wow, did today ever suck... day 2.5 - no weed

Hey guys,

Well, I just wanted to vent before I try to kill the rest of the night doing something boring and stupid...

Anyhow, as some of you know, I was going to try and cut back - smoke 2-3 times a week as I'm hating my tolerance... so I'm on "almost" day no 3.

Anyhow, I find Im even sleeping good, but I'm quite "down". Not sure if there is ever a good time to cut back.. but man...

I'll be out of work soon, and that’s stressing me out a bit (not much, as I'll pickup something hopefully), but today’s searching has been rough... (mentally). To top things off, my buddy emailed me (I bought us both tickets to Rothbury), and he is now saying he cannot make it... so I'm stuck with 2 tickets.. I've paid for both (he is now having financial problems, and does not want to go... wtf)... what hurts more than losing some $'s is just the thought that I may miss the show (or go alone)... which will suck...

Life just seems "grey".... so different from my wake bake and hike - Sunday morning.


Anyhow, sorry guys… just venting – trying to feel better.

Peace all
Soc

 

yeah i'm not cutting back, but i'm tight on $$ and bone dry...

 

venting is good man... me and my assistant at work got into a huge argument and now i feel a ton better just being able to scream and get shit off my chest

 

i dont really understand how its hard for some people to cut back. i mean there are people who quit shooting heroin cold turkey. just imagine that and toughen up. if buds getting to you, thats a problem.

 

I think I know what you mean.

Don't let life get you down. Try to remember that it's all part of the same cosmic hamster wheel that people have been running on for thousands of years.

I don't know about you, but Paul Simon's "You Can Call Me Al" video with Chevy Chase always makes me smile.

 

Is there no way to find someone to fill your friends spot? You should see if anyone else wants to go.

 

i am going through the exact same process.... after this bag im gonna have to quit. i know i am. yet ive said this many times before, but now i know this is it. its true that the world seems grey and you think of how much more perspective and clear thought you'll gain by smoking. but in fact i think its all about moderation and its smoking every day that makes the tolerance go up to the point its not worth it. and also makes you feel dependent on it.

what i'd do is just stay off it for a good few weeks, the fact that you feel you need it is a bad sign and marks the point where the smoking is not worth it anymore, for a few weeks at least. it takes 2 weeks just to get back to feeling 100 percent normal again, that might sound silly but i think most people can attest to this when quitting and suceeding... pot is subtle in its addiction... you wanna live some time in the real world. then go back and start smoking again and do it once or twice a week or so. keep behind the red line and you won't have to stop and itll make a huge positive impact on your life without having to spend very much on it.

 

Wish I could be you. When I don't smoke weed that day it takes me forever to get to sleep, but if I do smoke weed when I lay down it feels really relaxing and I'm out like a baby.

 

i need a break myself been tokin way too much 0_o

 

Hey guys!

Just wanted to say thanks for the kind words... and encouragment... Yea, usually I'm in quite a good mood, but, there was just so much happening (and I guess it got the best of me).

But yea, you guys are the best - thanks for all the encouragement, advice, and just for letting me rant on here...

Anyhow, todays been better... my wife and I said if we make it to Friday, were doing a wake, bake, and hike again I know it hasn't been a full week, but its been longer than I can remember... So hey, weekend I think should be cool, then starting Sunday night, I'll try again for another week... (ughhh).

Anyhow, good luck to the rest of you who are trying, and have an awesome weekend guys.

Peace
Soc

 

Yea, this was probably the straw tht broke me down...

but yea, I'm trying to find someone to take the ticket - but truth be told, at 40, it gets quite hard to find friends who would be able to just bail out for a few days, do a road trip (6hrs away), camp out for like 4 nights, and head back... lots of people want to go, but due to work, commitments, or just thier wives not letting them go (heheh), its not easy at this stage to just head out....

I figure, worse case, I may just go solo... I've been to many dead shows, and small festivals (local bands).. and really, I'm there for the shows.. and the people I meet and party with are allways quite cool... camp site may be lonley... but hey... you do what you gotta doo... (as someone up there in the earlier threads said, I should toughen up)... and yea, your right - its such a small thing, and I won't let it get to me again.

take care guys
Soc

 

You may be smoking too much and thats why you feel down, or "grey" as you put it... I smoke on the weekend only and usually have a few beers and pipes. The weed lasts longer this way and i get a better high.

I used to smoke it alot in my teens and then i realised it was making me slow and not want to do anything but chill out... so i decided that was it and had a long brake, then i started again but only at the weekend, I feel much better and enjoy it more.

 

take your lady to the show!

 

I think it's definitely a good idea to occasionally switch things up and take breaks from smoking. Just clears you up, imo.