I've lost my best friend's trust and respect and it hurts so much!!

I feel so much pain that I want to curl up into a ball and not stop crying. And I cannot tell anyone.

I used to have quite a few problems with my mother, we very rarely understood each other. It hurt a great deal, but throughout it all I had a wonderful friend who understood everything I was going through implicitly and talking to him always cleared things up and provided a solution to whatever problem I had.

And now something has occurred. An out-of-proportion reaction from my mother to something I had done a while ago has alienated me from my two very good friends and, most importantly, resulted in my best friend's losing all of his trust and respect for me - this was because I couldn't handle this situation adequately and some very unpleasant discussions took place between my friends and my mother.

Now, I'm not talking to my mother and I can't talk to my friend either, and this double whammy hurts so much!!!
He says that we could be friends again in the future if this all calms down, but we'll need quite a bit of non-contact time to cool off.
Even when that happens, our interaction won't be the same, I'll never again be able to run up to him and give him a hug and see a huge smile appear on his face. How can there not be a tinge of what had happened for the rest of our knowing each other?

God, how I wish I could have my friend back!!! To be able to tell him everything again, laugh and cry with him, hang out and talk about big things and little things. It's only been a very short while, but already I miss him so much!!!
I can't think of where to find enough strength to carry on as before, but all alone now...

 

well, first of all you need to learn how to hanlde your problems with you mum by yourself, you can not let your friends to talk to your mother for the problems that you two have

 

Give him his space; forcing a friendship doesnt work.

I deal with teens all the time that have parental issues, so if you need to talk you can PM me.

I am sorry you miss your friend, but the situation with your mother needs to come first. I have a feeling if you got things under control with your home life your friend would be proud of you and return. More importantly you would be proud of yourself.