Finished with psychedelics

well me and my friend dropped some acid and we were trippin for about 3 or 4 hours and i ended up going into a bad trip. i came across a picture of my brother who recently passed away and i got all wacked out and started smashing shit. i thought i was dead because i couldnt feel pain. i jumped out my window, felt nothing. jumped through a glass door, felt nothing. i got all cut up and scraped and shit and got blood all over my house. there wasn't one wall without blood on it. i flipped a whole bunch of furniture over and knocked pictures off the walls. my friend tried calming me down and i punched him in the face. we were wrestling around for awhile and he left to find help. then i ran out of the house and started running up and down the street screaming. i ran up to my neighbors door and broke the glass on his door too and when i came to the door i was yelling at him asking him questions. eventually i ended up getting hit by a car. i didn't feel that either. i jumped up and started running door the street again, half limping. a shitload of people ended up calling the cops and they came looking for me and when they found me they tried restraining me and i started wilding out on them. it took like 6 cops to hold me down and handcuff me and then they took me to the hospital. i had to stay in a psychiatric hospital for about a week and just got out a few days ago. so, yeah, i'm finished with psychedelics. scared the shit out of me.

 

How much did you drop wutthe?

 

dude.... when the LSD wants you to die your supposed to lay down and die and go visit god, not go on a violent rampage. Seriously. Was this your first time? Haven't you read all the stuff about experiences of ego loss, death and rebirth? How were you not expecting you would get to a point where you would seemingly, and very literally, die? You were at the point where you should of layed down and left your body for a number of hours.

 

thats too bad man. Was it the picture of your brother that really set you off?

 

Reminds me of PCP

 

hahaha. was on the only one that got the joke?

 

we both dropped 5 tabs. it was my sixth time. i've had gone in and out of bad trips before but nothing this bad has ever happened. obviously i wasn't able to lay down and try to relax, my friend couldn't even calm me down. i'm almost positive it was because of my brothers picture. afterwards i talked to my friend and he said i kept saying shit like "who are you?! are you bob?! are you with him?!" (my brother) i like to consider myself experienced with psychedelics and despite the fact that nothing THIS bad has ever happened, bad stuff has happened, and i've learned that each trip is like russian roulette. each trip is different and you never know what's going to happen. something like this could happen again, or worse. suppose i was somewhere else and i hadn't jumped out of my first floor window. suppose i was on a second or third floor. it's not worth it man.

 

what joke?

 

that sounds aweful man.... you will recover from this whole ordeal but it is going to take a while.

 

I can't believe you did it 6 times and you think you are experienced! And you jump immediatly to 5 blotters! Hope those bloters are not that potent cause here one is like 125ug.
Mind is such a powerful thing and one should approach it cautiosly. You have to work with it on a daily basis. You already had bad trips with smaller amounts. What did you learn from them? Once you find what it was teaching you they turn from bad to good trips. I see you still keep saying they were bad trips. Every trip is different. Know your mind well before you go onto new exploring.
This is a good example for everyone that psychedelic are not just one big joke.
Yes, you will recover from this after some time but you'll have to work with the fear that left in you.

 

sounds intense.

was it like a sort of third perspective psychotic feeling at the time. like you werent controlling yourself but sort of looking on from within?

and did it give you any psychosis for a few days?

how do you feel now? do you feel detached at all?

its hard to judge this guy, a dead brother is intense enough, little own coming across those feelings and emotions on a 5 hit acid trip. so it would probably have happened to anyone. i mean how long ago did he die.

im sure with time you could acid again. after some good time. at a lower dose perhaps.

im quite afraid of being psychotic, and getting psychosis.

did they put you on any meds man?

 

Dammmnn.. now that's one crazy story. It's a good thing you're still here.. 'cause like you said, it still could've been worst.

 

5 tabs isn't that potent around here. i've done 7 before and it was less of a trip. but when i've gotten decent acid i usually do 5-6 hits. one tab for the most part makes you feel really good and colors get brighter. it makes things things look kind of cool and begin to melt a little bit. you need to take 2+ before you really start to see shit. don't get me wrong 5 tabs is a strong trip obviously or i prob wouldnt have gotten all wacked out, but it's not as strong as other places.

it took me about a day before i began to feel alright. im okay now. my brother passed away in decemeber..so it's still pretty fresh. they didn't really think i needed meds but im lucky i didnt really fuck my mind up. i could have gone into a potentially long term psychosis. i'm just glad i'm alright...im very lucky

 

are you facing any legal consequences?

 

well i'm paying for my neighbors door so he's not pressing charges but i got charged with disturbing the peace..i have a court date in about a month or so. i have a pretty good lawyer so hopefully everything goes okay..

ive already lucked out so far. i have a relative who is a cop and got me out of getting charged with resisting arrest.

im nervous though because i'm already in trouble for bud possession

 

its good your mind is ok. thats the most important thing here.

 

Glad to hear your going to be OK mentally. Glad to hear you only got disturbing the peace. Sad to hear that the show 'Cops' wasn't there to film it.

There comes a time in every persons life when they should stop eating acid. With some it may be 80. With me it was 21. My body made me quit. Your mind is making you quit. It is what is, glad you're alright.

 

...ill always trip.

 

i dont think there is a going back for me, unless it starts to have serious detrimental effects. just having such experiences is worth almost giving up everything for. i mean its like going to heaven. man im just gonna have to compare this shit to heroin. not in its effects, but well in that both take you to a type of heaven in which its hard to come back from. i cant htink to explain it right, but you know.

 

after many, many years of chemical experimentations, the ultimate lesson of which I have learned from "lsd" or any other drug, is that the greatest and most meaningful "highs" in life, can be achieved within a natural and sober state state of mind (with a little help from some daily "meditative/spiritual" practice). acid can be an enlightening form of "escapism", and for some it can offer illuminating insights, but until one can actually find "peace of mind" without having to jump aboard that ol' chemical train, it will remain but a "temporary" fix (with potentially negative consequences).