My Marijuana Story. Why I Quit and Why im Satisfied with my Decision to quit.

Hello people,
Age 14 is when i first started smoking weed lol it was 4/20, it took about 6-7 tries until i understood how to inhale correctly, and how to get high....Once i did started gettin high, i loved it! But the reason i tried it, honestly, was because i everyone else is doing it. But once i started gettin blazed, i enjoyed doin it lol i didnt care i just did it whenever it was available. I had madddd fun doing it too hahaha....

anyways, As i got older i started smoking more, more frequently, and still i didnt care, i was having a good time, and it put me in a good mood, and made me chill and clear my head, i loved it, i was a PROUD weed smoker, and i never got Tiered of defending it, and how "great it really is".

After last summer, I was planning on attending college, so i roomed up with some freinds, once we settled in we smoked almost daily at first, which eventually became daily, which eventually became several times a day....

I still enjoyed it, and i became an obvious smoker, like ppl knew me as a pothead and i had no problem with it b/c i was gettin good grades, and i was havin a good time, and i was chill all day everyday hahaha....

so anyways, about 6 monthes after smokin daily/ almost daily, i have come to realise that if i dont smoke and get high, than everything SUCKS, like in a depressing way.... nothing is good anymore, and i actually NEED weed to have a normal satisfying day. Moreover, my tolerance became high and i barrely got blazed off the blunts i smoked, and when i did it only lasted a few minutes. I was denying it was changin me completely and kept on smoking, b/c i knew no better. I denied i was addicted. It was hard for me to fall asleep without smoking. Also Its BAD, WEED IS NOT GOOD, its not HEALTHY, I ADMIT ITS VERY FUN, BUT ITS VERY BAD FOR UR LUNGS, once u smoke a lot u start coughfin up flem all the time....its discusting...

anyways,
My dad suprised me with a 30 day vacation in europe to visit some of my family, and i had to quit for 30 days.... I didnt mind, b/c i wanted to quit but i didnt have a reason to...but now with this suprise vacation, I HAD TO QUIT.

so the first two days, i had serious anxiety and paranoia for no reason wat so ever, i felt scared, and just shitttty, VERY uncomfterble no matter WHAT. I was always nervous....and i guess this is the WIthdrawal symptoms i went through....To the people that say WEED ISNT ADDICTING, IT IS! IDC IF ITS PSYCHOLOGICALLY ADDICTING its still addicting as a motherfucker and theres seirous withdrawal symptoms. I became seriously depressed to a point where i considered seeing a therapist...i felt uncomfortable in my own DAMN skin, and discusted with how dependent i was on this marijuana, i felt like the scum of the eart, a lowlife peice of shit, etc... Im seriously felt soooo bad... I lost 5-7 lbs due to complete loss of apitite..... I was completely out of ittt REALLY.

NOW i stand 4 monthes being completely sober, and i came back to reality (my normal sober life) , from begin a fuckin burnout...VERY VERY slowly and it was HARD, but it was sooo worth it. When i used to get high i used to look back at the times where i enjoyed doing normal things, u kno? and sometimes i was like fuckkkk, these days if i dont get FUCKED up i dont have fun, and its a shame.... Feeling sober definitly feels good, being able to have a good time without smoking weed definitly feels GREAT....


Well now im back to reality, and i still dont feel 100% percent myself but im getttin VERY CLOSE to being completely the way i used to be, and i feel good.

I do regret smoking all that weed recklessly, and i also regret doing shrooms more than once....but ill save my shrooms story for another day.

Dont get me wrong I enojyed all my weed experiances, and i had one bad trip with shrooms, but IT WAS MAD FUN......

As much as u may deny it, WEED/ SHrooms/ Drugs/ CHANGE PEOPLE, ALOT! They are changing you! shit, they've changed me....... IDC how SAfe a drug may be, theres still a BAD side to it, dont neglect ur body, dont ABUSE substances....
If u decide to smoke weed, PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE dont do it daily.... im not saying im NEVER going to smoke weed again, i just KNOW im never going to do it more than 2-3 times a month.

If you wanna see what im talking about, and you smoke daily.... Just Quit cold turkey for a week, and see how hard it is.... so how interested u are in things, and compare to how interested u USED to be before u started smoking....if your perfectly fine with the way you are, and you TRUELY ARE (ur not lying to yourself) than more power to yaa

This is my story,
Please dont critisize,
I appriciate any comment,
One Love,
Mattt

 

some of it is hard to understand i kno...my grammer/ spelling sucks, i apologize...i typed this up real fast and its pretty late here.

Cheers.

 

People also get addicted to World of Warcraft, Sex and even Food. It wasn't the weed, it was you. Don't blame weed for your weaknesses, take responsibility for yourself.

 

I couldn't have possibly put it any better.

 

let me be clear, i'm not trying to be rude or anything. it's just that your story reads like: "i got hooked on weed, don't let it get you too, it can happen!", when in reality it should be: " i couldn't handle weed because of my own personal issues, please don't use marijuana as a way to escape from the issues you're too afraid to deal with."

 

Amen, Shane.

 

The depression is definatley you not the bud. It don't make you depressed.

 

You say you were coughing up a lot of phlegm and stuff. You say you couldn't get blazed off of the blunts you were smoking, which implies to me that blunts are what you were smoking most/all of the time, as opposed to bowls and whatnot. The only time I have had problems with phlegm is when I was smoking a lot of blunts. I still smoke just about the same amount of weed as I always have, which is a lot, and I haven't coughed up any phlegm in ages, because I don't smoke a lot of blunts anymore. The tobacco in the blunts is what fucks your lungs; not the weed.

 

At any rate, I'm glad you stopped smoking weed, if you realized it's not right for you, but you are coming off as a little.....preachy, if I do say so myself.

 

Marijuana is not a drug. I used to suck dick for coke. Now that's an addiction. You ever suck some dick for marijuana?

 

I smoke a lot and decided to quit cuz all my friends were giving me shit and they told me how different i would feel. I quit for almost a month and didnt feel any different. I felt the same. Maybe I have changed. I am a great person, not a burnout. If I can't smoke its no big deal I still enjoy life just as much!!! Sorry to hear that you had a bad experience on weed which made u quit.

 

Marijuana IS a drug. Anything that causes chemical reactions in your body/brain is a drug, whether it be your favorite foods, your favorite drinks, or marijuana. Though, it's not in the same category as coke or heroin, it is still a drug, believe it or not.

 

Dude watch Half Baked, its a joke from the movie. Whenever anyone says that they are addicted to weed it is a joke to say "Marijuana is not a drug. You ever suck some dick for marijuana?"

 

Yeah I've seen it numerous times. I just thought you were serious when you said you used to suck dick for coke. lol

 

lol, ive never done coke. So no sucking cock for coke. I guess i spend to much time on digg.com it seems every story about weed or addiction has a string of comments about sucking dick for coke.

Anyway i agree with you that weed is a real drug, although i don't think anyone has ever sucked dick for it.

 

I don't think anyone has either, but you never know.......some poor desperate bastard probably has. haha

Allow me to correct myself....I don't know any GUYS who have sucked dick for weed. I have, however, personally allowed a girl to suck my dick in return for me smoking a blunt with her. Originally, she wanted me to give her a sack of her own for sucking my dick, but fuck that......I didn't have enough to just be giving away, so I just smoked a blunt with her. haha

 

my b if i was coming off as preachy....i used to smoke outta bongs and bowls as well...mostly bongs actually... but the phlem isnt the bad part.

WEED changes people! its obvious! once u have lots of fun with it, thats all you wanna do, i mean u still like going to movies, hangin out with freinds, etc, but weed is upthere on top of that LIST of things u like to do...all im sayin is when u smoke weed daily, u miss out on other things in life, and b4 u know it the time has gone by....and then u look back and ur like what just happened the past year/ 2 years where i was smokin weed daily??? and then ur like..i know i had fun, but i cant fuckin RECALL why i had fun, or what i did, or who i was with, or ANYTHING like that....and its sad lol....it just sucks.

^^^^ and i kno some of you might say, i get things done when im high, i dont have a problem functioning, i dont miss out on anything worth while lol....but its really nothing like you would b able to function if you were sober...

I smoked a lot of weed and it fucked up my brain, but i still managed to get good grades in colllege. that doesnt change the fact that i was a burnout like anyone else that smokes weed daily...burnouts do some retarded ass shit lol i never used to get mad when i used to pull some retarded ass shit for no reason, i was just like im a burnout its one of the effects haha...

I could definitly Handle myself on weed, and if i would smoke today i would STILL have a GREAT time. I used to smoke 3-4 blunts a day at times, some of them 1/8 blunts, believe it or NOT. I used to get high and enjoy myself...It obvious that eventually its gonna fuck you up, i mean if u get high daily for a year and then u stop smoking cold turkey your gonna FEEL LIKE SHIT, dont tell me that its not true, b/c like TopNotchStoner said Marijuana is a drug after all, and it is psychologically addicting, and anything that is psychologically addicting has withdrawal symptoms, does in not? i wasnt tryin to be a DICK...i was just tryin to give u guys a heads up, so u dont repeat the same misteak i did.

it definitely wasnt ME who made myself NOT LIKE WEED, it wasnt like my personality that was like WEED IS BAD lol....i just learned from experience that it isnt all that great for you, and ppl who abuse it get retarded and it just fucks them up, fucks up their brain, their nerves, etc...Its funny how u guys say Its YOU who is the problem...NOT WEED lol....NOOOO people ITS WEEED that fucked up my brain...its weed that made me feel shitty for a long ass time after i quit, its not my true self. people who spend a lot of their time smoking weed as a hobby, or daily activity LOSE themselfs. it is what it is. I dont expect you guys to agree with me lol im just givin u a heads up. U guys obviously love doing ur thing, and if it was me who went to this forum a year ago readin about WHY WEED IS BAD or WHY SOMEONE QUIT, i would also be like "Pshhhhh.....what does that guy know!! weed is great!!" lol...

and AGAIN im not AGAINST WEED, im not trying to manipulate anyone to STOP smoking, or to quit...im just givin u guys a heads up to what happens when ppl abuse it...i dont wish the way i felt, after smokin for a long and quiitin, to my worse enemy.

 

I hear what you're saying, hebrew.

This is my take on things though:
The problems come when you go into it blindly. If you smoke weed everyday, multiple times per day, that's fine, as long as you keep your shit straight and maintain your self-control and will power, you'll be fine. All that is required is that you keep your priorities in order and do what you need to do.

Me? I AM psychologically addicted to weed, but I still do what I need to do. I have never felt like my normal self unless I was stoned. Even the first time I smoked weed, I remember thinking "this is what I NEED to be doing". You say weed led to your depression. It did the opposite for me; I was clinically depressed BEFORE I started smoking weed, and my therapist agreed. I started attending therapy sessions before I started smoking weed and the doctor said that I was clinically depressed and that I have ADHD, both of which had badly influenced my grades in high school. After I started smoking weed, multiple times per day, my grades improved and my depression all but disappeared. The therapist is the one who told me and my mom that the weed played a major role in improving my mental state and also helped me bring my grades up. He said it worked better for my concentration than Ritalin did, which I had been prescribed prior to becoming a pothead.

Before I started smoking weed, I never felt normal, and I never felt comfortable with myself, on an emotional level. After I started smoking, I felt better than I ever had, and my mind was no longer racing and I wasn't having the erradic thoughts that I used to have because of my ADHD. I literally felt better than I ever had and everything about my life improved.

Weed only became a problem when I started making it a priority and letting it get in the way of things I had to take care of. I have since gained more self-control and am able to balance out my smoking and my responsibilities.

Similar to your situation, the problem wasn't the weed.....it was ME and my MISUSE of our favorite herb......not the herb, itself.

Granted, weed isn't for everyone, and it CAN be detrimental, if misused. It's just up the the individual to decide for themselves. You may understand this, but you're coming off as if you think your situation is universal, and that marijuana is going to affect everyone the same way it has affected you, and that's not the case.

Now, I've been smokin herb for over 9 years, and I've been through all of the ups and downs that come with it. It's safe to say that I am NEVER gonna stop smokin, and that's perfectly fine with me:spliff:

 

Oh, and you think 3-4 blunts per day is HEAVY smokin? Dude, I've gone through periods where I smoked OZ's per day. LLLLOOOOONNNNGGG periods.

Xanax is what burned me out. hahaha

 

mmmmkay, I smoked a Half of dank in two days. hardly been sleeping,, dropping shrooms. on vacation... have no regrets.... currently stoned... life is good...