I have been having some inner conflicts, many people tell me when you graduate you get more freedom in our society because of the grades you earn. My father even tells me that if i don't graduate that i will fall out of the system. At this moment i have been kicked out of school for a month (this is 2 months before the final exams, and doing my last year of high school), they said that i didn't followed the rules, they make a problem because i don't pay attention in lessons, because i sometimes don't write everything down, because i sometimes sleep during lessons, because i skip lessons. I never disturbed the lessons, i never caused anyone trouble, but still they seem to have a problem with me. So now i am here at home wasting my time with drugs and thinking about the future. I don't know if i want to graduate and get a job, and in the end have my whole life wasted on hard working. A very wise person i know once said that everyone has to make sacrifices so that he can experience the fun things in life. But i don't know if i want to make such a sacrifice, and do a boring job my whole life, ending up getting no satisfaction in what i did. I would like to be a writer or a poet, but i don't know if i can screw up my education in the hopes that i will find a future in writing. So there is my dilema, i have no fucking idea if i really want to be a part if this absurd society, i wouldn't want to sacrifice the purpose of life just to be part of this meaningless nonesense.
What sane person really wants to be another gear in this failing system? If all else fails, you could always become a monk (any religion). You could also try the peace corp. and do some good. Learn a portable trade, i plan on studying massage, which can be useful anywhere. As soon as possible, i want to get some land and start a communal farm. Live simply, love and prepare for any future strife. I guess what i want to do with my life is be a farmer/mystic/healer. Dont let work define what you are, if you want to write, follow your artistic endeavors whilst working as a journalist or something in the press. you can even try publishing some books. I hope you will be able to find happiness. And hell, if all else fails, and if its the right time, you can live on my farm, for a little share of work.
The Peace Corps requires a college degree and many of their programs strongly prefer a masters degree. Not to mention the Peace Corps is one of the most desirable places to work after college and the Ivy League and elite colleges crank out Peace Corps volunteers who have studied abroad, speak foreign languages, and already have desired skills. You were 2 months away from graduating high school. And lets face it, you're nothing in the working world without a high school degree and with no experience. Hell- most things our parents could have done as drop outs now either strongly encourage or require a college degree regardless of what that degree is. It's not that big of a sacrifice to finish high school in order to know you at least have the very baseline of training required. Unless, of course, you plan on working minimum wage at a fast food place or a grocery store for the rest of your life. Not only is that "working hard", but it's mundane and would kill you.
Being a farmer that must be awesome, living from nature, living your own pace and stuff . i don't know silver, it's always about survival, i'm getting so tired of all of it, i don't know if i really want to live in a world where there is nothing else then money and survival, everything could be so much better. I feel like i damned slave, not physical, but this society wich forces you to be either in or out is so sick.
best thing to do on your first step to unshackling yourself is freeing your mind. Free yourself from all these material temtations that marketing weaves. Amongst the most dispicable jobs out there i would never do include working for credit card companies and marketing. THey both make money off materialism and the suffering of debt people dig themselves into. Real survival is being able to survive beyond strife and collapse of economy and country. If there is a depression what do you think will be more important? Having enough food, or that nice BMW your company gave you for putting in 60+ hourse in and out of the office? We will see who survives to inheret the world.
www.ic.org Learn a practical hands-on skill and join a modern commune. Best solution I can come up with. Good luck to you.
Yea, i think i should do that, maybe.. i should get this high school diploma, stop with all the hard drugs wich is making me depressed and fucked up in the head atm and then live with a commune for a few years and see how that fits, if i don't like it i can always return to society.
I'm thinking with two months to go, study like mad for the slip of paper (it does have a value) and look into a vocation rather than a JOB. Nothing wrong with work. just being crushed by it in your soul. So be active in something that feeds your belly and sings to your soul. I work two jobs. Both are callings: I write for the rent and produce concerts to fill out the "trading coupons" side of paying the bills. Sure I have to give a bit here and there, but we don't all get everything. It's about satisfaction and peace in yourself, while doing some goo dwhile we dance on this planet this time. What do you envision for your life path?
I think i'm going to give a deep think about that, a had a deep conversation with a friend about it recently, and he said that just because your part of society doesn't makes you a slave, once you get out of school you decide how you want to live life yourself, you know.. no-one forces you to be brainwashed and to do what the mainstream wants. I'm just going to be myself, and if after that people can't accept that, then screw them, i'm just going to make the best of it, just because the rest is having a blind miserable life, that doesn't means i am forced to lead the same life and destiny. As long as i'm a freethinkinh individual being, that decides his own fate i can do whatever i want in life, and even society won't put barriers on that. I know that that is exactly the reason why i got kicked out of school for a month, because they can't stand me acting like a unique individual, i make my own rules, and their is nothing wrong with it, if my principal gets frustrated because i don't follow his misarable rules.. well, so be it, rules suck if they are not your own, so all people who think rules have any other meaning than finding balance in his own mind and life.. fuck you, get the fuck out of this world. Well, you know, fuck my prinicipal, i'll just have to find my own ways. There is a exam commision here in belgium, i'm gonna do that stuff, and if i pass it i can do higher studies, or whatever i want, maybe these higher studies offer more freedom, if not.. well.. i guess i'll get in alot of trouble there to.. but well.. screw them.. i'm just gonna do whatever i want.. if i want to do higher studies, then i'll just fucking do it.. screw limitations from other people, from now on i'm going to exerperience what it is to be free. From now on, i won't make any more sacrifices for people who think that rules are here to change people, or to prevent people from being expressive, one has to forge himself to the fullest, not someone else, that doesn't means that others can't help him by aiding in finding his ways in live.. but limiting the conscioness is a rape of the mind. I know that i will get in alot of problems, but i don't care, atleast this way i will be happy, and atleast lived life like it is supposed to be, and feel what it is to have a full free conscioness. Aah man, i think that i sounds like some guy with some kind of fucked up bipolar disorder.. but i had been very down for the last 2 years. because society was trying so hard to change me, during last 2 years i have been constantly have problems with the school directives, and i was starting to give up, to give up my idealism and to become a slave in the hopes that i would find happiness as a slave. I am suprised at the moment that i finanely experience real happiness and not the fake smile that i had been wearing for these 2 years of depression. I know now how i am going to life the future, i now realisize things that i had forgotten. Our society is so miserable because everyone fits himself in this society because they think it's the only way to find happeniss, to be something. THIS SOCIETY IS A BRAINWASHING MACHINE ITSELF Don't blame me for being really happy after this amazing realistion, i'm pretty high and wasted too.. haha. everyone should be more crazy, haha.. we just need to do stuff that are in contradiction with society.. it feels fucking good to do and say wicked stuff. Haha, you are all big wankers see, it is pretty goofy to say that kind of stuff, and enjoying. ahah, i'll look at this post if i'm a bit more down to earth, haha.. fuckers.. maybe i'm just a bit really really fucked up haha.. but i like it.
don't mind about the above post.. i did a bit to much meth.. i now see what it has been doing to my way of thinking.. going to stop with the drugs for a very very long while. i don't need realisations wich come from a altered perception.. i will try to find some real realisations in this world, with my real and normal perception.
finish high school no matter what you do. if you hate high school but do like to learn, college is a really good idea. you'd probably even like it.
Get through high school. The system is designed so that people must follow this path to success (as the system defines it). However, it is only successful, educated people who can make a difference in the system. Maybe that's not what you want to do. But, as was said, if you like to learn, university is probably a good idea. No more of the bullshit that doesn't interest you. If you want to study English, you don't have to put up with Biology, or vice-versa. Believe me, I used to be in your position. Then I realized that it'll be a lot easier, and in the end more fulfilling, to get the high school diploma, then go to university and study something that really interests me. Doesn't mean you have to get a high-paying job if you don't want to. But it does mean that you're knowledgeable about certain subjects, and have the papers to get a good job if you need one. Hopefully even one you like. And quit the drugs, too. That shit leads nowhere good.
