I have always been one to think far too deeply for my own good, but lately it has become so intense it is affecting me personally. I can't seem to get a grasp on who I am....or who I want to be. I guess I'm going through the phase of "finding myself", but my mind just won't shut up. I was wondering if anyone with some special "insight" abilities had anything they felt could be said to me....I know I'm reaching here, but just hearing something that I have going through my mind might help calm it a little bit. I know certain aspects of myself very well...I know that part of my path is to search. I've never been one to stick to one idea....I carry out full arguments in my head, debating issues until it seems like I don't have the answer for anything. Anyone have any advice or insight? Or if you just feel like you are "getting something" about me, I'd be curious to know. My name is Lisa by the way, if that matters. Thanks
sometimes the question is no good , as in badly focused . rephrase it more in tune with honest feeling . when i do readings this is the only big trouble people give me . the answer can be right and the question wrong . most often the question (when revealed) is made of some vague cliche idea they , unthinkingly , had absorbed and even then misassociated . of course this is disturbing and is so most uncomfortably felt by the seeker , the questioner ... mmm , the poser . so then an honest seeker finds the good question .
Now is the time when you should be going through the phase of finding yourself. Maybe try asking what you're good at, what you feel you're meant to accomplish in this life, what can you not live without, what makes you happy, what feeds your soul? What do those closest to you think you would be good at? They have insight you may not grasp. Perhaps put some of your mental energy into something worthwhile and stimulating- something creative or difficult or intriguing that allows you to focus on some details. HTML coding? Or something similar? It's very tedious and detail orientied, but allows you to be creative too. I dunno....
Okay...more focused....I think I tend to be very vague because the thoughts swimming around in my head are more emotions and something much vaguer than actual circumstances. I guess one thing I am worrying myself over is the feeling of a void because of loneliness. I have never been in a relationship. And, it seems that as I get older I am losing the real connection I have with friends and family....as emo as it sounds.....I feel like they don't understand me lol. I guess my fear is being alone, so I would love to find a "soulmate" be it in a romantic way or just a friendship. I saw on another post from someone wanting to know when their next relationship would be, it was said that when the person is really ready for one, it will happen. I feel ready, but since I have never been in one, am I missing something? Also, will I find spirituality? I used to be fundamentalist christian, but thankfully I got out of that.....but it left a big hole....I guess like they say, ignorance is bliss. Finally, I guess the last big thing I am worrying about is my future career. I will be graduating in 1 year and I have absolutely no idea what I want to do. Growing up I was always passionate about some idea I had of what I wanted to do, but in the last 6 months or so, it seems I have become commitment-phobic, and the lack of certainty is terrifying. its_des10e- I guess thats also something I am trying to figure out. I am passionate about certain things such as animals, writing, travelling, and learning. But each of these comes with negatives as well, so I find myself commitment-phobic again lol. I know it seems like I'm expecting a whole lot here, but I will take whatever I can get. I guess just by reaching out and explaining whats on my mind I feel a little better, but any insight or personal experience, or if anyone does happen to get anything, psychic visions....or however yall like to understand it. Thanks
Lisa, everything does come with negatives - so you might as well do something. I used to be a fundamentalist Christian. Escaping that life was instructive. I've also been searching for myself all my life - 54 years at last count. When I was around your age, my dad told me, "You think too much." LOL He told me I just needed to choose a path and try it out. He was right, Lisa. So I chose a path. After a couple of years, I decided to try another one. Then another. Eventually I found a career I liked well enough to stick with it for ummm 24 years now. And there have been other activities - "sub-paths" - along the way. One sub-path led to a fundamental turn in my main path. And I keep trying to write a book... So that's my thought for you. What do you feel like doing right now? Do it. And if you find yourself doing a particular thing most of the time, or a set of things, then try to find a way to do those things for money. Part of the problem is that it seems so important to get it right the first time. But is it really that important? What if you make a mistake? Just learn from it and try something different. Life for some of us is not a 12-lane highway - for some of us it's a meandering path through thick woods, with branches we could choose to follow - or choose to ignore. It's a process of finding out who we are by following our hearts from moment to moment. As the poet Theodore Rilke said in one of his poems, "I learn by going where I have to go."
