Shit has hit the fan alll over

My mood has been great for days.

No more.

Things are seriously fucked up.

I seriously need people to talk to... I don't even know what to do anymore. FUUUUCK.

 

whatever. no one is fucking awake i suppose....
ill just write about it anyways...
kay... so my car has been not working for the past three months... no big deal... ive kept a good attitude-walk and ride my bike.... now it's in the shop and we think we'll get to get it soon... THEN we find out we wont be getting out stimulus check until mid july---- seriously wtf... and my car is costing $800 to get fixed/pass inspection.....

So yesterday...something good happens...my mother in law sends a $300 check to help with doctor bills....

Oh yes...that's the other thing... from me being so sick and all, in the hospital, MRI'S, etc... I have 20 different doctor bills totaling about $1500 and that is WITH supposivly good insurance.... after two months of not paying a bill they now go to collections also....wtf....

Anyways so we think (and this is for alloyn, haha) "okay gonna use about $60 of the money and buy some more valiums and then use $240 and make a payment on my car, that way we owe less and MAAAYBE can afford to pay it off before mid july when our stimulus check comes..."

Okay but a couple days ago two brakes lights were on on my husband's car- but no problems with his car... he thought it was just a fuse problem....well, last night coming home from work he almost got in an accident.... his brakes are fucked so he has to take HIS car to the shop this morning (btw the brakes and roters are part of the prob. with my car too)......soooo the check isn't even deposited and who knows if itll be enough to fix his car.... it has to pass inspection this month also.... so it'll cost a good bit for emissions and inspection i think is 60 alone....
He works a half hour from home and no buses go there so if we cant afford to get his car fixed.... we are fucked...dunno how he will get to work....

You know... we both quit smoking almost 9 weeks ago...and i quit drinking...i dont spend ANY money (well except when we do things together on weekends)....we go to warehouse clubs for stuff.... my point is with us trying to pinch pennies and quitting those habits there should be MORE money....we should be able to get AHEAD at this point... but now with the doctor bills and the cars.... yeah...will never happen....

 

On top of that... the numbess in my hands and feet has continued to get worse and worse to the point where it's often so painful that I have to keep moving my hands and feet and stuff...

So I do a search last night for that symptom and come up with Peripheral neuropathy being the most likely cause.... okay i used to have a drinking problem (now i dont drink at all).... that could have caused it... but i also used to be over-weight and diabetes is the main cause of peripheral neuropathy in the u.s. so i look up diabetes symptoms.... omg.... ive been irritable for years (a symptom), itchy skin, thirsty all the time, always needing to pee.... so yeah now I think I have diabetes...and this sucks... I'm not even over-weight really anymore (could lose a few pounds but not so bad at all)...anyways this sucksssss.... and my doctor is a complete asshole... when ever i go in there about ANY symptom he tells me to take my ativan... he thinks EVERY physical thing that COULD be wrong with me is ANXIETY. But whatever... I'm calling for a test and a test will show.... cause I think I'm right this time and i"m pissed about it....

Thanks for listening.

I've been in a great mood for days...and I wake up today at 5 am...with my period....(i no longer get pms which is great... but last months cramps had me crying and screaming almost in pain....so yayyy...much to look forward to)..... currently my left foot is numb and so painful and ive BEEN to doctors about this.... im getting so exhausted of going to doctor's and still not knowing what is going on... but im pretty sure about what i came up with last night.... how embarrassing would that be btw?

Oh and my husband is in a shitty mood.
My friend wants me to go to a show his production company is throwing tonight and he's spinning at.... not only would he give me a ride..but pay for me...but I feel like shit... I'm not going....

Yeah... I'm gonna sit around and feel like shit/depressed all day.

 

I would guess your husband, you or friends dont know how to do a brake job? Man if I was there I could talk him through it step by step, its rather easy really (well changing pads, shoes, rotors and drums, calipers and ect)

I know seems when you try to cut back, save ect so much shit hits you that you were not needing to happen and what makes it worse is when you expect money that is due you but it fails to show when you needed it.

Sorry to hear about it, maybe we can find a forumer in your area to assist with the mechanics end?

 

Yeah maybe about finding someone to do the brakes and no, i cant think of anyone off hand who knows how....
Anyways Thanks yank...
Ugh I don't know... I haven't cried in like a record amount of time for me (at least a month) and I'm crying now... yesterday it just seemed like we had a little help and i'd have my car...which i need to get a job or do ANYTHING... i am going crazy being here all the time.... and then to find out.... that money is just sucked up by another car problem. I mean hopefully the money dan's mom sent will cover his car but then no payment on my car... the fucking collection agencies call my phone three times a day, every day while im sitting here with intense pain in my feet and for all the money i owe... no fucking answer....

But yeah... we've been trying so hard to save money and just with both of us not smoking you'd THINK we'd have extra money... but nooo... things keep going wrong all at once. My head is gonna explode.

 

Atleast your trying. alot of idiots are getting money and using credit cards to buy just crap.

Dont let the collectors bother ya, they are just as bored as most, hell answere the phone and shoot the shit with them. Tell em your broke, car is fucked ect so cant help them out but if they fix your car for ya then you might be able to send a little cash there way.

 

Hahaha... I'm gonna actually do that when they call again.... tell them that if they fix my car for me I should be able to pay them. Should be funny to hear what they say.

 

I remember when people called here for me to pay for my x wifes debts. i would so enjoy the conversations. They claimed they would attack my credit ect. I just told them I had all the credit I needed at the local bank and that what ever they said would not stop the local bank from loaning me money. Hell they dont even do an application on me, they just tell me to write a check for whatever i want and they will cover it (helps to be really good friends with the president of the bank) but I have not needed to get any so way cool.

 

Haha.....that's awesome

I remember one time some idiot was calling me from a collection agency... one of the really mean people and he was telling me he was gonna have me arrested if I didn't make a payment. I totally went off on him and threatened to call a lawyer and then he hung up.

 

When I got a bath and feel a bit better... looks like it's gonna be a nice day at least...

But husband is getting up in a half hour and will prolly be all cranky so im dreading that really....

and sitting in the shop for hours with him...fun...

 

Lucky, I am sorry you are going through a rough spot... For the collections situation, i would just tell them that you don't have the money right now, sometimes they will work with you and so forth, but every company is different...

Times in life get extremely hard and just try not to sink down into sadness becasue I know that always makes me feel so much worse and know that you are superwoman and you can push through this... Maybe you should go with your friend (don't know if that's today or if that already happened) might make you feel better, I know when hard times come my way if I sit there and think about it, it will literally drive me insane... Take each day as it comes and try the best you can and that's really all you can do... Wish I had better things to say but I heart you and if it makes you feel better I started my period too and we can have a tampon fight..haha, ah, yeah, I don't know...
Hope you feel better ...

 

Lucky I know time are tough but they will get better you just have to believe they will. Oh and as for the creditors send them 5 bucks a month they will leave you alone. If they don't except it then they are refusing payment.

 

Thanks....
well so far no one is even able to get dan's car IN today so he wont be able to go to work....

I just have a feeling this is all gonna lead to us being homeless....

 

Is there no one he works for that can give him a lift in to work? What about your friends in the area? NO ONE could give him a lift?

I SOOOO know what you are going through. I've been there on numerous occasions. Just when it seemed the darkest things always seemed to work out. With the creditors, send them any amount of money per month and they will stop harassing. Just explain to them that their calls are not putting money in their hands. You are doing everything you can to get them paid and they will get paid once you get things in order. Sometimes they will even give you a few months grace period if you ask. I am not sure if there are any things you could cut out of your monthly bills to help you through this rough patch, but I'd focus on making the payments that are absolutely necessary first. Oh and does Dan have any kind of paid vacation time? I know that sucks, but it might buy you a few days until you get the car together...

 

No... he doesnt get new vacation til June.
Um his friends either would have to do like an hour and a half driving total to get him to work and back or will be working themselves.... my mom will be working...neighbors working.... I just cant believe BOTH of the cars are fucked at once.

Oh...with the creditors...we already send them five or ten a month and they STILL call every damn day.

Okay...anyways...bit of good news.... a place has a slot to look at his car today so we're about to go there now and if it won't be done today...take the bus home.... blah....

 

I want to die
800 dolla per car.



My hands and feet are now constantly numb n no doctors listen.



I havent had a car in three months.



None of my friends ever look out for me...

Yet I have looked out for everyone.



Fuck people and fuck life.



I'm done.

 

i've SO been there, t. collections people really aren't all that bad. call them up and work out a payment plan. what i did was figure up a strict budget first, though. then you call everyone up and find out what the lowest amount you can pay is. we had about $30k of debt, i wasn't working, dave was living out of town, etc. it's hard, and it took a long time to get all the medical bills paid off and to finally get me a car, but we managed.

 

well
we're not even gonna be able to make payments cause d is gonna lose his job now because we cant afford to fix his car and we're gonna be homeless. seriously. we're fucking screwed. my mom wont even give me money. im at my end. i just dont care anymore. i wanna take my whole bottle of valiums. i dont even know why i bother trying... seriously i try so fucking hard.... i hate this fucking life.
i dont care if i sound like a whiney baby.... we're not gonna have a place to live soon or jobs so who fucking cares anymore...

 

he can't take the bus?

 

Breaks are nothing to fix. If I was there I'd do them for you, sorry your having such a shit day lucky.