grieving the loss of my best friend!!

hi everyone, ive got something on my mind so i thought i would air this. i lost my best friend last year in a horrific car accident, caused by a drunk driver. i am devasted, heartbroken and very lost. we had been friends for years, we worked together and lived together during our friendship. i cant believe she has gone, i miss her so much, i suppose im coping , im having to. i live in a small town in spain along side her and my family, i also see them heartbroken. i cant believe that this has happened and i cant except it. i miss her so much its indescribeable, im so sad that she has gone. my family and friends have been fantastic, but they are also grieving!. i broke up with my boyfriend the ame week that my best friend past away, just when i needed someone the most it all fell apart, i dont think he could handle my grief, when i am normally a chilled out chick. i just feel that my heart is so bruised, with a hole in it the day my best friend passed away. this will never be healed!!!!
im lucky to have 100's of photos of us, we worked 3 summer seasons in spain together and tock loads of photos, these are so precious , i look over them all the time, waves of saddness wash over me. any advice or to hear from anyone who has also, or still, as it never goes away, grieving , would love some feedback.
finally, peacexxx
sleep in peace my angelxxx

 

i lost a good friend over 6 years ago the same way...its going to be VERY hard for awhile...but you'll move on...but you wont ever forget...they're never really gone as long as we remember them...thats all i can say...

 

thank you, just finding it so hard and i was told that as time went on it would be easier to deal with, but i find that when time goes on its harder to deal with as i miss her so so much. we were always together, but i like to think that she is still by my side as good friend are.
peacexxxxxxxxxx