ego-loss?

Yeah your experience sounds very similar to mine... thats very odd. Did you ever feel like you were trapped or caught in a loop durring that time? Or that your were in an altered version of the room that you were in before the experience set in?

 

to me ego loss is an exprience where all illusions melt away. you have no name, no history, no preferances...all layers are shed and you are stripped down to the core. its very raw, and difficult to integrate. its an emptiness that stretches out infinatly. i wept for an eternity, then i laughed.

its very liberating, yet horrifiying. the void is the slayer of illusions, but its a double edged sword, for our dreams also dissapear.

 

i felt like i had somehow risen up to somewhere there was only that place and nothing else. i guess it may be called the void(?) or one vast nothing. so it was asthough there was no time or anything- just this place and no escape.
i dont remember the room being altered as such, but as i said everything was different so in a way it was. i mean i was looking around thinking what the hell is all of this because it was all very changed and seemed somehow fake. but somehow i seem to know what you mean about the room, so maybe it did. does this sound familar at all?

 

Wow hah holy shit, that sounds like pretty much what i went through. and the more people explain 'ego-loss' its sounds less and less like our experience. ill try and elaborate my side...

As i said before, i was in my friends basement frying my ass off, starring at an off big screen TV, with soft music playing that my friend turned on to try and keep my mind off negitive things. next thing i know... i get up from the couch, but something isnt right. something is wrong, horribly wrong. i couldn't put my finger on it. i look around the room. nothing is real. everything is fake, a joke. this wasn't the same place i was in a few minutes ago. there is no escape. the door, windows and stairs are gone. i bang on the walls, no use. i enter the fetal posistion and scream. it wasn't my voice. next im outside in my friends frontyard (not sure if i ever was really there) i run around trying to figure out whats going on, and at the same time the ground is comming apart and changing colors as it flys into the sky. after that i was pulled to the fetal position beond my control. i tried resisting. "whats the point" i thought "im already dead." i succumbed to it. i fell through the ground and back onto the couch... back to "reality"

 

that sounds really scary! actually, what i experienced doesn't sound so similar to that! to me it was kind of as though it was all a joke- as if i was in a movie set, computer game etc-THE DIFFERENCE OF COURSE BEING THAT THIS WAS MY LIFE!! the physical reality didn't dissolve or physically change, only my view of it.
has what happened changed you at all?

 

well, when it happened, as i said before i was really high. so now when ever i get higher than ussual i get panicy and end up having a bad high. but right now im in the middle of a break from MJ to see if that changes it. but also i haven't tripped since, but i plan to soon to "overcome my fears" so to speak.

 

Arch, my man, love the signature Nice!
Namaste

 

Whenever the constructs of whatever a particular idividual views as his or her reality are challenged, there is always the possibility of fear. It's a fairly natural instinct designed to protect us from danger. So in a way it can be natural to fear something that is different (whatever that may be) the trick is to be able to realize if it's a legitimate threat or not. And 9 times out of ten it's probably not much of a threat at all! Only to your way of thinking and seeing.

The more you challenge yourself with strange and different situations the more you should be able to learn from them and the easier it is to cope with any negative reactions.

This goes for most things in life and by no means relegated soley to drugs and/or "mystical" experiences.

 

'The Psychedelic Experience' by Leary explains it in depth.