I have never been single.

Yeah TheSong... it is really nice just having someone THERE... someone you can relax around and be yourself around...

Praxis... I know what you mean. I love security but I also love risks... if you knew anything about me though you'd know my life is defiantly not lacking in the risk department... haha... seriously I was lucky to marry a guy that hasn't made me stop living... lol...

 

Glad you agree.

I'll find her, it'l be awhile though.

 

that is very dead on about needing a certain comfort level with someone. i think it comes when you realize that men and women aren't that different

Grass is always greener too, I love being with my girlfriend and want to stay, bu at the same time if I were single I would be hooking up with the girl who cuts my hair and the server where i eat a lot, but its not worth it to lose my girl

 

Dude, girls look at me and look away. I'm nothing to marvel over, when I find a girl who is actually interested in me, its awesome enough.

But to get the kind of comfort and flexibility LuckyStripe has, is just insane.

 

That's wonderful. That's just about what everybody wants.

But, hey, marriage is a pretty big risk in-itself. So I'm not brushing it aside.

 

The girl who cuts my hair is just ridiculous.

I used to cut my own hair. Not no more.

 

I'm sure you are something to marvel over, the song And yeah you'll find her...

Yah Gary... the grass is always greener....well, sometimes....

 

thats, um, how a lot of girls flirt. look at yout il you notice, then coyly look away. i mean, not every chick who does that is flirting, but it is how a lot of femmes flirt

i kind of worry about those whove never been single. a few of my friends are rarely to never single, or at least are -always- looking for a relationship if theyre not in one. being single can be relaly healthy, let you get to know yourself, etc. not that being in relationships nonstop is automatically unhealthy, but it can be less than stellar for a lot of peoples personal self-exploration stuff

 

Yeah...and I mean honestly... my husband is lucky... I really wouldn't care if he'd fuck some other girl... although I always tell him I have to like her. Haha. There is this one girl that is interested in a three-some with us that FINALLY meets his standards... he is so picky... seriously... it's shocking that he actually said okay....

Anyways about marriage.... we almost got divorced a couple times...went through some really hard times....
Funny thing is, after getting through them and likely BECAUSE of the hard times, we now get along and have a better connection then we did even when we first met (cause it's much deeper)....

 

Being single too long, cant be healthy either.

 

True.

But I want to point out that I have never ONCE... EVER looked for a relationship...and I think that is why I think dating is so stupid...
and I get so annoyed with my friends who are always looking for relationships...been telling some of them for years to stop looking and then they shall find....

 

Honestly... I'm just a very real, caring, fun person who, in my life, has had lots of guy friends that... I don't know...things just progressed naturally with....

Because I am so wonderful....

And a bit conceited

(haha much of this post is sarcasm btw... you know...about all my wonderful traits... but not about the connections and realness...)

 

I've been single two days now.

Yesterday I started drinking at noon and just kept right on rockin. I haven't been actually drunk in a while. Yikes.

 

I used to drink all the time, to just forget it all.

Weed is all I need now though.

 

wow...

 

Oh I remember it all.

Yee Hah!

 

Lol.
I've never been computerless since I was 15...

 

I used to drink a lot too.. now I don't drink at all and just smoke....

and take benzos.

 

thats funny, ive never really had a girl friend, im very ambivalent in those situations.

I do get by though.

 

I'm the opposite way, besides John I've only had one real boyfriend, when I was 17-18. I cant really remember, we broke up after 4-6 months. He was a very good boyfriend and my mom hated him because he was the best friend of my drug loving cousin and coincidentally that was the time I started doing a lot more drugs, but he never tried to push the idea, on the contrary. I really cared for him and we had a nice relationship for the time it lasted, he was very in love with me and I wasnt. He was more like a friend to me. I think he still has feelings for me, or that's how it felt the last times I've seen him. I havent seen him in years though, but he wrote to me a couple of months back. It was weird. I dont quite understand how anyone could have taken me so seriously back then, because when I look back it all to me was just fun and nothing more and I dont know is like we were all so young and foolish.
The first guy I ever dated when I was 15, supposedly considered me his girlfriend. At least that's what he told people, but whatever we had was so much more careless and it was over in like 3 months. We still talk, sometimes. He's crazy.
Then there are two other guys that I dated when I was 19-20 )not at the same time, I dont do that) and I really liked them, but which one of them was worse to me is yet to be determined. It was also a couple of months on and off.
And then I met John in June, in person in August and we've had been together since then, well we did kinda broke up in late Novemeber, for like 2-3 months and we've been living together since February. We are esposos now



I have no idea why I wrote all that, I think I'm procrastinating taking a shower.