friday night was insane. its about pills, but has alot to do with acid. i tripple dropped 3 pills. 1.5 hours later i thro up liquid for 10 minits and dry heaving, not very good to thro up after pills. but despite it all i felt great and rolled hard. coming down i smoked alot of weed and well it was quite insane. the couch felt like it was floating up, and i went to the toilet upstairs and as i was peeing the whole toilet and floor just 'fell away from me' and the noise from this truck going by on the highway just interblended with the toilet in a very incredible sound hearing visual interblending way. sitting on the couch with my 2 friends, i couldnt decipher a word they were saying. occasionally thinking they were talking about me. i had several intense shifts in perception. maybe extreme flashback like things that caused entire shifts in perception, reality is perception, so i was in an entire differnt reality. each shift was strange, some brought about the 'scary shit' seeing shit in the dark and thinking fucking terrible things, i got over that, and ended up liying down and realising i was hearing things and it was like i could see and hear all these streaming things flowing thro the top of my subconcious mind that i could scrape into on these drugs. more than ever before. it was almost like this "noise", "reception noise", but with real noises and images and meanings. as these images were going thro i had some major images and memories of being just a little tiny child, with my teddybear and i could see myself from a 3rd perspective sitting with it. and i had realised that i had not ever even had these sort of memory flashbacks even when i was on acid, so why was i having then now? they were intense and i had a few over and over, and i could vividly see the images. thankfully nothing traumatic at all. just they were memories i hadnt ever thought or remembered before. so it was quite amazing. but i new they were real as soon as i was having them the pills were mostly normal, i was fucked to the point of collapsing and rolling on the floor moaning for a bit but otherwise good. i realised once again there is no heaven except for that peice of heaven i was experiencing at that moment. if you want to go to heaven go get a few good pills, cause man there is no heaven in the spiritual sense (after death i mean) iv done 80 somthing pills now, and allways smoked weed after, and it had allways been trippy but never to this extent sine i dosed 4 times in a week the other month. but its interesting to say the least. the thing im thinking most is that lsd gives you real meanings and ansewers. but when you take pills then smoke weed, all the meanings are fake and giberish, but you think they are reall meanings and you think youve discovered the world only to forget straight away, its just your brain playing tricks on you. whereas lsd is not. or at least it makes you think it isnt. either way.
the pictures ok. mushrooms are ok. should be sitting on a flying tab of acid. sorry, a flying sheet of acid. (think flying carpet)
id like some feedback about the crazy shifts in perception, the strange flashbacks to a baby pretty much? having to continually redirect your mind away from the scary shit with out even taking lsd does things to you, and fuck drugs.
"its about pills, but has alot to do with acid." I don't see this having anything to do with acid. Am I wrong?
it been a long time since I had intense reality shifts.... been trying to get a hold back on this collective one where most people reside their heads So I dunno. But certainly at times I've had extremely vivid memories of past childhood experiences, I think even childhood experiences of my parents or past lives come to me that really struck a deep tone.
I think the pills were acid. I don't know about the shifts in perception or the flashbacks to babyhood (at least not if it comes from an acid trip - wish I had more experience with that), but pot I can tell you a bit more about. Pot makes your thoughts like a snow ball rolling down a snow covered mountain. They get bigger and bigger, collecting more and more momentum as they stream through your consciousness in one direction. You do very well to avoid the scary shit by trying to steer them in a different direction, but the more momentum they've built up, the harder it is to do this. A few things I do to confront the negative shit is: -call its bluff... usually it is bluffing. -recognize it for the bull shit it is... usually it is bull shit. -go with it... steering from the inside is a lot more effective that trying to push on it from the outside... if that makes any sense. -meditate... keeping your attention on the physical world and in the here-and-now reassures you that there's nothing really going on worth getting all excited over. -know your dose... if you do too much of ANY drugs, you risk having a bad trip. About the meaning thing: all mental experiences, whether your stoned or not, have a meaning. The reason it seems gibberish when you smoke pot is because your mind can't organize it. It basically gets lost in translation from the right brain to the left. Your right brain (creative side) becomes more active and your left brain (logical side) becomes more impotent. Your thoughts tend to "flow" more rather than get processed like data in a computer. This has the effect of making your thoughts run into contradictions, which is why they seem like gibberish when you reflect on them later. They're perfectly meaningful and reflect a certain "truth" of sorts, but because they contradict each other, they only work well in their own compartmentalized realities. With the left brain up and running, it would have stomped out those conflicting thoughts before your mind as a whole accepted them in the first place. The left brain only permits thoughts coming from the right brain if they can all fit under the same reality. Otherwise mutliple realities in the only paradigm that will make sense out of all the gibberish that comes through... and even then, it's a lot of information and you probably won't remember it all.
its here because its not even really about mdma, its about what acid has done to me after the fact, while taking mdma and smoking weed. im not asking any questions about mdma or weed, but more or less seeing if others have this sort of experiences which are unusual. expecially the flashback to a baby thing which is somthing i thought only happened on lsd. and most strangly the shifts in perception. it was scary. you didnt know where you were gonna go next, each one so differnt. i think some of these drugs can show you "too" much, and can make you walk around "fucked up" cause youve seen things one shouldnt really see. i dont know, im just trying to start up a convo with somone who knows what im talkin about. do you seriously think i would get any logical anserws if i had posted this in the mdma forum? exactly. well there is a direct correlation between the trippyness of pills and weed combo after taking lsd than before. i dont even know i cant concentrate
I think that you are forgeting that once some doors are open, you can't close them even if you want. So, when LSD opened some doors for you, you can go through them even sober, but also with any drug that you take. My LSD tripping was never the same after I tried DMT, once you are there, you will be there with any drug. All the ways you knew before, how MDNA works, how weed works, they just change, you are looking at world from different side. And baby thing, it just represents to you that you are a new born member of our psychodelic society, old Peter Popper is dead, and the new one born with completely different ways of looking at the "normal" reality. But since just born, still confused and ready to learn to walk again. Welcome!
It was exactly that, a flashback. What else are you looking for here? You took acid at one point and time and the Marijuana you smoked or the combination of it and the Mdma caused a flashback. Alot of people have them and they all differ between intensity. You said your looking for logical answers... answers to what? The 'meaning' to your flashback? No one else would know that except you. So, You tell me.
hmm very good. love the sig too. for some reason i new that but things are unclear, but it felt awsum to hear it again. thanks man
^word e really makes you retarted man, no joke. - it makes you slower - people always look ugly when they roll - it makes you want to say untrue things to other people - you feel like shit the next day - you gain a stuttering problem n the list goes on n on. trying being sober for like 2 weeks, it'll feel like a new high if you havent been in awhile. -Tos
yea rolling can be bad if you do it too much, I have only done it 4 times and I'm taking a long break from it
