I must say I am so frustrated right now. I have been on OC for almost a year now... due to my current circumstance of my hook up is quitting... and just the fact that these stupid little blue pills have consumed my life. It's so hard hard I can't even begin to function with out them. So I have came to the conclusion that I should go to rehab. I would just quit but I don't think that mentally I can handle it, I am just reliant on them for my mental and emotional pain as I am for the physical. Gah... so I have been checking into several inpatient programs. I need to find somewhere they use suboxone cuz I already have a anxiety disorder and all most of you know the anxiety that goes with detox is killer as well as all the other fabulous side effects... I have yet to fully expierence the either... I haven't gone a 24hr period with out them in at least 7mo. Well the lady I spoke with today told me an inpatient program is $30,000 there is no way I can afford that...thats a brand new car!!! Is this seriously the normal price... I thought 5...maybe 10k but 30??? It makes me look back and wonder how did I get in this situation... was it all worth it... I always thought that wasn't me... I didn't have a problem... they are perscription they can't be that bad... what bullshit was I telling myself... it has consumed me its all I think about...care about... I have everything going for me and I am wasting my life away... and for what to feel good...well how good can you really feel when your life is miserable... I would give anything to be able to enjoy life again... to not have my life revolve around wether or not I have my pills... or I am sitting at home waiting to get em... freaking crying miserable... now I am in situation I can't get out of... I guess at this point all that is left to do is fight...fight with everything I have just to have a normal life again because I want to be able to look back on this time as my rock bottom and not stay at the bottom for the rest of my life...any encouragement would be greatly appreciated... I am really scared to face all this... I have to tell my parents... I am 24 but if I want help they need to know...if you pray then pray for me... or just let me know that I can make it...and if you are a first time user I strongly encourage you to use with caution...it's really not something to mess around with it is a miserable existance... thanx bunches!!! XoXoX Chrystal P.S.~ Please no negativity...I am dealing with enough right now... I need encouragement!!!
Well, good luck! I know a couple people who just went on methadone last week, they seem pretty good to me. One person was on like six 80's a day of OC and said that the methadone really helped, he had no withdrawl symptoms. If you really want to change, you will. Just know that you're going to be better soon and it will make it a lot easier! Let us know how you're doing as time progresses, I'd be interested to hear about it.
It's good that you're losing your hookup, that will make it easier to quit (because you have to). It's awesome that you can tell your parents, I'm sure it won't be easy, but they made you, so they have to help you. You'll probably have a much better relationship with them in the future, once you get beyond this. One note of caution: Whether you choose inpatient or outpatient treatment, you'll likely come in contact with other people with addictions. While group therapy is usually a part of any treatment program, this can lead to you getting other connections and hookups. Don't let the other patients become enablers (that's what they call people who help you get high). The flipside is that often N/A meetings can really make you feel good because you realize how far others have fallen and you may see yourself in a positive light compared to them. C/A meetings are fucking funny, in a sick sort of way. Good luck, stick with it. I think some other members of this site are going through the same thing right now, so maybe you can find some extra support from them.
opiate use>over-use>abuse>addiction...it sucks. Google for "detox at home" or "suboxone", and get some n/a meetings under your belt. Good Luck!
Dude-First off never pay for a Rehab with your own money,If you don't have insurance go and get Medicad its free helth insurance that will pay for your inpatient Rehab. Also its not going to be as bad as you think I have kicked Herion and Oc's many times cold turkey. Yeah I hate it more then anything and Sure it sucks and your sick as all Hell and feel like dying but it will end.The first 3 or 4 days are the worst buy far when kicking but after that its not so bad at all you feel like you have the flu with terrable anxiety thats it.It should take you about a week at the most to kick its not like you are a 20 year Herion addict who does 15 bags a day, You have only been using for 7 months it should take about a week to get out of you maybe 8 to 10 days the most and about 2 weeks to feel totaly normal again, But after 3 or 4 days you should be over the real bad part and up and moving again ?Like I said the first 3 to 4 days are the worst after that its alot better. If you don't think you can kick hey try finding out where the nearest Methadone clinic is to get on Methadone. I would say look into suboxone or buprenorphine from a Doctor in your area but if you don't have that much money you are better of going on Methadone. But I would give cold Turkey a shot. If you are working or in college just take like a week off and use some sick time to kick. Good luck man I am telling you right now you can kick this shit I know its sucks like all hell and you feel like you are going to die the first few days but you will get threw it manand ounce you do you will feel so much Better about yourself and life in general !!!!
yeah for real I don't think the fact that you've been doing them for seven months is significant but the fact that you haven't gone a 24 hour period without them . I quit weed once after having been high 24/7 and it's a lot worse if you're used to it all the time. Now I have as many sober hours as stoned hours, which works for me. I'd say that you should detox yourself somehow. you don't necessarily need rehab or to tell your parents, although it would help to have other close people there to help keep your mind occupied. I bet the worse thing will be profound depression. I get that if I do opiates for more than two straight days. If you can endure it, it will get easier. Even goin on nature walks won't effect the deep depressed feeling. Just keep telling yourself there's nothing wrong with you, it's just a temporary chemical imbalance.
I think you need to provide more information for us. Many people take Oxy for a year and do not need rehab to quit. It really depends on how much you've been taking per day. Generally, though, if youve been on them for that long, Im guessing your dosage is high because your tolerance must be. Many people can go years staying around only 30-50mg per day, and never have to go through serious withdrawal. If you're on the 80's and taking over 100mg per day, it will be extremely difficult to quit by yourself. I say give it a try for a few days, be strong and try to do it. The worst of it will only last 4 days or so. If you try and can't make it, it would be best to go to rehab. Good luck to you.
Another thing is to find things that will keep you occupied and your mind off of Oxy. Try learning something or hanging out with friends. It really helps a lot to have your mind elsewhere. Ibogaine/Iboga root could work as well, but I doubt you need something that intense from what you've told us. There are certainly other medications that can ween you off, but they can become habit-forming as well, so it'd best to have someone else administer those if that's your route of choice. I've never tried Oxy or been addicted to opiates but those are just a few of my suggestions....
