Breaking Up, Can we get back together though?

Ok, I dated a guy for five years and loved him very much. After a few break ups and back togethers he 'put it on hold' for a year, and in that year I met someone else. Now I'm over that guy and had such a hard time getting over him but now he wants me back which isn't the reason why I'm posting.


The new guy I met, was in a weird and perhaps silly way. I met him online over World of Warcraft (please stop laughing). And we opened up to each other about our ex's and next thing you know we were really into each other. By the end of the summer I had to go to Portugal for three weeks. I called him there a few times and we talked and laughed and were really in love, we planned to get together and stuff. Then I sorta mentioned I had feelings for a guy in that country, and he took it as a "oh ok" but I said I really liked him more. It was a sort of crush but I wouldn't act on it. That went horrible because when I got back he started talking to me less and eventually said there was a girl he met at his college, and so we stopped talking and I hated him and he hated himself and then he slept with her and I hated him more...Anyways, he realized he didn't want her, never did and always wanted me and asked for me back. I believe in second chances so I took him back. However, in that time I had seen another guy and I mentioned it to him when he was with the other girl, and I left that douche. So we both have this little history of seeing someone else and we didn't like it. So we were back together, and his school grades were horrible and he was stressed and his sister tried to commit suicide, so I sat there and I listened to it all, I encouraged him and comforted him. I really love this guy.
By November I had this project and I went to a guys house who made moves on me and I told my boyfriend about it and he spazzed. His ex girlfriend apparently pulled the same shit and he was like "I can't sit here and take this" and he ended it there, but said he still loved me. Then the next day we sorted it and were back together. Which is weird for him because he's the type "if you fail it once, don't try it again". So we were ok, but my ex kept coming up and that bothered him and sometimes I'd bring up that chick he slept with and..yeah..It started to turn ugly. He played more of the game insisting he loved me and still was crazy about me but I became more clingy and wanted more reassurance and kinda turned moody and bitchy and then he did. We would argue though, but by the end of the night were fine again.

Then we argued about stupid shit, like reaaaaallly dumb shit, but would get over it. After a few times of him walking away saying "done for the night" the next day we'd be ok again and yeah. Roller coaster, trust me.

Recently though, last night, he started his second semester of college and I was finishing my first of grade 11 (yeah I know age difference shhh), so I was really stressed from final projects and exams. He sort of was as well from starting again. (Keep in mind we used mic and webcams a lot too. More so he than me.) We argued a lot, he kinda walked away but came back and then he did a lot for me and stuff and I apparently wasn't satisfied cause he was like "dont go to bed i want you here" and I heard myself say "you're too late" but I knew I didn't mean it. He was like "K fine done. Go to hell, go die, loved ya, dont want you anymore, dont need this shit, dont need you" and left. I've left him so many messages on our chatting program, the game is down for server maintenance so I can't really contact him on there, and I've called his phone a lot. I'm literally going insane, I can't even focus on school. I don't want it to be over, it's not for me.

I really don't wanna move on right now. We had a lot planned, and yeah I know it was 'just the internet' but we shared so much. It was everything BUT the physical which was coming soon. I'm just a mess without him, I know that's very cliche but it's the truth. I'm not here looking for ways to get over him, I'm looking for ways to deal with it and if there's a possibility he'll come back. I've stopped calling, I figured my 65 messages of saying sorry, and explaining and all that stuff would be ok, but...He won't answer his phone when I call and..I dunno..Advice?

'Getting over him' Really isn't an option I want to take right now.

P.S. I think he's given me A LOT of chances, but same towards him. He also stopped me from smoking weed, drinking, and eating nasty foods. I feel better about that, and he knows he 'saved' me but..Geez I'm so lost.

 

I would just have fun with whatever guy you want to have fun with at your age. Your only 16, if I were you I wouldnt even be concerned about a "life-long" commitment yet...