yea im deffo insane, but i think everyone is. i mean if everyone was sane it would be hella boring. but im not talking about boredom, since i really think i am insane, im a paranoid, schizophrenic sociopath with delusional thoughts, pessimistic attitude, and an urge to destroy everything that pisses me off. watch when im like 20, youll see me on TV for gunning down the penguin ghetto (wigger areas)
The reason i think i am nutty is because i understand what is going on inside my head and no one else does The reason i think i am sane is because i understand what is going on inside my head and no one else does
At times I think i'm crazy, but then I think about it, and what the hell does that even mean. Everyone is crazy. But recently there have been a few occasions when I convinced myself that I was insane, and told myself that I should just accept it. Once when I smoked my friends new vaporizer for the first time, and then a few days later when I was coming down from an acid trip. I was literally going insane and thinking in circles and shit. I'm definitely not your average person, i'm unique, but that's what makes me me. And craziness attracts me to people. "normal" people are boring.
at times i have seriously questioned my sanity. other than the paranoia, i have written down an explanation of my doubts: when i think, i think fluently, like i am talking. it's smooth, like a clean unsmudged pice of shiny glass. but occasionally, overwhelming thoughts, thoughts like shards, jagged broken pieces of glass are skip-stoned along my brain. and those thoughts are anxious, panicky thoughts. it is very scary because it feels like two pieces of myself are struggling to control. well that's it. that doesn't control my life or effect it, and it only lasts about 20 minutes. so am i crazy?
i do that sometimes but i dont think im crazy. I talk to myself constantly, i dont think it means anything. I just dont socialise enough.