i had to leave school for this year after going through a big depression and missed too much time to go back and now i'm starting to feel even worse and don't want to leave the house or talk to anyone in my house , everyone makes me angry here and i find myself staying in my room and only coming out when noones here , i feel like a damn hermit or something and in the school i go to teachers treat me badly because of the history some people in my family have there and that makes me even more angry which leads to me taking time out and i feel like i'll never be able to stick it out so i can go study art and english afterwards. I don't know if i'll be able to go back because i don't really feel a need to live anymore because i don't want to be stuck in an ordinary job for all my life like i'm forced to live a meaningless life , i can't explain it any further then that and i just don't know why i can't stop feeling this way .. i hope i made a little bit of sence there cause reading over it seems like its all over the place
Change schools. Then impress all the the kids with money, style and attitude. Then become the schools biggest drug dealer. Worked for me. But then again I have a different mindset than you probably. I want to be the best, I want everything, I want people to notice me. But most of all I want to be remembered. And I will be remembered at my old school for the kid stud up for marijuana even though I got expelled. Now I run my new school. I dont even have to sell shit there... I have people for that.
scruuuub,Sounds like you're going through some big depression and I can relate.Life is'nt worthless but it's a big struggle sometimes.Depression sucks it's no fun.Try to do the best you can and don't be hard on yourself consider seeing a counselor or someone to talk to.If you're that reclusive you'll need to get back into living and having some good feelings.Take it a day at a time,Hang in there! Joe,
start looking for home, it might take you a long time, but you have to start somewhere yes there does exist some place out there and some people that you will enjoy being around forever
thanks for all the advice guys , a friend rang me yesterday and just asked me was i alright because everyone was worried about me and i just couldn't say anything but after thinking about it all night i really do need to start putting some life back into myself so i'm finding lots of things i can do like joining up with a theatre/arts group to meet new people and i'm starting to write music more often because it always makes me happy. thanks again
I often feel better when I do something simply for the sake of doing, or helping others. Sort of putting the "i must impress" loop aside, if you know what I mean. Its difficult at first, but well worth the practice.
