LSD and pot cured my Eating Disorder... among other things.

I have been struggling with my ED for nearly 13 years... weight fluctuating up and down with my self esteem and my amount devotion to getting better... my ED was technically EDNOS... I had a pretty consistant binge starve cycle goin on for a long time... i would binge like crazy for weeks and gain tons of weight and then starve it all off again, i did it for years... when i was a child i was a compulsive over eater... i weighed 100 lbs in 4th grade... 230 by 7th grade and then i started starving...
but i have been ED behavior free for nearly 6 months now.

Now i Do not want to sound like a druggie or anything like that but i want to be honest with you, i really believe LSD and Marijuana cured my ED.

The big problem in recovering from an ed is that no matter how hard you try you cant escape the thought process that come along with having a really bad ED... always looking in the mirror and seeing a cow, every time you eat something you have to check the calories and then think about how many notches you will go up on the scale bc of it, the pain of being hungry and then having to deal with more pain from being full (bc of how fucked my digestive system is)... i hated my self, every time i looked in the mirror i wanted to die... and that would cause me to switch into COE mode in which i would eat my self sick every day for sometimes weeks at a time.

about 9 months ago a friend of mine found a connection for REAL LSD-25... we spent most of the summer, fall, and winter doing it... sometimes every weekend and sometimes every 2 weeks to a month, it all depends on when he had it. its amazing stuff, when the say it rewires your brain tho they are NOT lying. I have been thinking about it a lot and its said that when you are a child your brain had many very active parts that are growing and firing b/c you are small and must learn quickly but as you get older your brain specialises and narrows to only what is nessicary, i Believe LSD (if not all of the hallucinagin family) reactivates those dormant parts of ur brain, you start learning like a child again, its made me a better person all the way around, im smarter, wittier and more on the ball, i never used to be able to draw the way i do now, i mean i was always a good artist but i have so much inspiration now, so much drive to be artistic its almost like its repaired the damage ecstasy has done to my brain... its given me an interest in life again... Its altered my personality, i dont like loud abrasive music anymore, i dont cause stupid drama for no reason, and for the first time in my life i like my self. i dont mind that im still over weight, it will disapear eventually... Im young, and pretty, and i have my whole life a head of me and being depressed about how i look and letting it hold me back isnt something i want to be doing anymore.

the reason i mentioned the pot is pretty obvious. it kept me from starving when i was still fighting the thoughts, no matter how engrossed in my ED i was if i smoked a bowl and i was hungry it would hurt REALLY bad until i went and got some food, its pretty good for treating anorexic behaviors and i never realised thats why they perscribe it for that, i always knew it was the munchies but i never knew that when ur really hungry its almost excruciating to be baked.

when i go to eat something now i eat what i want and nothing more... i dont read the calories... i dont even worry about it... i eat 2 MAYBE 3 meals on a busy day but they are small and i almost never finish them... ive lost a noticable amount of weight and its lifted my spirits even more. I dont have ED patterned thinking anymore. its amazing to be able to cook my self something and STOP EATING WHEN IM FULL... I was NEVER able to do that before.. to be honest its not just the ED that was cured buy the acid... so was my borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorder, and general personality defects. Im not saying i am perfect by any means but i almost dont feel like the same person anymore. Im happy.
Now im not saying go out and drop lots of acid and smoke lots of pot bc it will fix you (unless thats what ur into ^_^) but its like self medicating that ACTUALLY WORKS. Im gald that i finally have a future.

<3

.Xen.

p.s. this is what happend to the hippy movement.. they all did so much acid that they became functioning members of society.. lol.

 

Dude.. Very fucking happy for you.
wish you all the best for the future!

 

LSD cured my muscle spasms which were an unconscious constant thing. It only stopped when i was on it cause it awakened more of my mind and my energy was flowing freely.

 

lsd cures aids

 

Its nice to see a positive post. A lot of the posts are negative on here. "Help me talk my friend down," "I was an idiot and took too much and fucked my brain up" etc etc.

It was too the point where I thought this forum had trolls who simply wanted to shit on acid. I thought it was spam, honestly.

Keep on keepin' on

 

That is really great. I am so happy for you.

Not to be a negative prick, but anyone who reads this thread please keep in mind that LSD and pot have lead to/contributed to much more depression, anxiety, drug addiction, etc. than miracle cures such as these. But miracle cures can and do happen.

 

This is so wonderfull. Thank you so much for sharing this. This forum has become so negative and this is such a refreshing story.

That is exactly what we all do. We entertain the certain toughts, keep repeating them all the time and we get cought in that thinking pattern. We became slaves. Addiction is one of thought patterns also. But it is a wonderfull drug. It makes you realize what is in your mind all the time even when you are not on it.

Nobody is saying that you should go chew blotters all the time. If you are doing this you should ask yourself why are you doing that. You should ask yourself can you be without it and still love life and yourself and everything around. Maybe even prove it to yourself and try just living. Cause it's not about drug it's about you.

 

its not being on it that has changed me.. its the way its acted on my brain when im sober i dont have those problems anymore and thats what is so amazing.. im not like going out and doing it constantly to make my self feel better or anything. i originally started doing lsd to improve my self as a person... i find that the people that do the most acid are the ones that need a change in there lives... that need to find stability and for me... i needed to be confortable and satified with my self... that and jezuz kryst that stuff is fucking beautiful... i think its my favorite because im so much of an artistic person... its like being the vessel for living art. hehee

sorry i'll stop remenissing.

but its not the first time i have heard of LSD curing mental disorders... or addictions...

in the words of albert hoffman "its medicine for the soul"

 

Im very happy for you. I dont usually like to talk about my opiate/benzo addiction on these forums because last time I brought it up a grumpy old man flamed me for it. But LSD broke me free from the chains of addiction and I have been pill free for over a year and a half.

 

<3

thats awesome

 

Xen I'm glad you see how much potential Lsd has, and that you posted it.

People really underestimate how much their eating habits influence their life and happiness. I see weight gain and bad housekeeping as similar in the sense that if a person is negligent in either, they think that the only problem they are creating is a cosmetic one. Either "well i don't need to worry about my eating, cuz i don't mind looking fat, I have other qualities," or "i don't need to clean, cuz I don't mind a pig sty." They don't realize these things are symptoms of deeper problems, that the worst that can happen is they look bad or their house looks bad. But dirty houses attract bacteria, and a fat body chokes well being and limits intellect and creativity.

A healthy person decides to become so to enhance his internal health, and a better looking body is a fringe benefit. People think it's normal to have aches and pains and no energy as you get older, that it's the status quo. But there's no natural reason that should be; we just tend to treat our bodies like
dumpsters and endure the miserable side effects in ignorance. A person can feel young till their deathbed.

You already know all this I'm sure, esp. with the aid of Lucy; I just seldom post in a health-related thread so I took the liberty

also, success stories like this one are indeed an exception, but not by nature. they're the exception because most people try lsd without adequate education and coupled with bad trip stories. Back in the 60's, when people were first trying lsd outside of clinical settings, it was positive trip after positive trip. There were no boogeyman stories and people didn't suggest "k, it's a crazy drug, go easy, only take one or two, bad things might happen," there was just good vibes and clear and published literature from guys like leary. Back then you were expected to have a religious experience, and most people did. It's the reason it got so big, ans was the nature of the original movement.

Now there's so much stigma that users and nonusers alike have created, that positive trips are the exception rather than the rule. The experience is what you think it is I guess

 

I completely disagree with you on a few points... your body shape has NOTHING to do with your intellect or creativity... thats like saying fat people are stupid and talentless.. and i am an example of that being bullshit. so is my sister and my mother... now granted im not really that fat... but im still overweight and i HIGHLY offended that you would say that.

also i wasn't fat b/c i was lazy and neglectful... i was fat bc from age 4 my grandmother "force fed" me food neuroses by giving us plates of food almost as big as hers and then telling us if we didn't eat it all we wouldn't get ice cream... do you have ANY idea how psychologically damaging that is? and if i said no... she would scream at me until i ate it anyway... the woman was evil... before all of this my parents were trying really hard to make sure that we had normal eating habits... then we got taken away from them when we were 5 and 7 and she went crazy feeding us any fattening thing she could get her hands on... she taught us to eat everything we didn't like first to get rid of it and then eat everything else.. she taught us that it was good to be so full you felt like you were going to explode... she destroyed my relationship with food.

and to be honest... im not really all that fat and im still losing weight in a healthy way.. am i not aloud to be happy with what i have? should i continue having low self esteem so that i relapse and get worse? i dont know... maybe i took your post wrong but... have you ever been fat? were you as a child? do you have any idea how evil teenagers can be? its fucking traumatic.

also.. have you read the stories about people in the 60's getting
really high doses of lsd and ending up in mental hospitals? or have you ever read go ask alice anonymous? your idealistic views of the 60's are flawed.. they were on MUCH stronger acid and i have heard of PLENTY of trips gone horribly wrong.
plus... i think its important for people to freak out... sure bad trips can be scary shit but they only really happen when you have too much shit going on in your life and you are stressed out or you have something that REALLY needs to be dealt with in you mind... something that is eating at you... like my fiance having a bench warrant for over and year and finally losing it one trip and thinking he was going to jail and cops were surrounding the house. every time i told him he didn't have to go to jail his eyes rolled back in his eyes and he passed out. it was one of the worst experiences of our lives... but if he had taken care of it in the first place the freak out wouldn't have happened. and EVERY TIME i have seen someone totally freak they have been much better people afterwards... you cant have happy go lucky frolic in the flowers type trips every time... even really stable people i have known have freaked out.
but also... the freaking out is probably less than 10% of our trips...


you have to accept that there are to sides to everything... and extremes and subtleties to each side.

im sorry i sound so irritated i was just really offended. i know it wasnt really directed at me but i just dont understand how you can say that...

also, would you say buddha's intellect and creativity were being choked?