The new bud, and I will be able to smoke it!

So steve and I have come to an agreement. Not the best one really, but at least I won't be having a nervous breakdown over this anytime soon. He stops seeing and talking to that girl, and I help him in whatever way he needs. We're also going to go to family court together, and he'll give me custody as long has that means that he doesn't have to sign his rights away. Which is what I want. I just want her to live with me. I still want him to be her father and have say in everything, but where she lives! I just want to protect her so that in the future if anyone like his parent's wants to take her for a week or something that won't be able to happen.

So anyway he bought me this bud last weekend. What do you guys think?

 

leafy and shaggy...obviously not the most precise manicuring job in the world....

but still it looks like its pretty good, and if it tastes good and gets you stoned, i'd be very, very pleased.

since you didnt pay for it, you should be that much happier with it

 

nice, good to hear it all worked out for the best

 

mmmm yummy middies!!! brb lemme go hit da chron hehe. Anywho I dont really know what "help him in any way he needs" means but does that mean bills or something or what? Cooking im assuming lol?

 

^agreed, makesmomcry. and i suppose that IS the most important part of the original post...but i neglected to comment on it. sounds like good news!

 

lol

Well.. I have a problem. I still love him, and he still loves me. But we can't live together or be together in any way but as friends. And if he wants me to give him a ride somewhere, or take jade over there everyday, or hug him, or whatever.. I'll do it. I don't really feel so good about myself right now, but I can't get him out of my head. I can't stop wanting to call him, or see him, or be there for him, and I know that's really fucked up. This has been the longest relationship that I've been in, and the deepest one, and it's a lot harder than I anticipated to end all of this. I mean I've lived with someone before, and I broke up with them with little of this crap. Sure I had a hard time at first, and needed to see them, but then I started working again and my life slowly started to get better.. that is until I met steve.

So anyway yea it's full of crystals, no seeds, and it's gets me really high. So I'm happy with it.

 

lol thanks nesta. It's not really great though cause I'm sort of stuck where I was except I'm not living with him.

 

looks exactly like the bud that i got last week :] some pretty good stuff

 

I hope the deal holds together for Jade's sake. Maybe he can clean his act up for the sake of his daughter?

 

Well I let him have it pretty good the day that I found out about that woman, and really laid a heavy guilt trip on him. That sent him to the bar for basically 2 days straight. I kind of feel bad about that, but I'm trying to help him today. Get him to go pay his bill, and then bring him to work. I'm waiting for him to call me actually.

So he hasn't shown any improvement yet as far as the drinking goes, but at least this way Jade will be protected.

 

Remember this- YOU didn't send him to the bar- nor did your tirade. He chose to go to the bar and if he tries to convince you differently then he's laying a bullshit guilt trip on you. Don't let that type of garbage weaken or sway you. Clearly he values drinking more than his child and that's a damned shame. You are your daughter's strongest advocate and kudos to you for taking that role.

 

as a alcoholic i agree with stinkfoot 100%..

dont be fooled hes just layin a guilt trip on ya if thats what he said..

looks like it worked to...

 

Look at those buds, ur buddy gave you mainly stems, my advice break it up and smoke it, bud is bud

 

uhh yea lol why wouldn't i break it up to smoke? I'm about to break some up now. Ps. those were the biggest buds in the bag, and I didn't show the rest of the bag.

 

Free weed is free weed.

 

Well I'm still miserable about this whole thing. I obviously still love him, and I can't get him out of my head. I guess this woman was someone that he used to date years ago, and that's making it even worse for me. I know that he's not going to see her anymore, but he plans on seeing her again when we know what's going on between us. I spent most of the day with him today. I took him to the store, and he bought jade diapers and he got some stuff that he needs. Then I cleaned his kitchen and did his laundry cause he hasn't done anything in the past week. I know I shouldn't do that for him, but I couldn't help it.

I just feel so betrayed by him.. I know we're broken up, and he can do what he wants but it hurts so bad that he did this to me. I used to have really big jealousy problems with him in the beginning, but they went away after we got bored with eachother, but their back again right when we're supposed to be over. I hate feeling this way. Always on the verge of tears. I don't know what to do. I guess it's going to have to be together or never see him again cause it hurts me too much to go on like this. And I know he feels the same way. I feel bad about keeping him there not letting him see thsi girl, but on the other hand I don't cause it's only been a couple of weeks since we split up, and im still there for him. So am I totally fucked up or what? I need help.. I need to talk to someone, and I need to get him out of my head. Please someone help me.