Now I'm really fucked up...

Discussion in 'Relationships' started by Ellis, Mar 27, 2008.

  1. Ellis

    Ellis Member

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    So there was this party from my school this friday, and I invited a couple of my friends, also the guy I've fallen for; my friend. The other guy I had a thing with was there too. Things got kind of drunk, we were all wasted. And at some period this evening, I was outside with my friend and suddenly one of my girlfriends comes out, crying that three of our friends were hitting the other guy...

    I rush inside, and looks like nothing has happened...I see him and he drags me to the toilets says that if they are going to hit him he's going to hit them back, that he's not having this, I started crying, saying I'm sorry, I'm sorry, that I never wanted this.
    Then he leaves, I go to my friends, they say something that they didn't hit him they just pushed him a little, I was all upset, I was drunk and my girlfriend made such a big deal out of it, so did the other guy.

    He pulled me away a couple of times that evening, dragged me outside, saying that he never talked to anyone about us, that he never loved me, that he liked me as a friend, and "Why are they doing this??". Lot's of drama, and I fell for it, I was a wreck, he tried to fight them AGAIN but I broke them up. Then the other guy left with a friend of his.

    Then my friend (the one I love) came to sit with me, he put his arm around me, cuddling me, talking to me, letting me cry in his arms.
    Then both of us, and our friends leaveo go to another bar. When we were walking down the street, he came to me and again put his arm around me, pulling me close.

    We kindof lost the others, we walked like that all through town, I was holding his hand. And we were talking...He said some personal things to me. About his family, things even his best friends don't know. His mother had cancer, but she doesn't want anything to do with him, so it seems, he doesn't visit her anymore cause she pulls away from him. He had to everything himself since he was sixteen, his mothers boyfriend treats his brother badly (his exact words were "mental abuse" :s), his fathers girlfriend came to live with them and well, she was a bitch who always put him down, he kicked her out a couple of months ago. He also told me things about his ex girlfriend...also pretty negative things...That he got in a deep depression, that he did things that he doesn't even remember, stuff like that.

    When we got in the bar, I went to sit with another one of my friends, he came to me after a couple of minutes and we started talking again.
    Then for some reason I said that his ex and his best friend who is now dating his ex were at a festival this summer and that his friend came to talk te them, in friendly way...And that I found it odd that you could do that as a friend, I didn't have a chance to say that 'cause he got so pissed. I saw him getting angrier by the second, he stood up, I tried to calm him down, but he pushed me away pretty aggressivly...
    He went to talk to his friend, for like 10secnds, then I saw him pushing some stuff from the table and storming outside, kicking the door open...
    This is the last thing I saw of him and i haven(t spoken to him since.

    I feel so guilty for telling him that, I hope that he didn't do anything to himself or that he is feeling depressed...I want to know if he's ok, how he's feeling.
    Im just so worried...
    He took so much care for me that evening when I needed someone, and then I say something like that and it make's him feel so bad...
    I didn't know that he didn't knew that they were there or that his friend talked to them.

    I heard from the other guy, and that situation is ok now, he said he was too drunk and even apologised.

    But I don't know about my friend, no one can seem to reach him...He probably just want's to be alone. But I can't seem to get it out of my head, everything he said, everything that happened...He was the only one that evening that could comfort me, and I want to help him now. But i can't... If this would be just a friend it would feel bad but, he means more to me.

    Sorry again that it's so long! [​IMG]
    x x x
     
  2. laurenq

    laurenq Member

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    well thats really cool that you care but it just shows that shit happens when your drunk and i dono i think that if your freind really has gone through alot although he seems like he wants to be alone you relaly gotta try to help him because sometiems its hard to admit but we need others to be there for us so yea i dono good luck!
     

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