If I allow myself a moment to reflect I begin to recollect In my head I hear his voice Under my skin I feel his warm breath, His touch, and something I leave unsaid The thought of it disgusting The memory makes me want to vomit Yet the memory lives forever, and here I sit with it With every jerk, in response a moan I awaken to this scene Time & time I swat away Wishing him to leave Between my legs I feel a breeze He glides his finger inside me, without eaze And slowly the tears begin to fall Wishing him to leave I beg and beg for him to go And still with every tear He doesn't seem to care, that I said, "No" A stir of noises makes him scatter Silently he sits in waiting Near the end the bed To sleep I cry myself Only to reawaken With my bottom all bare and between my legs A piece of anatomy I was unborn with Again I swat away Wishing him to leave When suddenly a call comes in, It's mother nature, for my nana, just outside my room, She's up and moving Headed to the bathrrom, And away sneaks the snake, Into another room My bottom no longer bare My security no longer there This is the day I realize That I am not untouchable I am so vulnerable To dream and wish is pointless Saying no, makes no difference And even though he's gone I'm still wishing him to leave and take with him this memory
Oh my god......that is beautiful, however sad. Very difficult feelings to bare, I know, but the healing can only come after acceptance. There is so much sorrow and inner distress within those lines, you captured them so realisticly. Very haunting, very moving.
