Wow. I'm reading what you've typed but I get the feeling that it could be coming right out of my brain as well. You're confused about yourself like I'm confused about myself. You feel as if you're one step from insane just as I do. Everything is so hard to comprehend and yet it's simple everything is so sad and so happy at the same time. In fact, every day is different. I need people's acceptance to be happy. I blame myself for everything and it always bites me in the ass. And, I don't know how to word how I feel.. I just feel THAT way. I don't have much advice for you except for to keep busy. Doing something.. anything.. helps me slip out of my mind. Something about being outside helps me, too. I like drinking but I hate to advocate drinking to drown your reality. So don't take my advice there, heh. I'm trying to relate to you to help you feel better because I know I feel less lonely when someone else feels as lonely as I do. Hopefully it's the same for you.
don't punish yourself for what you're feeling. Seriously, it gets you no where, I do that too. I feel it, but i know in my heart, or well, my head, that it's a stupid feeling and I should be stronger and all that. But you can't do that...then you just dont get o ver it. i'm not very happy either though, so you know.:nopity:
sounds a lot like me.. thank you. I am not self-pitying though. I just am questioning stuff about why I feel so weird.
No, I know what you're doing. Bottling it up works but it makes you feel sick. Sometimes you just need to start wondering why everything feels so fucked up out loud.
I know.. thank you *hugs* I just.. I don't know, I think that's the thing, is that I was so hurt in the past by people's misunderstanding and judgement that now I automatically repress anything I feel and end-up feeling nothing.
Feelings of self-doubt and self-loathing are part of life as much as feelings of complete contentment and acceptance, probably even more so. It's quite alright to get caught up in your emotions and to feel confused but it is not very productive to give yourself a hard time and call yourself egocentric for doing so. Egocentricity is not neccessarily a bad thing anyway. I mean, if we don't take a look at ourselves every now and then, who will? So, you're having a bad day, and feeling a little sorry for yourself. That's alright, it's called being human. I for one, would much rather suffer through the bad times in the hope of some good times than never feel any real emotion.
laety that is totally understandable...but dont let yourself become just a shell of a person. your emotions are a beautiful thing..they make you unique..they give you depth and insight. hold on to that.
Did you dance? It's ancient medicine. check out the dj mixes at www.circusofmind.com turn that shit up, girl.
fuck anyone who is going to judge you..they arent worth your time anyway. sounds cliche, but its damn true.
Right. Red here holds the key to finding comfort in your emotions in this very statement. Real emotion is scary and it hurts but it's what makes life worth living. It's what makes everything interesting. Realizing this makes you feel human and real. I am happiest when I'm realizing what he just said.
it's really sad but I think this is only gonna get worse. I don't allow myself to feel things anymore. and it's sad, but my life has been much easier that way haha..
