I feel horrible for feeling this way

I hate my brother. I mean really hate. Alot. More than I could possibly imagine having for anyone. I hate him for whats he's done to me, who he is, and for his general presence. Just hearing him walking around the house*he's so loud*drives me to the point of anger. It tears at my soul having so much hate. I don't like it. It wastes so much energy. Not to mention I feel like a horrible person for having the ability to have such dislike for anyone especially my brother. I just can't figure out how to stop feeling this way. I can't go on like this forever. I mean, its wrong to hate anyone for any reason. I mean I should feel pity for his terribly misguided soul. I'll never forgive myself for letting myself fall for his childish games. I'm worse than him in a way. I've made myself a hypocrite. I'm afraid to tell anyone. They would think I was a terrible person.

 

how old is he...

 

Such feelings are normal and often encountered among siblings, no need to worry...

 

First, you are not a horrible person, not even close. I can relate to this very, very much. My older brother is someone who I feel an extreme distain for, I will probably go ahead and say "hate"... He had done things to me that I will not talk about... As time went on, I began to realize that me holding onto this "hatred" for him is not helping me forgive and forget what has happened in the past and it made me have this dark cloud over my head with resentment and feelings of disgust. I realized that I must let go and forgive and to move past what happened and to free myself from the power he still had over me and my feelings. I now bare no feelings towards him such as hate or anything, I feel that me holding onto those feelings was only causing me more pain and letting go of things is such a release and a new start. To let go of that hatred has truly been for the best.
But do not feel like a horrible person because you are not. And don't be afraid of what people will think, you have your reasons and only you know those reasons.

 

I'd like to hear the reasons.

 

Hates such a strong word for realz. I mean he's your brother just ignore him, and the symptoms will go away. If symptoms persist longer than 2-3 weeks contact your physician.

 

Side effects may include drowsiness and slow to moderate death.