So I'm volunteering at the Women's Centre at my school this year, and we had this volunteer training day yesterdays. We could choose between three different specific training sessions to go to, so I went to the Sexual Assuault one. They listed some really terrifying statistics, then we watched this movie where they showed the beginning of the rape (everyone still had their clothes on, but it was far too well acted and went on for like 5 full minutes) Anyways, I was really shook up by it, and by some of the stats (the average sexual child abusor abuses 72 kids in his lifetime, for example). My boyfriend came over to my house shortly after I got home from teh retreat and we watched a couple movies. He told me he was too tired/not in the mood tonight to make love or anything, which I'm ok with usually. But I just really needed to know what a safe touch was like, if that makes any sense. That not all guys are awful and terrifying like that. And while we were watching this awful movie, I kept thinking back to that movie (the girl in it looks a lot like one of my close friends) and I got more and more closed off. By the time he decided he was tired and should go home, I couldn't string together more than three words, wouldn't look him in the eye. I tried to explain but.. I couldn't really comprehend what was going on in my brain at the time. Anyways, I was on the verge of tears when he left. When he did leave, I cried for like 20 minutes strait (not like, sniffling and tears, like wailing). I'm torn between calling him and trying to apologize/explain, and letting it just pass by. Any advice or suggestions? (Sorry for this being so ridiculously long)
emotions can be a reminder of things, samething with sense of smell, touch, hearing. you just have a heart, and it got to you.
I'm sorry to hear that, but don't worry. Just like April said, you have a heart and you are frightened about what you saw. I get that sometimes as well (where scenes from a movie affects me for days. It's kind of scary). I say you should call him up and tell him what's happened today : ) It's always better to talk to your boyfriend about things like this, than to keep it inside.
