Ive been diagnosed with OCD, I stopped taking medicine a little over a year ago, to avoid the shitty shitty oh so shitty side effects. Every time i figure out a way to think around my current ocd phase, it manifests into something else. Which at this point is extreme anxiety all the time, which is morphing into social anxiety. :ack: :ack:
I completely understand that. First of all: Not that I recommend medicine as the cure to everything, but it's really helped me. Which ones have you tried? I'm taking a combination of them, which seems to work and you can change one variable at a time without completely fucking yourself up... Everyone's gonna tell me I'm wrong for saying it, but the truth is that in many situations new-agey crap and yoga isn't going to cut it. I've been fighing it (and other things) my whole life. Most people don't really understand what OCD or extreme anxiety is, or the actual effects of it. I always got around the social anxiety problem by playing music with people, which gave a more comfortable distance where the anxiety was either gone or completely devastating... I'm articulate, but can't keep a good conversation with people who i'm uneasy about and end up stuttering out my ideas in a way that doesn't make any sense and mispronouncing words. Sometimes I'll just say the wrong thing, which shouldn't embarass me for long at all, but it lasts the whole day, or sometimes a week. And again a long time later when I remember it. I hate meds and their side effects are hell, but I've been trying tons of different kinds in different combinaitons to figure out what's helping the best at that particular time. Sometimes, I won't feel comfortable in a social situation unless I'm drinking. I don't especially enjoy being hammered, but just a little edge to loosen up the anxiety has always helped me. You're definitely familiar with that technique. It's great to hear other people's experiences and to know you're not completely alone...None of what I said is advice, it's only my personal experience that I'm sharing.
I do the same exact thing, obsess about any little thing I do/say through out the day that I feel I shouldn't have or that I shoulda did something else, which obviously who give a fuck? I know I should'nt. I used to not. Up until I was 18, I took meds, really dont have the energy or resources to name every thing I took, Probably been through like 10 diffrent types. I dont wanna feel that I need meds. But-
