I think ive got a lot of negative energy in me... any confirmation on this?

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i feel some energy like a dark blotting river flowing through me... can someone tell me if they can sense this just through looking perhaps at my screen name. i feel as though the death-mark is upon me

 

Well that's no good =/
Ever tried meditation?
Chakras?

Maybe burn some incense? Or sage?

 

Hmmm...enema, maybe? Sorry, bad joke...ummm, how about laughter? Rent a movie that will make you laugh even if you think you can't laugh. Fight Club does that for me...then after you've been laughing for a while, take that positive energy and aim it with your new-found spiritual strength directly at that dark, blotting river, like a firehose spraying bright pink energy, and wash the river away. Keep doing this every day, whenever you can, and if the river comes back when you don't have any funny movies handy, remember that pink cleansing energy. That pink stuff is stronger than any death mark. Kind of like a spiritual enema...

Oh, and the incense and sage and chakra work couldn't hurt, either - but you might find the funny movie method a bit easier.

 

The fact that you "think" you have negative energies makes it so. Hint Hint.



x

 

^^ agreed to all of the above. but i am getting the feeling that you might be picking up on a lot of energies from people around you. like if close friends or family are feeling negatively towards you and projecting their frustrations onto you, you could be picking those up and thinking they are your own. the best way i have found to deal with that kind of transference is just to focus on letting go of all negativity by reminding yourself that nothing negative is real or true. it is all illusion, and has no grip in true reality.

 

Because the sense of separation between "self" and "other" is illusory, negative energy that appears to be sourced from one's surroundings or proximity to others is always just a catalyst for one's own latent negativities. If one relates to the appearance of external energy as the cause of their own negativity, then they have simply succumbed to a victimization mentality, not unlike an alcoholic who blames their addiction on their upbringing or stress at work.

Interesting how "higher states of consciousness" like energetic attunement are still subject to the influences of very remedial ego distortions.

Travis

 

Valuable insights.

But Travis, isn't the condition of the ego one of the biggest factors affecting access to "higher states of consciousness?"

 

That's an interesting issue that tends to get pretty complicated upon deeper reflection and is greatly affected by the nature of each individual's spiritual path.

My sense is that there's a tendency amongst many spiritual aspirants to envision higher states of consciousness as uniformly positive -- we are given access to greater peace of mind, serenity, perceptual acuity, emotional upliftment, etc. etc. And of course, all of that is true. What many people don't take into account, however, is that due to our new-found spiritual empowerment, we must strive to remain more impeccable, devoted, and pure. This actually requires a greater level of commitment to our spiritual paths, because our conscious awareness is being progressively restored and must now be applied to more subtle and deeply engrained ego attachments. The ego distortions that remain aren't in essence any different, they have simply been distilled. This is the reason why there are so many instances of supposed enlightened masters engaging in depraved and manipulative behavior with their devotees -- they have become preoccupied with their capacity to manifest at higher levels of consciousness and as a result have neglected the subtle ego distortions that remain in operation at deep levels of their subconscious, thus creating a "shadow self" that manifests as duplicity in one form or another.

For me, the underlying lesson here is basically that power and responsibility exist in direct proportion to one another (yes, in this case, Spidey is the guru ), and that we must always make a distinction between higher states of consciousness and that which they enable -- the realization of our true natures.

Anyway, I don't know if that answers your question or made sense, but that's what my experiences have revealed to me thus far. This particular phenomenon exists for me on the boundary of the conceptual and experiential, and as a result my ability to fully articulate it remains inadaquate.

Travis

 

Travis, I thought you might give me something to chew on, and I was not disappointed.

I know so many things on the spiritual path are hard to think about clearly and hard to articulate - there are so many aspects to it, and it's a process of continual discovery - but what you've said here resonates for me a lot. I do think an individual's spiritual path can create different nuances of experience, but it seems to me you've expressed the overall idea pretty well.

I don't find the attainment of higher states of consciousness to be uniformly positive at all. From my experience and perspective, the process of prying the ego loose from its attachments is often sheer hell. But maybe I'm just a particularly stubborn student...

The idea of having "a greater level of commitment to our spiritual paths" is understandable, and yet for myself, I've come to a point where I no longer make much effort to push myself to be so committed. Instead I wait until the desire for some particular commitment manifests, and such manifestation generally seems to require life experiences - often hellish ones.

When I try really hard to be "good," my spirits like to annoy the hell out of me until I lose my temper. LOL So I don't try very hard anymore, I just wait for a true, deeply felt desire. My spirits seem to need to strike a balance between scaring me so much I'm afraid to do anything at all, versus coddling me so much I don't learn at all.

I'm not sure if this discussion actually addressed my original question, but it's been illuminating - thank you!

 

big hug! i've been going through a lot of the "sheer hell" you describe lately, as a result of becoming very committed to raising my conscious awareness. i have had the (unavoidably detestable) priviledge of coming face to face with the "dark face" of myself lately. by this i mean, i am seeing through the mirror of someone i see every day, the parts of myself that do not resonate with my deepest soul. the ego i pretend is real, the self perceptions that seem so real but are merely gossamer illusion, mummifying me. letting go of every shred of the visually apparent "reality" that we have been taught from birth is all there is.... yes, yes, how totally hellish it can be.

travis, i admire your comments regarding making a commitment to higher consciousness and growth. similarly, i appreciate the distinction you made in regards to my original post about negativity. and i agree with what you said, wholeheartedly. i too have found that the negativity i "pick up" is only able to be picked up because of my own sensors for that negativity. my comments were not intended to support the victimization thing. but my intent with my post was to reassure the original poster that he is okay, and nothing is wrong with him. it's just a process. i didn't want to reinforce the idea that negative energy is one's fault. it is by no fault of one's own, and no fault of anyone else... it is simply a misperception. this is a lesson i am continuing to learn on a daily basis! for as i am learning, defending oneself from "attack" simply manifests and creates the attack, and gives it reality.

 

Thanks very much for your sympathy, NTH. And a big hug to you, too, since it sounds like you could use some encouragement.

In recent months I've decided that the "dark face" is part of everyone that we need to realistically see for what it is, accept, and love ourselves in this new light of realization.

In other words, we need to shout to ourselves and the world, "I am slime, and I'm proud of it!!!" Or something like that...

It's really not so bad being slime, when you get used to it. What's hard is the people who judge you for your sliminess and treat you...ummm...well, like slime.

It's a bit complicated, this process. I was introduced to my sliminess by my reactions to people being slimy to me - for the purpose, I believe, of introducing me to my sliminess so that I would become more self-aware and self-accepting. Cuz you know, if you try to hide your slime and pretend you don't have any, it has a way of growing and manifesting in ways that are downright socially unacceptable. So in a strange way, denying our sliminess makes us more slimy. What a world... LOL

But I also realize as I'm writing this inane drivel that accepting my sliminess has been very freeing. It's like a burden that has dragged down my wits for years is receding as I gradually accept more of my sliminess. It's kind of like, I don't need to pour so much energy into "defending" myself anymore, so that energy is freer to flow unhindered. Fascinating...

 

Hi EXAR.....I have to agree with xexon. The more you focus on this negative energy, the more negative energy you will attract. You have to change your thinking. I like what Zengizmo says about the bright pink energy. Everytime that negative energy pops into your head, replace the thought with the bright pink energy or something positive that works for you. Good luck.....

 

Hey Exar, How does the darkness feel/come at you? Do you notice it rising around any particular people? When does it happen? Any sort of pattern? Just observing yourself a bit and monitoring your thoughts might help shed a little light on the sitation.

And a bit more pointedly what is it in yourself that you fear? My guess is that beneath this darkness is a radiance so great that you have to cover it in order to function in the world. You're also at an age where you're beginning to make your own way. Be gentle with yourself and allow your soul to unfold at its pace. Dealing with your own purity and divinity can really be a scary thing. But have fun with it. You'll be amazed where the journey takes you.

 

I can sort of see it looking at your screenname. "EXAR". It has a big EX in it, which reminds me of something which has ceased to be. I don't know what an "AR" is, though.

Then on the other hand, I could see how it could be a heroic name as well. So it could go either way. EXAR: KING OF YOBLIATH!