Friday night solo

I just ate my 4 and a half blotters. I have a feeling i'm going to be gone for a while

 

yea, lol. i've been playing some age of empires 3 after i went out skating, so intense dawg!

 

I had a bad trip...but I think its a good thing that I did.

 

Still going pretty strong, by the way,... me= happy to be sane again

 

Its always a bummer but like you said it may be best. Good luck! :beatdeadh

 

It came on very strong. It was going very nicely for a while...then it just got crazy...It felt like I was in some strange delirium. I couldn't think about anything, or focuse at all, and I couldn't let go, either. I turned on the TV and watched the news cause I thought it might help me focus. Buy this point I was having trouble remembering who and where I was. As I listened to the news programs I would think they were talking about me, or to me. From time to time for a brief second, I would realize 'no...your you and in your room right now'.

Somehow, after about 3 hours into the trip I think I fell asleep briefly...or blacked out. But about 45 minutes had lapsed...and suddenly I was conscious after not being conscious. That was probably the worst part. I felt like somebody was scrambling my brain with an egg beater. I had no idea what was going on. It took a good probably 7 minutes to remember that I had taken a drug...and I still could barely grasp who or where I was.

Eventually I had the thought to put music back on. I put on my headphones...listened to Lily Allen until her voice brought me back into sanity. After about 45 minutes of music listening there was a point were suddenly I felt sane again. I knew who I was, and I could think clearly. My thinking, and perception finally had a frame again. And that was the greatest moment of all time.

A lot more to it then that, but I gotta go. Anyway...Lessons for me:

1. I took too much

2. I've been doing this stuff to frequently, and I need to lay off it for a while.

 

damn that sucks. i had an overall good trip but it was WAY intense. from 7-12 i was fryin balls. i got sick and threw up twice which was wierd, but it came on quick and i felt much better after puking. didn't fall asleep until 6:30am or maybe a little later, it had fully worn off by then. powerful stuff

 

Certainly sounds like you weren't short of things to do, it was an experience non the less though - its all in the comprehension. For instances someone may say you bumered out and had a bad trip better luck next time bud, but other people could say that sounds amazing! (not everybody in the world gets to experience complete loss of self and reality in a downward spiral of confusion and bewilderment while the very fabric of their life seemingly dribbles from their grasp - it could almost go on your resume). I know this perspective may seem distorted at the moment but in time forward from now there is no doubt you will never forgot the experience, which is good thing I guess because I would rather that than boring memories.

I wouldn't be coming to any conclusions yet, give your head some time to subside. Its not easy to decipher those trips but in the end they show you more than was otherwise possible, nor do they get solved in a week so just take it as it comes and post any questions you have.

 

ey thanks swizzles for mentioning Lily Allen. I looked her up and was skeptical at first, but I can't deny she's got a awesome sound, esp. the song LDN. I could definitely see listening to her on a trip.

 

Yeah...I like her even more since the trip. There was so much neat stuff she had going on in the background that I'd never realized was there before.