Two nights ago, I was in a very dark room listening to music with my eyes closed and in every note I listened to, I could see waves of lights, according to the note they would vary. Golden vibrating lines, that put me in sort of a trance. I wasnt high on anything, nor drunk, I was completely sober and wide awake. It was so beautiful and it relaxed me so much, that put in this dream like state, to be only interrupted by the voice of my friend talking, but even with my eyes open, I could still see, what I cannot think of as anything different than soundwaves, vibrating across the room. I didnt care to share it, or ask if he could see it too, because I've been getting way too many are you crazy? lately and from his voice, I could tell he wasnt. It's kinda sad, because there are so many magical occurences in the universe and most of the time I feel like Im alone in the audience. I always feel like I'm connecting, tuning into something greater, but at the same time, I feel like I'm leaving everything behind and sometimes they leave me with this bittersweet feeling. Have you ever experienced anything similar?
welcome--sounds very familiar....everything you've descibed. every sound does have a vibration that permeates every fibre of space no-space. you are not crazy. these insights you get are a great gift--you must resonate at a higher frequency then those around you therefore making you feel disconnected. no worries, your higher self will summon kindreds...light beings tend to gravitate to one another. this is all a sign that you are blessed.
thats how ive felt for like the past year i havent seen something specifically of what you say But almost everynight, I do put on my headphones and lay in bed to fall asleep and if I don't fall asleep right away, I'll get to a point where I can see various patterns and shapes and stuff, somewhat in sync with the music
mara-aum, I know I'm not crazy, at least on my good days I know Im not :tongue:, but I've been experiencing all kinds of weird things lately and commenting to people is not always a good idea. Thanks for your kind words! Rygoody, I never do that, listening to music until I fall asleep, but the waves I saw were vibrating in perfect sync to the music. It was like a show of sound and lights. Patterns and shapes sound way cooler though.
wise thinking, i learned that the hard way. in the candle shop i worked at i was having a conversation with a customer who was having 'psychic' experiences. another customer overheard and a few days later i started getting threatening mail...bible pages ripped out and highlighted saying stuff about psychics being hated by god and burning in hell type stuff. threats left on my car. it was creepy creepy stuff. overtime you get a sense of you can talk about certain things with. the word mental illness gets thrown around too easily these days (although i have been blessed as i was labeled gifted by a doctor when i was a child-so that spared me the titles of mental illnesses except for A.D.D.) these days you have to watch out for people (usually loved ones) that think you've gone crazy--because as you transcend you will change-including how you look and behave....they should only dream of changing like you will...but they won't-at least not much at first--and they may resent that in you. it happens often. usually with parents--they still see their kid as the kid that peed the bed, or was afraid of the dark...i have found many families don't celebrate spiritual greatness among their kin--at least not when its expressed in an alternative lifestyle.
I know what you mean, when I was back home for the holidays my mom kept telling me how I was crazier than ever. I mean, I was kinda depressed and not being quite myself the first few days, but I found it so hard to communicate with so many people that it used to be so easy to do so, because there are so many things that word dont do justice to and the experience keeps replaying on my mind, so I was kinda drawn away from everybody around me and when I would come out of it, I was so excited and intense, that people would always give me that look of "what's going on in your head?". It all just feels to me, like moments of communion with the universe and there's very few people I can actually talk about it without being judged negatively. I didnt know you were psychic Mara, I've always, since being a child, felt KINDA psychic, but I never listened to my voice, like I dont trust it and I have to SEE and then Im like ok, I knew this. I dont know, I dont really think Im psychic, just very intuitive and very unappreciative of my intuition.
oh honey i'd bet a kidney that you are psychic....its the word "psychic" that scares you because of all the negative connotations and responses people have to the word. i, like you, displayed these gifts from childhood. it got really strong (but very dark) in my teens. in my middle twenties i just couldn't cope with it anymore so i ran to the church to try to become a nun--i figured there i could just blend in with all the other nuns getting prophesies--most didn't so i didn't fit in there either (plus my faith is too big for just 1 religion, so when i was studdying and practicing some buddhist stuff i was ostracized and therefore gladly left) i did EVERYTHING to avoid being called a "psychic" and be a "psychic" i didn't want to be percieved that way-i was ashamed out of fear of being judged. i survived this by going to a university where i didn't know anyone far far from home (i needed the space to just be me without my family & friends holding me to anything) i then read the book Conversations With God by Neal Walsh book1--it changed EVERYTHING for me. as soon as i embraced what i was, everyone around me embraced me also. suddenly everything unfolded in my life and i started to know & live my life purpose--there is no better feeling than this and i wish it for you! its one thing to have a gift--but when you are able to use it in a big way....wow...now THAT"S fullfillment!!
I love doing mushrooms, using my computer and night with lights off and I see amazingly bright colors shining from my hands and on the borders of everywhere else, reminds me of Moonside from Earthbound.
I do dislike the word psychic, I always tell people that's because I'm psychic and then I immediately say "I'm kidding, I'm not psychic". I never listen to myself, it's like I know something, but I always have to prove myself right, but usually I'm trying to prove myself wrong and at the end of the day, no matter the twist and turns life took, I'm never surprised. It's interesting that you say those are your reasons for going to university, those are my exact same reasons for being here in Ottawa. Maybe I should read that book
Another thing I saw yesterday on my way back from the supermarket. I think it was around 4pm and I was on the bus stop, the sky was beautiful, extremely clear and there was this stripe of light, moving down, like a comet. I was standing there, staring at the sky in awe, with my mouth open and everything, because I really thought it was a comet, but no one else seemed to notice it and I didnt feel like asking anyone if they saw the stripe of light moving in the sky. I tried to see if there was any mention of it in the newspaper or the news, but I havent found anything yet, so I dont know. I lost sight of it when I got on the bus. It's the second time that I see something strange in that bus stop.
