well basically, before i start, just to give an idea of myself, i'm a sort of on the verge of a breakdown. so i have an ex-alchoholic as a father who got seperated from my mom when i was 12 or 13, which fucking sucked, but i moved on, slightly. during this same time, i knew this girl who i was just straight in love with. i asked her out and it turned out she wasnt interested and with my friend which i was completely oblivious to. so in these current times, my father still bitches to me every fucking second of the day when i'm with him and is insane to the point of commiting acts of violence in front of good friends and whatnot. and now, after this half year of senior year i have failed 3 subjects probably because of severe memory loss caused by alleviating mental+physical pain with marijuana, and that i would say is it's only fault. but on top of that, i go to a private school that is considering kicking me out, at what my dad commented on saying that if i wasted 8 grand of his money without recieving a diploma, id understand that i would be on the streets or just out of his mind. so on top of that, i'm ridiculously depressed and just not being able to reach out to anybody in hopes of friendship that i havent already met, unless clearly intoxicated out of my head. people i used to be friends with treat me like a junky, i only smoke pot-everyday. but these people are classmates whom i cant seem to connect to and the school wants me to see a goddamn psychiatrist. so basically i'm just detached from people who hassle me about what i do and am unbelievably depressed. my situation: i have known this girl for a couple of years. she lives with a bunch of old friends that do drugs that i see about a couple times a week and i was introduced through them. ever since i met her, i just cant stop thinking about her, she's gorgeous and just her personality is probably the most beautiful thing i have ever encountered. so i decided finally, yesterday to just let her know that i am madly in love with her. i wasn't expecting anything, since i hadn't asked her out or anything, just needed to tell her. well, once again, i just happened to be too late. i knew she wasnt in any kind of relationship, but i hadn't talked to her in about a week and so to my surprise and sadness i find out that she is in the middle of something right now, and if it had been earlier that i had told her it would've been possible. so, ultimately emotionally crushed, i just merely exist as of that. nothing excites me besides sleep. but sleep is so hard to come by because i just cant stop thinking about her, and i dont even fucking no, i'm just in tears right now, my life's a wreck, and since i cant talk to any of the people that used to listen i was just wondering if anyone could just help a kid out? ...thanx?
im not very good at advice, but ill give it a try.. there are many girls out there and the right one will come along and make you feel wonderful. you have to know that you have a lot of life to live and so many great things can happen if you just let them. if that helped the slightest, you can pm me if you want and we can talk some more, or i can just listen, im pretty good at that. i hope you feel better, i really do.
man ur 17 lol, you have lots of time to find a girl. Just mess around with girls at that age man, you dun need to have a "gf" that gets you into all these fits of emotion that take years off ur life when u should be enjoying urself. girls in high school are alot more willing to cheat on their "bf" than you may think, so have fun and dont worry about that bullshit title, little secret, 75% of all highschool relationships are jokes and will go nowhere, so have fun. dont worry so much about one girl, there are alot of girls, and the best part is, ur not on some non-existent proverbial "gf/bf" chain that disables you from having fun, ur free and can have fun w/whoever you want, so utilize that option, dont dismay because of it.
Mate! First of all dont think u have friends who merely pisses u off...we r here and we r not here to piss u off...so, try to think positively, hard enough 4 u i guess but, try harder. About that girl, its hard to forget somebody that u love so much. May be someday she be urs. Wait n watch what else have god packed up 4 u. Try to manage urself up and tell urself that u have a very unique lifd.@@.
My friend....I have been there, but I also found that I had GAD or Generalized Anxiety Disease. It complicated all of these issues. Everyone is right, there are a lot of other girls out there, and I wanted to save them all from my issues or pain or the problems they were having, but you need to find the root cause of your obsession first. Is it really her or something about you that makes you want her? I now resort to medication.....yeah medicines. They are seritonin boosters and they fixed almost everything with no ill effect other than I am hornier than ever.....as a single person that could be and issue. I feel these were not a bad alternative to the way I felt and were not the true “mood altering” drugs. Now this may not be for you, but I wish you the best. It just sounded too like my feelings towards women or girls when I was younger and I now know why that was happening. I truly wish you the best and remember it is okay to be a little selfish when it comes to your feelings, and always respect yourself. It really does matter.
I guess I should clarify what I said above. GAD complicated everything for me. Not that you have that problem.
