a few of my best poems(well i thought were good)

Shadows of the Night

shadows of the night
lurk around every corner of my innerself
trying to take over my soul

The shadows smell my delicous soul
wanting to devour every last bit of it
trying to take over me completely

Thinking my heart will be turned to black sulfur
if they take away my soul
but they are so wrong

I smile as they come my way
knowing i have people on my side
helping me keep my light brightly lit

The darkness trys to swallow me whole
trying to fight the shadows off
makes me weary... and i give up

I see myself fall to the ground
feeling my heart turn black and hateful
for a few minutes

till i remember one special person in my life
and the memories i have with him
brings the inner light back to my heart

winning over the shadows of the night
was tough but i had someone to help me remember
that good will always win over evil. ​

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Didnt even bother to pick up

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You didnt bother to pick up the phone
when i kept calling you every two minutes.
why didnt you listen to your voice mail?
Did you even bother to see what i was calling for

Did you even care that my life was on the line
trying to call you one more time
to say my last goodbye
and that i can be at rest and leave this world

but that never happened
and wish that you would have listen to your voice mail
to hear my voice one more time.
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Loose Band-aid

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Glue on the tapes of the band-aid you put on your broken heart
is slowly coming unglued each passing day
as you feel the wound tear open again
when you fall down this black hole of yours
You fear that you cant put it back together
and need some kind of super glue to keep it from tearing more and more
from all the mending you have done in the past
and desperately wanting to keep it together
but the band-aid comes loose
and all the mending of your broken heart is shattered forever.​

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Hope In Her Winter Wonderland

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Only one in this realm
feeling her hope fading away with the winter wonderland
Walking around to find someone
who can help bring hope back into her soul
but there is no one around

Till dusk came
She hears a beautiful song
being sung unto the blissful night
Her heart skips a beat
and a smile appears on her face
as she races towards the beautiful song

Up she goes, flying so carelessly
she runs into the barren branches
and rips her wings unintentionally
trying to find where the song is coming from

She sees her hope standing infront of her
shining as bright as the North Star
singing that beautiful song to her inner being

She drinks in her lovely hope
feeling the warmth coming back to her
and seeing through crystal clear eyes
that her hope is now made into her winter wonderland ​

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Darker side of My Dreams

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There are days I lay on my bed at night
feeling sleepy at times
want to close my weary eyes
and feel myself drifting away from reality and enter
my dream world.

I see myself walking through this huge black tunnel in my mind
not knowing where I'm at.
I keep walking till I see this small light
at the end of this tunnel

I enter the light place
and see a girl sitting in a corner
trying to hide in the darkness...
thinking she can conceal her identity like that

I walk up to her and gently turn her around
and i scream and back up a little at what i saw
she was no girl at all... some creature thats
pretending to be human

I see that this thing has black venomous blood dripping down upon her
like its seeping into her
giving her some kind of powers

She starts crawling towards me with her hand reached out
wanting me to come into her fantasy world
and play with her...

At first I take a couple steps back
but her eyes glare into mine
pulling me into her trance
to obey her demands

I take her hand and we go to this underworld
that is nothing i have ever seen before in my dreams
and we start walking on this beaten path

Trailing behind her I look on both sides of me
I see this glass looking cage
with a little girl standing in there

I see that this girls old scars are being ripped open over and over
seeing crimson blood spilling from these wounds of hers
I can feel the emotions racing through her mind
as they are being ripped open with blood squirting out of them
Its a cry for help and
She stares at me with her sadden blank glazed eyes

Asking me to help ease the pain
but I stand there in disgusting awe
cant move to help this poor girl at all

From there I snap back to reality and see the creature left me there
and start walking trying to figure what path the creature took
somehow i took a wrong turn somewhere and i'm off the beaten path

I wander around a rut for hours on end
trying to find the right path to take
but every turn is wrong and darker than the one before

Feeling each minute passing by my soul is slipping from my body
as my blood drips out of my wrist
leaving a trail on the snow
so i know where im at... and to feel alive for the first time in my life

The voices in my head don't want me to find the light
instead want me to live in a world of darkness
to hurt myself forever and ever like the
little girl trapped in the glass cage.

But at my breaking point
I fall down on the barren land
feeling the coldness on my dirty knees

I start crying wanting to kill myself to escape this dream world
but i cry and cry
asking God give me the inner strength
to get out of this horrible nightmare
To wake up and that it was all a dream
and none of these feelings are mine

I open my eyes
and I see this is my real world
broken and barren like in my dream
and makes me wonder if this is the real me
or if there is another person in my mind playing tricks with me.
Who will ever know me??
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You rock!

 

thanks. Ashhy