ok its so worth a try but this ones got me thinkin, I am ALWAYS analysing my dreams its an obsession but i cant really figure this one out... feel free if you want. well the dream started in our family church. I was in a wedding dress. my dad was ready to walk me down the aisle but in my mind I Was screaming no! because 1. I've had issues with my dad growin up (I was gonna have my gramps walk me down but he died six months ago so now I want no one...) I look out into the church and there is a guy I went to school with growing up who I hate... standing there waiting for me as the groom. the whole time down the aisle my dad is walkin super fast and yelling at me for my shoes (he had a bad temper growin up, was violent, and picked onme for everything) it was like he was rushing and pushin me into it. we get down to the end of the aisle I plop myself down next to my mom in the seat and start getting upset that my dad has ruined my wedding (I can honestly in real life see my dad doing something to ruin my wedding) so then I stand up next to my groom and when the pastor starts talkin I turn around and start running. I run downstairs to the kitchen room and run towards the bathroom door when I get in and turn around EVERYONE is comin at me and right when I slam the door shut they reach me and its a struggle to shut it. they all leave and I escape the church. I decide to walk home. when I get close to my house, I see a cop in the middle of the road. it is my ex uncle who beat and cheated on my aunt (who is also the town chief of police in real life) he just smirks at me but lets me go I get to the front yard of our houes and I hide behind trees to make sure no one sees me. then I sneak into the house, and it is filled with everyone I could think of from my life growin up. I run downstairs to the basement, my room in real life and everyone is in there talkin and I hide on the cuoch in my room so no one sees me. then I wake up and now here I am freaked out. notes to consider in my life: 1. I am with my bf of 2 years, we love each other but we are not ready to get married (well I'd love it but he wont we are too young and not ready) its ok with me I'm fine with waiting. 2. I have had many issues with men, anger, violence, and controlling in my life. my bf used to be controlling and angry all the time but we've gotten past that and things have been great for almost a year now. 3. my parents hate each other and I have an ok relationshipw ith my dad but not the best. I still hold huge grudges for my childhood. recently in the past few weeks I have started to discover something in myself. I Am starting to realize that I am someone and people have no right to walk on me an talk to me in a disgraceful manner. I am a person and I have been acting out on this now and so I think that maybe it may have soemthing to do with that too.. I am so sorry if this all sounds really dumb I dont know how or what to write for you guys to analyze and I also realize people can't read my mind but any thought or input?? ? this dream is making me feel so damn strange. thanks if you can help!
