Worst Experience Ever! (Drunk, High; Zong Hit of Salvia)

Alright so about 2 weeks ago I was at a friends house and we had some Club 13 XXX salvia. I have never done a hallucingen in my life. Well at the time when I did it I was super stoned and really drunk.

My friend had a steamroller zong about a foot long, I white walled it and cleared the entire thing held it in for as long as possible let it out and my head dropped on the table and my eyes closed; what I was about to experience would be the scariest thing of my entire life.

I find myself at like a dinner table although I had a horrible feeling. I was perceiving what my friends were saying completely different and evil as if I wasnt suppose to be their sort of the real reality. They were surprised I had got their and kept repeating the same thing, something like "Oh I cant believe Jason is here," something like that I could be wrong. Once again I have never tried a hallucinogenic drug in my life along with the fact that I was drunk and high going through this experience.

I felt as if I had experience the end not death but the end of myself and that when I came out of this I would be re-born or never come back to the same family, friends, etc. Well when I came out of it I was almost in tears crying I could not believe what I had just experienced.

The next few days for me were tough I believe I was experiencing depersonalization or derealization. I smoked some bud at the time I was going through this cause it was on and offand while I was high I just could not stop thinking that this was reality was fake. I have not smoked since. I snapped out of it after a few days although still feel at times that this is not real.

The best way I can explain what I am feeling is this; we all are looking for something in life and when we die that something gets answered well I feel like I already know it, I dont but I have the feeling that I do, if that makes any sense. Also when people are asked the question "Why are we here?" their mind only processes a bit (ex. 5%) when I am asked that question I already have processed like (ex. 200%).

The feeling has almost completely subsided although still at times I just think life is fake and this is not real, it is a very uncomfortable feeling; as if I feel that I know something that I should not. I also feel that life has not been the same since that experience.

I know this feeling will go away over time, although if it was possible to have a deeper understanding chemically as why I went through that I think the feeling would go away much quicker. I also think I had a horrible experience because I was drunk and high at the time and the fact that I have never experienced the effects of a hallucinogenic drug.

Thanks,
Jason!

 

First thing you did was drink with your trip, bad bad bad, alcohol is a dirty disgusting drug that muddies up all other experiences. You also should hang out with ppl that know how to respect hallucinogens, they are not party drugs! And last but not least you did not prepare yourself for what was about to happen, if you are in a bad headspace you will almost always have a bad time. Next time, be in a safe place, be sober, brace yourself and enjoy, enjoy respectfully.