I guess I fall here too?

Hey I posted in the transexual forums as well, but I guess no I'd fall into the category as well..so I'll just respost. I don't want to spam, I just want to introduce myself to all the folks in this community..so please don't hate me for reposting Maybe I don't belong in this forum, but I don't see how I couldn't I'm a woman who loves a woman...

Hello everyone,

I'm sure most of you don't know me at all, I used to post under donvito1122 (couldn't remember my log in information ;p ). Anyway, well recently I came out to my wife (we started dating in highschool (freshman year), and finally married a year ago) that I am a woman. Not pysically, yet at least, but I have known this since...well as long as I can remember. (I remember being six or sevenish? praying to God that I would wake up in the morning as myself). Guess what? She was fine with it! Actually since coming out she's said I'm a much nicer/happier person to be around. She's been so supportive with everything! I'm just glad that she can finally meet ME...not the shell of a person I was before. I was trying too hard to make myself a man, when I didn't even know how to be one (other than what I have learned from living as one for 19 years)....I was an idiot, but finally I can be myself.

I tried my entire life to deny this, deny who I am. I was even ready to go into the military because I felt this would force me to accept how I was born...but luckily I decided against that, that would have been the biggest mistake in my entire life. Whew, it still feels so good to say it, I am a woman.

I've been living 100% (or as close to 100% I can get ;p ) at home. My wife was great accepting this, she even helped me pick out a wig (and she didn't even care about the price..which I was suprised about also $500..but it's real hair so yay! I love it so much! http://wowwigs.stores.yahoo.net/athena.html I think it's pretty at least), she's let me wear her items (until I managed to pick up a few of my own), and she's starting to help me work on my voice too! I'm going to be coming out to my band this week (it's kinda hard not to...we practice here ;p)..but they have all been friends since I can remember, so I'm hoping they'll all be able to adjust....plus I'll just remind them just because I'm a woman doesn't mean I can't still play a mean drums! (I did manage to crack a nail though the other day when my wife and I were jamming...ugh.)

The goal is to tell my parents, and her's (not worried about them, they are the most easy going, accepting people I have ever met), sometime in the next month or so. Any advice regarding this? I mean I'm going to do it, just very nervous about it..ya know? It's not everyday parents hear this. Either way, they can accept me or not, theres no changing whats inside. Once I let them know I'm going to start on hormones, and start living as myself 100% of the time (not just at home, around friend, etc.). Also I'm going to start seeing a psycologist/gender therapist so I can start working on my 1-2 year real life living test, and also start collecting recomendations for the surgury. I'll also start the transitioning period durring this phase, meaning changing birth certificate, drivers liscense, social security, etc. (I've been following the advances in this field since I could understand what this was, and had internet acces ;p so I'm just ready to get the process moving..but it's always good to make sure to do this properly)

Finally, the overall goal is to undergo Facial Feminization Surgury, Breast Enchancement (if hormones don't take care if that ;p), Butt and Hip augmentation, and the big one Sexual Reassignment Surgury! My wife and I want to wait until we have enough money to pay for this all up front at one time (or as close as the doctors will let it happen). Again I couldn't ask for a more wonderful wife, she's so understanding, supportive, and AMAZING! I couldn't go through this without her at all! She's even fine with calling me by my new name...which I thought would be weird for her..but nope she even helped me pick one out! (she said it was a perfect choice for her hippy chick)

Well, sorry for how long this was, its just great to finally, after keeping it bottled up so long, be able to acutally discuss this! Just wanted to introduce myself, and say hey!

Peace, love, and health,

Alice

P.S: About my new name. My wife and I knew I'd have to sooner or later choose a name for myself. Here's how we picked Alice:
The first reason is simply because I like the sound, acutally I've always been between Alice and Alyson for as long as I could remember. Second is a reference to Alice in Wonderland and the forrest where she can't remember her name, hence she doesn't know what/who she is. Thats how I have felt my entire life, and now that I can call myself by my name I know who I am...if that make sense to you guys.

Again just saying hey, and introducing myself to these forums for the first time as myself!

 

wow, congrats!!!!!

hope you the best!

 

That is beautiful Alice.,
I'm really touched by your story.
Congratulations,That is Awesome!
So glad you have a loving and supportive wife.That is so cool.
It must be such a giant relief for you to stop pretending to be someone else.
And be you.



I wish I had more freedom to be me.
Although my situation is a bit different than yours had been,
I so wish my girlfriend was more supportive with me.
It's tough to try to be what she wants,knowing I'd push her away otherwise.
Because of this it's a temporary situation.Unfortunate.

Anyways,
That's Awesome.
Enjoy being you at last.

J*