again.
