I am not against trying anything(except shooting up heroin). Now, very good friend of mine, one of the best, has started smoking crack. Lets say, it started with deylsom. Over spring break, like many people do, he went on a drug binge. Prior to this, marijuana was primarily psychoactive. This week, it happened to be deylsom. Deylsom is a cough supressent with DXM, and you trip when you chug a bottle. All of spring break, he was perpetually tripping on deylsom, wether it was the night he took it, or the morning/afternoon after when he was still lightly tripping. Stringing yourself on nearly anything is bad, but you never want to do it with dxm(really any psychedelic); you'll find over a small period of time, maybe even a week, you're a completely different person, it could also fuck up your mind if you're not a headstrong person. Anyway, after this delysom binge when it came time to go to school(our senior year) he didn't show up. He was gone from school 2 or three days when I found out he had been spending all his money on the rock, and also was dropping out. (2 months to graduation) He swore that him quitting school and him smoking rock had nothing to do with each other. About a few days into the first week back, I could tell his mind was gone. He hasn't become stupid, hasn't smoked himself retarded, but he is nowhere near the same person. He's snapped, whatever sanity he was still holding onto has slipped out of his grasp. I'll tell you this, I was me that made him go crazy. Not by any manipulation techniques, no shady shit. Years ago, we met and eventually learned that(even prior to any drug use) we were both preoccupied with the human mind, the world, how it all came together. Basically we both wanted the answer. We would get into conversations when we were alone, and we would schiz on each other, we would streach our own sanity in order to understand the world better. (That sounds very strange, but it is very hard to explain.) Basically, I triggered it in him, he triggered it in me. We have each had the seed inside of us, but to a very small degree.(I know this is wacky, bear with me. If you've read this far, don't stop.) So, ever since those times, early high school, it has been very clear to me that one of us will lose it, that one of us was bound to snap. The movie American Psycho I believe had a hand in it. That movie is one of my favorites, and one of his. When he saw that movie, it got in his head that crazy was cool; it's Christian Bale, man! He has also been having "problems" with his parents. His dad kicked him out, and he lives with his mom. He is moving out from his mom because she can't get him any money, and won't go live with his dad. His father is a very irrational and selfish man, that is truth. His mother is a mother(lol). I can see more of her in him. His mother's mom was a schizophrenic. Anyway, that's what I attribute to my best friend losing it. Now, a week after he started smoking crack, he steals all he can get, sells any drug he can find and was about to sell his car for money for more drugs, before it broke down.. He's been smoking PCP for a few days and has been stringing himself on Xanex and tequila. He hasn't smoked crack for a few days I don't think, and he told me about the terrible 7-hr withdrawl headache the day after his third crack-binge-day. Of course he has been smoking weed the whole time.(I have been too....) I believe I am the only one that can get to him, as I think we have always had an understood, mutual respect for each other. We have never "gone off" on each other, and I believe we have a very good understanding of each other. Now for the crazy part... After anylizing this situation 24-7, it appears clear to me that what is happening is a social pattern, something happening that has happened thousands of times before, and will continue to happen. What we're experiencing is a certian place along a universal wavelength, also a certian place along a specific wavelength. Let me explain this, I believe the universe operates in waves, maybe cycles(I'm leaning towards waves.) Upon observing people, their body language, nature, my dreams, other's recolection of dreams, effects of drugs(don't judge me!=)), the news, social patterns(biggun), the syncronicity of all things I have come to that conclusion. A basic example is when we're sitting in a group of 7 or 8, we're talking, hanging out, etc. It gets to the point where no one has anything to say for a few minutes, and maybe in that silence a shotting star goes by, maybe we all light a cigarette. Once past the silence, things start to get louder, the conversation turns from nothing, to the funniest, most interesting topic and another person happens to arrive at this time; walks up to where we are. To me, this is one of the most basic examples of syncronicity I can think of. Usually the volume at witch we increase to before the entrance reflects the group opinion of the entering person. Okay, so now I have explained my views on... that stuff, this will make a little more sense. I believe that my closest friends, including the one this topic is about, and I represent the New Testament story of Jesus, and various other parts of the Bible. This comes from, our actions within the group, towards the group and our actions outside of our group. From what I have been thinking lately, the bible is a literary representation of archetypal social patterns. I believe that I represent Jesus, and my friend that's loosing it represents lucifer. CLARITY: I am not saying that I am Jesus, or my friend is the devil, or that I think my friend Tom is the spitting profile of Thomas, "Doubting Tomas." I just believe that we fulfill the social patterns that the bible happens to depict. That's why I believe that I am the only person that can get to him, that he'll listen to. He doens't view me as a minion, a sheep, I believe that I am one of the people that he sees with their head on straight. The paralelles between us are astounding. I'll leave that as it lies though.... Now, you know the situation how the fuck do you deal with this shit? Your best friend litterally goes crazy and starts it down the wrong path. We haven't even started our life yet, we're 18, and he's doing this to himself. I know "you can't help them if they don't want to be helped," but that's bullshit. I'll send him to rehab if that's what it takes, but that's a last resort. I know I can get him with words... Please reply with any info or thoughts, comments on anything in this post, I need as much help as possible. Even if it's from internet people. =) EDIT: the drugs I have done are marijuana, LSD, shrooms, extacy, TripleCs, deylsom. Form your own opinions.
wow that was interesting.... just be there for your friend, even if you wont help him life will certainly smarten him up.... soon he will realise that he has to take responsibility for his actions, and supoport himself if he doesnt wanna end up homeless on the streets. I like to do a few lines myself, but it always ends up messing with my budget, so I cant afford much... and I strongly believe he will come to that point when he will hold a steady job that he would rather buy things for himself and his family over crack cocaine... Ive smoked a few bowls of crack over my lifetime but I didnt enjoy the buzz as much... so I cant really understand his addiction too clearly... but what Im saying, and I wont ramble on for too much longer, is that Im pretty sure he will grow out of it... and he wont do it for too much longer once financial difficulties take their toll (unless he would start selling it, which i hope he wont) Peace to you, and take care
TLDNR. just beat his ass, thats what Id do. any one dumb enough to use crack, the biggest joke of a drug ever, isnt a very smart person.
I can't believe I read it all. You did a pretty damn good job of writing that, and it stayed relatively interesting. If I was like an english teacher you would have totally gotten like a D-...ha I'm kidding...
i want u know i took the time to read all of that anyways i think uve been thinking alot about this and all other things (most likely under the influence of a psychedelic) and analyzing every detail and making it possibly mean something it does not. You need to analyze the situation by taking urself out of it. your to close and its influencing your thinking, i think. anyways step back and look at this from the outside perspective. i think, and pleaze correct me if i'm wrong, that your friend has had problems emotionally in the past. whether it was how he dealt with it or it all just piling up on him he finally started cracking. drugs are deffinitly not for the weak in spirit. i do not think ur friend can successfully use drugs, and u probly know it too. but also know this, no matter what you say or do (although it can play a role in helping sway him from side to side) the decision to get clean well be his own. let him no u will love him no matter what and tell him u always be there when he realizes he needs help. untill then just be ready to pick up the pieces when he cracks and give him the sholder to lean on he needs. hope he gets better, and much luck, peace
Most of us has been through that stage or a form of it at one time or another, eventually you realize that this behavior will get you nowhere in life. That usually happens when you hit rock bottom. Just be there when he does, help him realize his mistakes and help him learn from them. Then there are those who will never learn, in that case beat his ass or send him to rehab.
I read the post, a few things jumped out at me. Be careful with your 'synchronicity' theory, it seems like everyone I know who goes on and on about that theory is nuts. Also, how exactly to plan to 'send him to rehab '? Try to get him to take a graduate equivalency test and if he hurries, he could probably start at a community college pretty quickly. If he scores well on the test and his parents are broke, he can probably go for free. Help him set some goals and be willing to just give up on the friendship for a while. He can always come back and talk to you later once he cleans up.
i read most of that, but when its too far and too much is when the drug starts controlling you. so, id say your friend is a bit overboard.