well here goes nothing

its been a good long while.

months....probably a little over half a year.


the first hit of blotter is getting mushy, nearly to the point of dissolving. just swallowed it.

in a few minutes, its time to start on hit two.

i'm trying to decide if i'd like the third tonight, as well, or if i should save it

 

Acid trips are wonderful, as I am sure you know. Go for 3, you'll be glad you did. Have a good trip.

 

i'm going for two as they are of unknown quality and i wish to err on the side of caution. if i so desire, i can always take another later.

however i'm saving the third to try with an MAOi at some point.

hell, even tonight i might try something.

mckenna says smoking syrian rue while already tripping on mushrooms will give some very good, very real potentiation. the same should hold true for LSD. i probably wont do so tonight, but i might.

 

Eat a grapefruit, or an orange. I can't remember which is for acid, and which is for shrooms.

 

have fun, nesta!

 

neither, both is bull

either way...



is how i feel

 

have fun man! bout to fire up a bowl, sending some good vibes yr way

 

you don't sound too excited...

have fun!!! you're more likely to have a good trip if you're happy

 

there aren't any good or bad trips, just trips

 

how's your trip coming along right now?

 

at this point, very stimulated still (fortunately, i love the stimulation most psychedelics provide. it feels fresh, pure, and wonderful....not like stimulant drugs such as amphetamines, caffeine, cocaine, and so on....)

i'm approaching far more normal perceptions of the physical world around me.

i'd say i'm returning to normal reality as far as my mind is concerned, but to be honest i'm not entirely sure how familiar i actually am with "normal" reality, so maybe i cannot make such a judgment.

i feel very good. lots of purging tonight both physical and mental...

there is a lot more that still must come out, but this has felt like a very, very worthwhile session, though not of earthshattering proportions....

i also feel more able to break some habits of mine (namely drinking) in the future. i feel i have gained a lot of perspective...

its almost as if i've lived through many lifetimes over the past few hours. i fail to put all that i experienced into words.

three hits would have been perfect. two was very, very, very good for just two hits though

 

that's awesome you had a good time.
your trip sounds like the trips i wanna have next time i do psychedelics.
were you tripping by yourself? that's something i want to do in the future.

 

just myself. i usually trip alone in most cases.

 

i only ever tripped by myself once, on shrooms, and it was really boring.
i wanna try acid sometime, and i think i'd be better off doing it by myself.
i wanna have a mind opening really crazy trip

 

Sounds cathartic.

Quitting drinking may be a damned good idea. Alcohol is one of the most toxic things we put in our bodies. Adding alcohol to an awesome high is a little like smothering filet mignon with ketchup.

 

i love acid..the trip just feels so much "cleaner" than shrooms to me..not that its good for you because i know its not at all..it just opens up my mind and keeps me happy as hell, but shrooms i think are a little more 'intense' of a trip and alot harder for me to control, especially while im around a lot of people. i can be alone or at a festival and i'll still always enjoy a good acid trip!! i cant wait for hookahville this weekend!>!>!>!>!


glad to hear you had a good trip man!

 

i'd heard the word before, but i had to look up the meaning of cathartic.

but it was cathartic, and moreso than with most trips i've had.

i feel very good, but recognize what's wrong and bad as well...

i've got more things i need to look at, examine, and fix.

but i feel like there's a weight off my shoulders, and i do also feel like there are healthier, happier days ahead of me

the physical purging i've undergone tonight is not typical for me in terms of LSD. it felt fine, though. unpleasant, yes, but not scary or hellacious by any means. it felt cleansing, even-ing at the time....removing bad things from what is me....

i feel physically and spiritually very well, though in need of more growth and love.

apart from a tiny bit of chocolate i had shortly before dosing, i haven't eaten a bite since 10:30 yesterday morning....i'm getting hungry, but it's ok at this point. tomorrow morning i will have a nice breakfast! probably pasta with pesto sauce, yum

 

i am awake and ready for the day. i have to work later, but not until 5:30, so that ok. in fact, i look forward to it. a nice short shift tonight.

i still have not eaten, and with the exception of the dark chocolate before the trip and two spoonfuls of peanut butter last night before bed, this is the longest i've gone without actually eating. its kind of wierd how comfortable i am with it, and how little it bothers me.

i do need to eat, and i still may go for the pasta with pesto sauce, but i may just stick with plain rice and some water or tea.

i am still surprised by how much purging i did last night. i vomitted several times, and had to use the toilet several times as well. in my experience with LSD this is not common. my belief is that i went into the experience open to it being a sacred rite and not just getting high, tripping out, whatever.

the substance allowed me to explore my psyche as well as my body, and purged my body of things which aren't good to keep inside. the physical and spiritual poisons left my body simultaneously.

there is much more i need to do. i will make time for at least two or three more trips before i go off to school, and at least one of these must take place out in the woods, in the trees. i'm considering this as a possibility of a good opportunity to prepare myself some real ayahuasca. of course i can't say i'm READY to take the step into that world, and i know it will be like no psychedelic i've ever used.....

but i feel like soon i will be as prepared as one can be, even if no one can be completely ready for ayahuasca.

last night i not only purged things that are making me physically, spiritually, and mentally ill; i saw what else there still is that still needs to be removed.

in order for this experience to do me some good, i must be vigilant during my normal day to day that i keep up with what i've learned and behave better. eat better. never drink to the point of drunkenness. get outside more. listen to the plants and animals. release my body, release my mind of things that have been hurting me.

i am currently acquiring more psychedelics, because i feel the time is perfect to use such things as a tool to better myself and my life, and its only so long before i'll be living in a dorm and have even fewer chances of exploring these states and what they have to teach me.

primarily i am purchasing dried cactus tissue. ~30g of Trichocereus peruvianus, and ~30g of Trichocereus bridgesii. these will be made into the so-called san pedro "tea." i look forward to this very much.

 

Colin, welcome back. Or wait, welcome home? Or welcome to the network? :tongue:
That's very bizarre that you got sick from LSD. Do you think it's purely energy related, like you mentioned in a roundabout way? Parasitic negative intentions, demons, obsessions, etc? Or were your visuals a little too disturbing?
I actually, the only time ever, got a slight nauseas feeling from 8 hits of LSD when I could literally see through my skin. However with L I have the mental capacity to shift gears at my every whim, contrary to mushrooms, so the sickness passed within minutes.

 

i know, its wierd.

i've been highly interested in psychedelics lately, and have been learning a LOT about things, in particular how they can be used in a spiritual/religious setting. primarily i've been looking into ayahuasca and other DMT bearing preparations used by shamans...

i think this may have colored my trip to some extent, but i'm not certain.

i think it was primarily physical and spiritual poisons i was removing from my body. a lot of it was just mental, i know, but i welcomed the idea of getting "sick" and releasing everything from my system that shouldnt be there.

i think the purging was a result primarily of desire and expectation, an effortless pursuit of cleansing and release. i wanted it to happen. further i haven't tripped in a very long time, and the last few times have been similar, and even with "normal" doses i've been having stronger, more meaningful trips. part of the sickness, i find, lies in essentially shocking your psyche....dropping a psychedelic into your brain may often make one sick simply from rattling them up, not from any physical problem.

so i expect it was intentional, i expect it was a byproduct of being unable to cope with shifting reality, i expect it was release of poisons, i expect it was release of evil, and i feel cleansed and healthy this morning.

last nights experience was dramatically different from previous LSD trips i've had in the past, and different from most trips i've had on any substance as well. it felt a lot more clean, pure, and holy than prior acid trips i've had.

i used to trip a lot, and started using psychedelics simply for entertainment purposes.

in the past two years i've used them very sparingly, and have developed a much healthier and spiritual respect for them. its odd, in a way....the less i use them, the more profound they seem to become.

i will say the trip was way stronger than most 2-hitters i've done in the past, but like with most trips and most psychedelics i had very little in the way of visuals. three would have been ideal, but oh well.

in addition to the 60g of dried mescaline-bearing cactus i've got coming in the mail, i also ordered 10 HBWR seeds. the seeds i will likely take all together, along with the remaining hit of acid. ive had both substances individually, but never simultaneously. it will be interesting to see what a cocktail of lysergic compounds is like. i expect more nausea and gi disturbance than with the acid, but that is ok with me.

i'm at a point where the vomitting is not bad or undesirable, just part of the whole package.

i'm very, very excited to try the cacti, though. i can't wait

i got enough for what will hopefully be a hell of a dose, due to some poor results in a prior attempt at consuming cactus. i used a fresh cutting, and wasn't able to get it all down. i got very, very little effect. this should be far more strong, and i will prepare it in a somewhat more traditional fashion in order to ensure i get as much of the magic as possible. hurray for gross, bitter potions!