distraction from meditation?

hi everyone... I have kind of a peculiar experience to share, and it's hard to describe so I hope what follows makes sense.

almost two years ago I was meditating before going to sleep, and in the sitting position was quite relaxed and focused, and I saw the form of my guru, although not his face. and we were connected by beams of light-- violet in the throats, green over the hearts, and blue between our foreheads. it was pleasant and I felt peaceful and happy. afterwards I lay on my bed and was waiting to sleep, but in my forehead, where the inner eye is, was a tingling, throbbing feeling. I directed my sight inwards and saw a single point of light in otherwise total darkness. I meditated on this light for a long time, and it connected in a blue thread to the ajna chakra, and I moved closer to it, but then I grew distracted by the throbbing in my forehead. it wasn't painful, but rather ticklish, and it spread to the bridge of my nose and began to irritate me. and my upper body started mildly twitching and convulsing, like it was trying to get rid of a fly without moving the arms. I couldn't concentrate anymore and lost sight of the point of light. after that I never experienced such a complete meditation, and more often than not this prickling in my forehead would start, and I could never really concentrate. after a while I gave up completely, although I was never at peace and have been in the back of my mind yearning to practise meditation again. this has recently been bothering me intensely, the throbbing starts as soon as I close my eyes to pray, when my eyes are directed upwards, and also often just as I'm doing school work or talking with someone it starts up and spreads into the root of my nose. it's frustrating and I can't concentrate with it, but somehow I know or feel that I myself am the cause of it. does it have something to do with lack of discipline or lack of trust? have any of you experienced something similar? and is there a way to get through it and move to deep meditation? it's like a translucent wall, and what my whole being desires is on the other side, but I can't find a door and it's too high to climb over.

thanks for any advice. peace to you all!

 

Some people walk into a glass door think it is not there. Some people try to open thin air thinking it is a glass door.

What you seek is within you, you have nowhere to go and nothing to do to gain it. The challege for you is to stop trying to go somewhere and do something.

Ask yourself what is real. What is truly real? Hold on to that and give up everything else.

 

Yes, as said above such experiences are part of the wholeness of ones basic and innate awareness. They do not point to somewhere to go or something to do, so grasping towards them is at the root of your sidereal symptoms. There's an old adage that meditation like playing a stringed instrument requires neither too tight nor too loose strings. So stick with that relaxed concentration.