My mind is no longer a virigin. Someone busted in my mind and now im pregnant.

LOL wats up ppl?!
I have been SO MINDFUCKED over the past 3 years, i have discovered some of the secrets of life through experimenting with mushrooms and smoking LOTS of weed. But i quit weed and shrooms as well, i have been sober for about 4 monthes now...

Anyways,

The more i try to discover what life is about the more i get mind fucked, the 'condom' has busted in my mind numerous times, and no longer want to be a mindfuck prostitute, (idk if that makes sense, im straight though..i promise!)

all i know is life is not as expected as you little raskels can imagine
after being sober for 3-4 motnhes and after tryin to quit weed for a few monthes i learned that my emotions became stronger and i can almost control them now, its easier for me to be happy wihtout drugs, and being sober is really beautiful as well. Life is awesome, its full of suprises, and no one should EVER get bored with themselfs or forget who they are! I very happy these days i dont think i need drugs at all, not pot or alcohol or anything! why would i fuck up my body if im in a good place already??

Being on shrooms one time, i learned that i was complete IDIOT and i was really mad and disappointed in myself b/c i neglected my body and my life a lot without even noticing it...for example, i smoked a lot of weed i became lazy and sometimes i was starving, or had cotton mouth really bad and i didnt get up to do anything about it....for some reason on shrooms i learned that you should never neglect your body, and always aprriciate life, and never get lazy on yourself or forget who you are.



Now if i wake up at 3:30 a.m. and im tiered as hell and im thirsy i get up and i get my self a glass of water, i never used to do that b4!...

it defintily pays off...
Life is wiered, it expected and unexpected all at the same time, its complicated but simple, ugly but beautiful, kind but brutal, and i truely believe its upto US what side we are on? kind of a "is the cup half full or half empty" kind of thing....

Shrooms really has the power to FUCK someone up, in a good way or a bad way, NEVER underestimate it. unfortunately i have seen both the good and bad side of shrooms. It makes you realize how beatiful life is and how much there is to live for, but it also makes you realize how artificial everything seems, and this one time i was in a bad trip and i just felt like i complete stranger, i felt terrible!! but anyways I DONT ADVICE ANYONE TO experiment with shrooms if they got things GOOD, if theyre having a good time without drugs, if they are in a good place already.....b/c shrooms CHANGES a person, and i dont think its worth it to RISK what you have already, in attempt to unlock some secrets about life. GOOD TRIPS are amzing and they are VERY fun and very mindblowing; however, once you see what ever you mind wants you to see, and you unlock some secrets of life, you can never go back, and sometimes its a shame....life is far less interesting sometimes. Idk it might just be me, but Being sober i really learned to look at the good things in life without drugs

shrooms brought up question like:
Why are everything about humans just the way they are? there has to be a reason behind it.... why are the eyes rounds, why are we so delicate, etc..??
If the color RED is RED to me? can RED be GREEN to YOU? how do you know that the RED i see and the RED you see is the same RED???? u kno what i mean?

thats just to name a few lol....damn im mindfucked! that "RED" thing always gets me....thats enough for one day.

LOL anyways this thread is reallly wild, and idk what i expect you guys to say, or reply, ANYTHING WOULD BE GREAT.

I appriciate it!,
Peace

 

So why exactly are you rambling on about how good/bad drugs are if you just said you've been sober for 4 months and are living fine without it? Sounds like you need some weed. Sobreity sucks

 

ur fifteen. smoke weed daily for a year and then quit cold turkey...Tell me how u feel, and then we will se if i "need some weeD" or if "sobreity sucks" dude lol.
im not trying to be a dusche, im just sayin dont make the same misteak i made, dont abuse weed, dont do shrooms more than once if at all........trust me

 

a

 

Brother, im sorry if u misunderstood.
Im not trying to say WEED IS BAD. im just trying to say ppl shouldnt let it take over they're lives, in a uncontrolable manner.
Shrooms isnt BAD as well. But what i was saying is shrooms alters the way u percieve things, so if your in a good happy place already, i personally dont beleive its worth Risking that well being state, for a shrooms experience, b/c once u do shrooms it changes the way u think and stuff.... but thats just my personal opinion.

I had many FUN TIMES ON WEED and shrooms, i had many not so good times on weed and shrooms.

lol im not trying to scare ppl into NOT doing drugs or being high on life solely, im just saying some ppl should not do drugs.. just because.....u kno? im sayin its not something just play around with, and see what happens...b/c thats how ppl get hurt, and its a shame. Im not sayin that eatin mushrooms cant be influencial and a great experience, but it can also be a terrible disasterous experience, is this not true?
especially for 15 year old kid, 15 yr olds should really tkae it easy for a few more years b4 they start getttin into drugs too much, but thats my personal opinion again...

weed can be fun, and it is most of the time, but its an under-rated drug in my opinion, and its not exaclty innocent..there are side effects. but it could definitly be FUN, and its not VERY harmful, but ppl should really know both the good/bad sides about it before saying its not addicting and its totally free of flaws....

I was sooooo happy after my first shrooms trip by the way and it defintily enhanced my artistic ability, but it REALLY changed the way i was..and the way i thought and my perception.....the second shroom trip was bad though, and it didnt change me in a bad way, it was just 6 hours of HELL lol....my third shroom trip was good and bad mostly good though and it was pretty nice, but im done with shrooms lol...thats just me though

peace and love,
I didnt mean to seem like those anti drug commercials hahaha

 

also some of the stuff that i said about shrooms was fair bro lol, i said it was good and bad, and it was all true personal experiances u kno? i wasnt sugar coding anything there

its all about mt personal experiences and my discoveries.

 

a

 

okay i understand what ur saying now lol, my bad.

yea it did make me lazy... let me rephrase that...well I chose to be lazy, but weed made it easier on me to make the descision to be lazy; does that make sense? but of course, looking at the big picture its all up to the individual.

and idk if u were talking about me when sayin ppl blame personal flaws on drugs but I do sometime blame some personal flaws on drugs. Im not saying there arent things drugs could help with, or enhance, but it can also cause some problems which wouldnt be caused if that individual havent used those/ that drug....lol u kno?

 

lol bull shit i smoke out side every day and walk around high lol and i got good grades i wouldnt say they make you lazy your blaming drugs instead of yourself or the person.

 

ur young dude. passing ur classes or getting good grades even though u smoke, doesnt mean anything... whats ur point?? i used to smoke 2-3 times a day for 6 motnhes and still passed my classes while being a stoner....

ur right its up to the person whether hes lazy or not, but weed defintily plays a role in the decision/decisions the individual makes. its going to be easier for a smoker to be lazy or become lazy as opposed to a non-smoker. looking at the big picture its ONLY upto the individual, but weed somewhat influences the individuals decision making ability lol. yeaaa...

 

hey hebrewnational,

Well i certainly appreciated your post. I've been smoking hash since November when i stopped smoking weed and since then i've been feeling a whole lot better in myself, living more in the now rather than "Yah, i'll do that tomorrow...zzz", my sciatica which i've had for 2 or 3 years has almost vanished completely. Indeed i now have week long breaks from smoking hash but do find i smoke more cigarettes in those weeks.
But yes being straight and clear is very enjoyable indeed!

 

thanks man!
yea its not impossible to enjoy weed for a long time...
but it can get probelmatic when ppl (like myslef) underate the drug, and believe what people say like "theres no withdrawal symptoms, its very easy to quit, its not bad for you, it doesnt mess up your brain at all" although some of these things may be true to some people its really NOT the case to the majority of people....
anyways ive learned that the hard way smokin 2-3 times a day for six monthes haha, so now im just chillin, idk if im going to ever smoke that kind of amount of weed ever. but im def not against it, ill smoke every once in a while

 

... just re-reading the thread again. It's interesting how peoples views on drugs differ according to their life experience. In my case i grew up with fairly low self esteem and a lack of direction and lost my brother as a teenager also, ... it was all too easy for me to just blot it out smoking pot all the time and i've spent mutch of my life living in the future and not dealing with and getting on with my life in the present. Self esteem and self confidence and trust are key issues with me ... always have been and i suppose i feel i've spent mutch of my life observing other people LIVING theirs whilst not dealing with and living my own. Why? Because i never really felt i was worth mutch.
Sure, alot of folks get along fine with drugs and good for them but myself and a whole load of others have used pot as an emotional crutch for far too long, jeez i'm 40 next year and life is ticking by. In the short term pot has been a salve but i have noticed that in the long term it has played a part in MY life of diminishing my capacity for loving myself and others and finding the self worth i really NEED ... i've been the pot equivalent of an alcoholic ...compulsive, in other words. Mushrooms never really gave me any great insight but ecstacy DID ... it really helped me to see myself underneath and realise i was a lovely human being and in turn helped me to see that in others also. But that was then and my experiences and self perception and self doubt have since taken me right back to where i started ... to being LESS THAN and not EQUAL TO others. Indeed smoking tobacco and pot since i was 13 has also given me poor circulation, high blood pressure and a blood clot and i'm damned well fed up with it! I want to look after my body and value my own and others short existence too and hebrews post is inspiring for me. I'll never hate drugs and i'd like to let go with love for what few things it has taught me ... indeed i hope i may gain enough love and restraint to still enjoy the odd puff now and again without becoming emotionally or physically dependant on it. But first things first eh?

So for me the long and short of it is that I and many others have had issues with drugs generally and need a release from it in order to view life with fresh eyes, and to all those that don't ... good for you, really! Enjoy!

 

liquid light, although i dont know you, u really sound like a cool dude with A GOOD head on yiur sholdiers. I understand it can get easy to smoke weed as a way to escape life's obsticles and problems but in my opinion its really not worth it. I think you have come to relise that as well. some stoners or weed smokers on here think im a "bad guy" or someone who is trying to "tell them what to do" or an "anti drug" person but im really not. Im not entirely against drugs, i just really want to try and spare some poeple the problems i have encountered....what im trying to do is share my personal experiences and hopefully give ppl a "heads up" on what they can expect...i know it different for every individual but many individuals experience/experienced what i have, and then again, some dont.

Anyways, there is no reason for u to feel like ur not worth it or ur not as important as anyone else. Shrooms actually made me realise and ask myself "why would i ever feel uncomfortable or unconfident?" we are all FUCkin Flesh and bones, We all Carry a Brain and knowledge. Never underestimate what you are capable of doing/ or being. You can provide yourself and the people u know which as much whatever-it-is- u wanna provide em with as u need. (if its comfort, love, freindship, etc...)

keep ur head up man, and if drugs dont work for you than dont touch it, thats my advice...then again if u can enjoy urself and relax with a blunt or two every once and a while, than why not? go for it; but dont get yourself into something ur going to regret, thats all imsaying. Shrooms made me relise some good things about myself...( i never tried Ex), it made me relise that, like u mentioned, ur not suppose to neglect ur body, or think less of yourself, for any reason, or anybody...EVER.

My Philosophy is: As a human I got to better myself, and enhance my life in any way possible, theres always room for improvement and sky is the limit. My goal is to be liked by everyone as much as possible, be nice to everyone as much as i can, be freindly, provide to myself and my people, be happy...and so on.

I never cuss a lot anymore like i used to, i never talk about bad stuff, or watch bad things on t.v, b/c negitivity attracts negitivity....and if i wanna bcome a better person and follow my philosophy than i gotta keep it positive by all means and stay as healthy as possible by all means.

anyways, im glad my post inspired you,
Take Care,
Thanks for replying!
~H.National

 

Why are you double posting.

This is the same thing as you posted in the Marijiuna Forum about quitting.

Whats your deal?

 

what r u talking about willis?
this is not double posting...At ALL.

 

pretty much

 

Mr Backwood, perhaps hebrewnation wants to share his thoughts and ideas with other people who don't frequent the marijuana forums.... which is a perfectly legitimate reason for posting the same/similar thing in two places. Heck, i go in the marijuana forums sometimes but i've never seen this other post of his, and may never have if he hadn't posted it here.

What do you care anyway?

 

hebrew you have no life get off forum now before i call the internet police

 

I can dig this jive you are laying down, hebrew. Sobriety is fun -- personally, I don't crave anything more.

On the other hand, though I don't enjoy pot myself, I can appreciate that it's fun to experiment. But having not smoked for a while now, I do feel better than when I did smoke it. I think it's cool that some folks can smoke it and be as right as rain, though.

I might have a different attitude towards it if it were legalized. Like, I never bought pot in the same way that I never buy alcohol. But if there were just hash bars around, with music playing, that would be pretty cool and I might feel a little differently about it.